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TheHybrid's Journal
ROAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Me Myself and ????
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October 26, 2008, 05:06:am
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There are times when you just gotta be you. You go to work you have to conform to there rules. Cant do this, cant do that, gotta wear this, cant wear that. Gotta make the customers stay a pleasant one what kinda thing. So at work I conform ... be "normal". What is that anyway can anyone really tell me??? Whats normal to one person is off the wall to another so defining normal is and abstract concept then right??? I think so.
Went to a strip club tonight in full gear except makeup (Gothic). Now of course I was ready to answer some pretty stupid questions like do you like death??? or Why are you dressed like that??? They boys from work know me well enough to realise it just makes me comfortable to wear clothing like that so they dont say a word to me just let me be but talk to him as well.
Everything was great until ..... leaving the bar and was asked to cheer up. I looked at him and said who says I'm unhappy??? Do you go around telling people who wear bright colors faggots??? It took a little explaining what I meant then when he finally clued into it he said no. I asked him if he was a farm boy cause he had a cowboy shirt on. By the end of it I almost got into a scrap over his unwillingness to realise calling people this or that just because of there clothes is well silly.
Can someone tell me why in today's world there are still people basing opinions of others because of there dress Or think of people this way or that way cause of there race??? Does it make people feel better cause they have to have someone to well be better then??? Or is it cause no matter how many steps forward we take we go back twice as many???
Sometimes I think I was born in the wrong era. I'm 36, Gothic, into BDSM, and love my music cranked up to 1000. I'm living a teenagers life but I love who I am and what I do. Isn't that all that matters as long as I dont kill someone???
Nuff said??? Yep I think so
Another Day In The Life Of Pitt
P.S. Totally ranting there but meh
Mood: Thoughtful
Music: none
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Our first fight (???)
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October 10, 2008, 09:33:am
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Weird how it happens. I wanna call it a fight but was it really a fight or just two people wanting each other so badly and it couldnt happen last night. In any case we both feel terrible about it.
How do I feel??? At this point Im more angry at myself then anything. All she wanted was time with me and I couldnt give it to her cause I was tired and worked today. What I wanted to give her was that time with me .... gah I feel terrible right now. I saw her journal and it crushed my heart more ..... I knew I was hurting both of us but I was hoping it wouldnt hurt her at all trying to fool myself into believing it I guess. I feel even worse then I did last night.
*sighs*
Another mistake done by yours truely that just shouldnt have happened at all ..... I miss her and will not be able to function right today until her and I talk
I love you Danielle always will
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Car ..... Dodge .... Caliber .... 2008
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October 08, 2008, 09:24:pm
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Yes I got a new car 2008 Dodge Caliber SXT ... no leather or sunroof but as all the other bells and whistles .... A car to be proud of my Mom and Dad said .... and there right .... oh its inferno red (deep red) with white and grey interior .... want to know more just ask me ...
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Sometimes I need to take my own advice
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September 19, 2008, 10:22:pm
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Having a wierd day today.
Its been a rough week all around. Work sent me out of town all week. Ive been sick. Top that all off with a close friend hurting themselves. Now under normal rules Id be all cool with it. The calm cool collected one help everyone and make things better for them just by simply listening.
Right now Im have issues myself. Im begining to go down hill again. First bad sign .... not caring about helping people or not. Second .... wanting to pull out the bottle again. Third .... not eating like I should. Forth ... wanting to be by myself no hanging out with the boys after work.
But to say Im fine is so easy to people on the net ... as I have found out recently with another friend. She was so depressed but yet all Pitts men couldnt put her back together. I know it sounds like she died but in reality only a part of her beauty inside died. She is alive and well.
*thinks*
This is my first birthday without Gramma here but Ive dealt with that loss. Told myself by this time Id be settled not having her around for the special events anymore.
*thinks*
Dealing with death has no time limits I remind other people. Time to remind myself how much Gramma ment to me at my Birthday.
Mood: Grummpy/Sad
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