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ShAwNaSuNsHiNe's Journal
just things that pass my time by
every action , or thing i tend to write , is an everday thing in my life so deal
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completely dismayed
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August 23, 2008, 12:10:am
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hmm.. i dont understand how people like to tell you can do something ( my father for example ) then turn around and tell you cant after you do so much work, just to be able to stay going where you thought you were able to go. Soooo im putting my father in the bastard/liar section of my life for the day. cuz it was pretty fucked upppp.. he said yes to me on monday, and i worked my ass off stayed nice, and made sure thursday i was still able to go, then today he gos.. you know you dont need to go any where. you need to stay home for a couple weeks. -_-" i asked him if i was in trouble.. he said no i just dont want you to go anywhere.. so i fought with him and got pissed and for two weeks. i have a grudge to hold and ill give him the stink face until he understands why im pissed.
Mood: blah
Music: Summer song - chase coy
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feeling sick to my stomach......
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August 18, 2008, 11:00:am
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my ninah was just rushed to the ER. diffaculties breathing.. ):
my dad saying its going to be okay.. not really believing it and i dont believe it.. im fuckin pissed.. he didnt even go with her.im not a pessimistic person
but damnit... i know when someone is going to live or die....
Mood: down
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(: im lovin life.
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August 15, 2008, 11:00:pm
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life is just pretty feekin amazing at the time and being (:. jeremy is still my lover ( after three almost four months ) i got my guitar,ive been driving around with my best friend every day since i got back from tulsa (: gaviiiieeeee ily (: he cracks meee up were like feekin bonnie and clydeeee. (: he completes me, we both have the same opinions upon people, we laugh alot, we cry together, we even scream cuss words at random drivers whoo obviously cant use their blinker. (: he doesnt know everything about me, and i dont know everything about him, but im happy, im comfortable enough to let him know soon, and him the same...
uhh gaawd life = nothing can ever be better (:
Mood: happier than hell
Music: sunshine
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hmm i dyed my hair
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June 11, 2008, 05:26:pm
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what do yooh think
its bright auburn red.
oh and the ones of me and my
glasses those are new too (:
and compare to my natural hair color
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wel lheres the deal.
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May 31, 2008, 06:26:pm
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im going to be gone pretty much all summer so. i wont be on much. maybe iwont even be on. but too all of my friends i hold dear i love you guys. leave a number and ill call you. ttyl <3
Mood: downish
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how my weekend went
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May 27, 2008, 11:09:am
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hmmm it was pretty good until i found out a couple things. well me and jody broke up yesterday. him and his father exspected me to lie about going to the rodeo to their grandmother. she called me and asked about it. and i told her the truth. for one i thought they had already said something and for two i hate lying and i felt horrible about it. i really cared for jody, he was sweet. but he put me in a situation like that, its not fair to me, or him. and i am not obligated to lie damnit. well anyways i called him to talk to him and he broke up with me so i hung the phone up on his lil prick ass. and his grandmother calls this morning to tell me how old he really is. he and his father both lied and told me that he was 17. hes 14 fucking years old. wtf??? uff im so damn pisssed and confused.
like i still like him. but the fact he lied to me, put me into a bad situation, and hes fourteen just makes things so bad. i dont like it. i dont know whether to hate him for life or to want him back. cuz im really actually hurting over this.
Mood: hurt
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wel this is lil ole me tellin yall i wont be on until sunday night im going to be with jody all weekend (: so leave me a messege or comment (: and i will reply later
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A walk through hell
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May 21, 2008, 01:29:pm
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And if I could swim, I'd swim out to you in the ocean,
Swim out to where you were floating in the dark.
And if I was blessed, I'd walk on the water you're breathing,
To lend you some air for that heaving, sunken chest.
'Cause they chose you as the model for their empty little dreams,
With your new head and your legs spread like a filthy magazine.
And they hunt you, and they gut you, and you give in.
And if I was brave, I'd climb up to you on the mountain,
They led you to drink from their fountain spouting lies.
And I'd slay the horrible beast they commissioned
To steer me away from my mission to your eyes.
And I'd stand there, like a soldier, with my foot upon his chest,
With my grin spread, and my arms out, in my bloodstained Sunday's best,
And you'd hold me; I'd remind you who you are under their shell.
I'd walk through hell for you, let it burn right through my shoes
These soles are useless without you
Through hell for you, let the torturing ensue;
My soul is useless without you...
And if they send a whirlwind, I'd hug it like a harmless little tree.
Or an earthquake, I'd calm it, and I'd bring you back to me.
And I'd hold you in my weak arms like a first born.
I'd walk through hell for you, let it burn right through my shoes,
These soles are useless without you
Through hell for you, let the torturing ensue;
My soul is usless without you...
Through hell for you
Through hell for you
Without you, without you...
Through hell for you.
Without you...
Through hell for you
Now I've walked through hell for you.
What's an adventurer to do,
But rest these feet at home with you?
i wish the person i made dedicated this song was still ok with me
Mood: a walk through hell -say anything
Music: really down and out.
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oh wat the fuck ever. listen i dont have the patience for peoples bullshit.
you dont talk to me. or dont like me delete me from your friends. list ok?
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uff
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May 20, 2008, 12:37:pm
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im pretty much sher i just sneezed so damn hard i not only ripped my septum ring a lil bit, and i gave my self a nose bleed
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