So I met this guy in his 20's on OKStupid. What was I thinking?
But here is what happened, I thought he was cool, talented, sweet, but I picked him up at his mom's and drove him out to his brother's really far North. The first thing he said was hey can we get some suboxone?
I'd never heard of it. I did not want to do that. I should have turned around, I almost did, but he'd promised me gas money.
I liked him I did, he had a nice smile. He said oh ok it's alright nm just please drive me to my bro's house in the country. It was a long ride but we talked. He said a few things. It went okay. We had been talking on the phone a lot before this and I was having family problems. My brother had moved home. He knew about me. He liked how I looked he said. So fast forward we are dating and I'm going out to his house a lot. I ended up spending all this money on him,stupid I know. He had told me he was a recovered addict but not for very long.
We smoked a lot. He smoked a ton of cigs. I didn't smoke or do bad stuff. He came to my mom's. He ended up writing a check in my name. I filed charges and filed a PPO. Then he talked me out of the PPO. I had to change my bank account. He cried and gave me a sob story about a bad dealer after him. So I accepted it. So lastly fast forward I get an apt move out on my own and he's staying over. Now he's performing retail fraud even though he got a job out by his bro's at Kroger's. He ended up being picked up on a citation, then shipped out for a warrant for possession of heroin previously elsewhere. Now he's out on bond calling me. First he was sweet. Then he says he's got my soc sec card and a bank card for another account. I don't have any money in any of my accounts but I changed them all anyway because I get deposits from time to time. I went to the soc sec office can't change number but make sure that no one can make changes except in person. Lastly I guess I'm going to have to do life lock to protect myself. I've already been victim of id theft once. This is really terrible. I'm changing number tomorrow. I can't believe I fell for his crap again and again. He stole some not very valuable rings. All for this awful habit. Oh, and he gave me some at one point to try and now I feel all weird but I'm gonna be okay. Idk. Beware. Heed my story. Not everyone is okay. I've never dealt w such bull. All the while telling me how pretty I am etc. It is a nightmare.
I am not sure what is going to happen at this point, I only know if I make it through all of this I hope to be able to never ever have this happen to me ever again.
I doubt I will die. There is a great big hole in my heart where all others have torn it asunder. As pretty as I may seem to some.
As okay as I can portray, deep inside I am empty and all I want is to be loved but I will never be truly loved.
I am Ophelia, layn in the lake.
Take my soul.
I don't want to live anymore but I will because pills and alcohol only make you numb. I am a coward.
I can't even slit my wrists like when I was younger.
My heart is bleeding on a stick.
I am a true vampire it's why Im here. I have no heart, no blood, no soul.
I am emptiness.
I am a fading rose off the bloom. I am red blood on white snow.
I am ashes in the wind. I am Dying tree branches.
I am death. I don't blame those that run from me. I would to. I don't blame Geoff. I blame me.