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Fuck this! :/
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January 09, 2012, 06:53:pm
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Why is it ok for you to go out, and fuck other people?! Why is it ok for you to like someone else?! Why are you allowed to be jealous, for no reason?
If the tables were turned I was fucking other people behind your back, how would you fucking feel?
If I "loved" someone else, how would you deal with it?
If I started to say how jealous I was, and threatened by other girls, I'd be in the wrong, and be silly for thinking such a thing.
You'd kill me if I was seeing and fucking other people behind your back, but I have to be ok about, cause otherwise I lose you. I AM NOT OK WITH IT! DO NOT FUCK OTHER PEOPLE AND EXPECT THAT YOU CAN FUCK ME.
You'd tell me I couldn't love you and love someone else. Me I actually genuinely understand you can be in love with more than one person. I've never experienced it, but I'm friends with someone who has, and I believe in the fact it can happen.
But me, I'm in love with you, only you, you are my other half, that jigsaw piece of my soul that's been missing.
WHY THE FUCK AM I SOO UNDERSTANDING!? Because your having a hard time right now, cause you've just lost your uncle. Because I love you to death, and back and want to be yours, and I want you to be mine.
You say it can't work cause I'm never there, I work too much. I take days off to be with you, just you, and you make other plans. How do you think that makes me feel? I don't mind you seeing your mates, in fact I encourage it, so we have a life that is seperate from each other. But like you say, I work alot, why not pick one of those days? Why one where its an us day?
IF YOU DON'T LOVE ME, AND DON'T WANT ME, DON'T FUCK ME ABOUT, BECAUSE I'M SICK OF IT. IT MAKES ME FEEL SOO SHIT. WHY DO I DESERVE TO BE TREATED LIKE SHIT?! WHAT THE FUCK HAVE I DONE THAT WAS SOO BAD THAT I'M NOT WORTHY OF, AN EXPLAINATION, OF THE RIGHT TO THE SAME FAIR TREATMENT THAT YOU GET FROM ME, OF BEING IN LOVE WITHOUT GETTING PUNISHED FOR IT.
My feelings seem to mean nothing, to you, or to anyone to be brutally honest.
I apologise for anyone who reads this, I just really need to rant and rave somewhere... 
Mood: Pissed the fuck off
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