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SilentSerenade's Journal
[insert dramatically cryptic journal title here]
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You know the world has been shot to shit when...
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November 17, 2008, 11:21:am
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-When people whore of their 14 year old friends online.
Sick assholes.
-When your friend who knows your whole entire uber stressful situation and not only is very inconsiderate of it and your feelings but throws her perfect happy wonderful situation in your face.
(I refuse to elaborate on this one, for the story is far too long and it's a drama you either already know about or won't care about)
Anything else you think I should add to the list? Send it via comment.
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College life
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October 13, 2008, 09:06:pm
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Ever since I've been in school...
-I find I've been eating a whole lot healthier.
-My appetite has drastically decreased.
-I have strange cravings for things I've never cared for (I.e. Black Olives, 2 cups of which I've just consumed without batting an eye. Fucking GROSS, right?! x___X ugh, but I want so much more...I have green olives, but those are gross, so it's just soo close and yet...so far...).
-I also have strange cravings for things I rarely ever used to have (I.e. Everything bagels and Apple cider) but were always a nice treat..
-I have far less Carbonated beverages/toast/cereals I like even though they are made more available to me.
-I'm far more studious and I do all of my homework with exponentially less corner-cutting and procrastinating and I WILL stay up later just to finish it.
-I've been even more serious about the relationship I'm in.
-I'm so much HAPPIER, even though some people here are just as spoiled and bratty as the people back where I grew up.
-I actually study productively with other people.
Well, I can attribute the happiness to my new location in what I feel to be the most beautiful state. The mountains here are starting to turn that delightful shade of pumpkin as the leaves die off. I'm so happy because my free time allows for stress relief and the ability to devote more time to the people I care for and the fact that I'm taking classes I want makes my week easy going enough without overdoing it.
Happiness, being the very opposite of depression, may also be the cause for the sharp drop in the amount of food per sitting I eat. It would be reasonable to assume that the reason all I did was eat back home was because I was definitely not happy with my situation. As for the healthy part, the more healthy foods are more easily accessible in the cafeteria. I'm sure that if the wonderful school Ice cream was placed in an area closer to the exit, I would be stopping there on my way out just because there is always some awesome flavor calling my name.
The olives, bagels and Apple cider? I suppose that can be explained by the The fact that Apple Cider and everything bagels here as as rare a treat as they were back home, but it's far better. I never at any kind of olives at home, but once I couldn't find the chopped garlic and I needed something to season my lunch since I got to lunch late and the hot food was all gone so I grabbed some olives and threw them in the wok only to find the garlic a little bit later. Moreover, the other day I snagged some from the Dining hall for a friend who ended up not needing them and I just randomly opened my minifridge and started munching on them because I WANTED them. The Cereals are, like the ice cream, out of the way, but the carbonated beverages aren't, so I guess I'm just too lazy to grab some cereal because it's not nearly as appetizing as it used to be and the sodas just...aren't as satisfying as Apple juice, Grape juice, water or chocolate milk to me anymore.
As for my Study habits, It's quite a big change for me to be so wrapped up with my work. I'm taking classes that mean more to me with teachers I actually really really respect and it feels nice to occupy my free time. Sometimes I do get a little lazy, but for the most part I've been really good at keeping on top of things and minimizing distractions. I've been so determined to improve myself and my work ethic that people actually come to me for help.
It feels Really nice to be respected again...
I mean, I've had a few incidents with some people and their Egos, but that aside, everything is more than I could have ever imagined...
(...except for the lack of olives/bagels/Apple cider in my fridge... x____x I'll have to re-stock tomorrow and go shopping)
Mood: Content, for the moment
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Contradiction
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July 25, 2008, 10:21:pm
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I am Restless, but Exhausted at the same time...
I want to do everything, but I'm too lazy to actually follow through.
Life had been filled with such torturous contradictions as of late.
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