Ok so since October/November I've been really sick and some of you know. I've had leg pains, joint pains ect. So on new years eve I went to my dads and got really weak in the airport and while I was there felt this weakness a number of times. As well as that I was drinking a lot more than I normally would and going to the bathroom a lot. And when I came home the symptoms didn't go away and then I fainted in front of my mum one night and she got really worried and was telling me that I'm showing all the signs of diabetes and I said fine I'll go to the doctors on Friday and then the next morning I came down and fell again so I was told doctors now and my GP wouldn't see me and I had to see the nurse and he took my blood sugars. Blood sugars are meant to be 4-7 and mine were 8.5 So I was sent to the hospital for blood tests.
The following week I FINALLY got to see my GP and he said everything is perfect there is nothing wrong, at that stage I was unable to go into college I was unable to go out, or to even carry out normal everyday tasks. I went mental saying I need to know whats wrong I can't do normal everyday things. So he said right it may be vascular so make an app in the hospital you may be waiting 6 months. And at this stage my mum said that's not good enough because she can't go to college. So he gave me a note for A&E. I went to A&E was put into a bed and passed out again then my veins collapsed. So finally when they got the needle and the drip in I'd to do a urine sample. It came back as a massive kidney infection but it wasn't a UTI and this infection had been there for over a month.
I was put onto antibiotics. And I finished them on Tuesday but I have gotten worse and ended up in A&E this morning because I couldn't feel my legs and I had bad leg pains the night before. I was admitted and at 2 o clock the doctor came around and said we are letting you out because we can't find anything so eat more and talk to your GP.
My GP wouldn't see my in the first place that's why I'm so bad.
So all I'm saying is in future I don't think I'm ever going to ask a doctor for help, because it is an absolute joke. I know something is wrong with me and they are doing fuck all about it. I'm not happy. So fuck the medical system it's a fucking joke. Thanks to the triage nurse that promised they were going to find out what's wrong with me today. Thanks a fucking million. Mood: depressed Music: ELuveitie
So I am just letting everyone know I have the flu. And I am not in the best humor. And I am very sore. And my vision is going bandy.
So my day`sucked. I got up at 7 with every intention of going into college and I just couldn't. And normally when I'm sick if I put on my lipstick I feel better but I didn't So I went back to bed. But I could sleep, then I was way to warm so kicked of my blankets and my mum came home from work and said the house was like ice and put the heating on, so I was very irritable.
And my face feels like wax. And I am very dizzy and pukey and head achey and blahhhhhh, and all I want is a cuddle.
So to conclude I feel like shit. Mood: sick Music: tv
Ok so I had my oral presentation today and I dragged myself outta bed and as you know I'm not well. My voice is practically gone and I can hardly see or hear and how was I greeted?? Can't do it today forgot the camera so I had to sit in my class all day and do the exact same work I did the night before again because everyone is so brain dead and lazy they don't know how to take a pen from there bag.
Like my teacher is such a fucking hypocrite!! Our first day she stood in front of us and said "I won't nag you for the work" Yet she is spending class time making sure people do their assignments subscribed to do at home!!
(Becomes all bitchy like a teenage american girl *blows bubble and twists hair)
Oh so like wow so like what happened to originality?? Like aren't cults all about making new friends and finding common interests?? Like what has happened to the world when someone is judged on appearance and interests in order to join a cult?? So this cult "NerdySexyDorky" Needs to by boycotted because apparently all they are about is making people feel like shit!!
ONE of my BESTEST online friends bbaracudaa was judged and humiliated today by this piece of shit cult and they are continuing to harass him in his own journal.
Something needs to be done.
I can safely say they will not be receiving me as a member I do not support bullies.
Nics xxxx
Mood: Like totally pissed off Music: Linkin Park like who else??
Ok so kidney infection. Not cool. I'm miserable already.
My cousin had a baby. So I'm upset about that. Why am I not happy for her?? Lets see, she gets pregnant and drops out of college and she's praised for it. I hate her. And I'm sick of hearing about her baby. And how cute it is. Well it's not.
Boyfriend issues!! What's new eh?? Ok well we've been fighting a lot as of late. a few weeks ago we were fighting because he wants me to wait till I'm a hag to have kids. When I want them now!! Then today he just throws it back in my face by suggesting that I'd trick him into knocking me up. So were fighting and fighting and it escalates into how he flirts with other girls. And how he never gets jealous!! Like seriously I was sitting on his lap and some guy comes up and hits on me and he fucking laughs instead of getting pissed off!! WHAT THE FUCK!!
Like I think and other girl would know how much that fucking hurts!! Mood: miserable!! Music: Linkin Park Numb
So I went back to bed.