My friend who is like a sister to me just found out that her mom's cancer came back and she has 9months-a year to live. Shes telling me how she doesnt wanna be here anymore cause her mom is all she has. I'm scared im gonna lose my sister. Almost everyone I get close to either ends up dieing, hurting me, or just leaving. i dont wanna lose her. shes all that i really have right now besides my parents and i cant even talk to them about anything. how the hell am i gonna go threw the future that me and her planned without her there, it wont be possible. Mood: Scared out of my mind
200: My middle name is: Renee.
199: I was born in: October 24th, 1997
198: I am really: Caring
197: My cellphone company is: Verizon(I hate it)
196: My eye color isark Brown
195: My shoe size is: 9-9 1/2
194: My ring size is: IDK
193: My height is: 5’4
192: I am allergic to: idk
191: My 1st car was: a dodge truck
190: My 1st job was: Babysitting.
189: Last book you read: Scarlet
188: My bed is: a very comfy queen
187: My pet: dog
186: My best friends: Rubi and Melanie
185: My favorite shampoo is:idk
184: AIM name:
183: Piggy banks are: Full of money ^_^
182: In my pockets: Nothing!
181: On my calendar: My Boyfriend and familys birthday
180: Marriage is: A way to Show how much u really care about someone
179: Spongebob is: Awesome.
178: My mom :is a big pushover
177: The last three cd's I bought were? Sleeping with sirens, escape the fate,lights
176: Last YouTube video watched:
175: How many cousins do you have? More than I can remember
174: Do you have any siblings? Biologically I have none, but if not in that way then I have 2
173: Are your parents divorced? nope
172: Are you taller than your mom? nope
171: Do you play an instrument? Learning how to play the guitar
170: What did you do yesterday? I was on here.
[ I Believe In ]
169: Love at first sight: YES.
168: Luck: KINDA.
167: Fate: YES.
166: Yourself: not really……
165: Aliens: not really
164: Heaven: kinda
163: Hell: kinda
162: God: no
161: Horoscopes: sometimes
160: Soul mates: YES.
159: Ghosts: YES.
158: Gay Marriage: YES!
157: War: IDK.
156: Orbs: yes
155: Magic: YES-ISH.
[ This or That ]
154: Hugs or Kisses: Kisses.
153: Drunk or High: high
152: Phone or Online: phone
151: Red heads or Black haired: Black.
150: Blondes or Brunettes: Blondes
149: Hot or cold: Cold
148: Summer or winter: Winter.
147: Autumn or Spring: autumn
146: Chocolate or vanilla: Chocolate.
145: Night or Day: NIGHT!!!
144: Oranges or Apples: Apples.
143: Curly or Straight hair: Straight!!
142: McDonalds or Burger King: burger king
141: White Chocolate or Milk Chocolate: Milk Chocolate.
140: Mac or PC: Mac.
139: Flip flops or high heels: Flip Flop.
138: Ugly and rich OR Sexy and poor: SEXY AND POOR!!!
137: Coke or Pepsi: coke
136: Hillary or Obama: IDK!!!
135: Burried or cremated: Cremated.
134: Singing or Dancing: Singing
133: Coach or Chanel: IDK!
132: Kat McPhee or Taylor Hicks: Kat McPhee.
131: Small town or Big city: big city
130: Wal-Mart or Target: Wal-Mart.
129: Ben Stiller or Adam Sandler: Adam Sandler.
128: Manicure or Pedicure:manicure
127: East Coast or West Coast: west coast
126: Your Birthday or Christmas: birthday
125: Chocolate or Flowers: Flowers!!!
124: Disney or Six Flagsisney, I love it there
123: Yankees or Red Sox: neither
[ Here's What I Think About ]
122: War: ITS STUPID.
121: George Bush: STUPID.
120: Gay Marriage: AWESOME.
119: The presidential election: stupid
118: Abortion: I don’t like it but its your decision if you want an abortion or not
117: MySpace: BORRING.
116: Reality TV: boring
115: Parents: there good to have
114: Back stabbers: HATE THEM.
113: Ebay: its okay
112: Sex: ummm idk.
111: Work: hard at time but you gotta get thru it
110: My Neighbors: interesting and there sons cute
109: Gas Prices: STUPID.
108: Designer Clothes: eh…..
107: College: always an interesting experience
106: Sports: love certain ones, hate others
105: My family: love them even though some of us hate each other
104: The future: I guess Im used to not knowing whats coming my way
[ Last time I ]
103: Hugged someone: idk
102: Last time you ate: 2 hours ago
101: Saw someone I haven't seen in awhile: june 6th
100: Cried in front of someone: awhile ago
99: Went to a movie theater: a couple weeks ago
98: Took a vacation: in june
97: Swam in a pool: yesterday
96: Changed a diaper: last august
95: Got my nails done: Never.
94: Went to a wedding: two years ago in october
93: Broke a bone: haven’t so far
92: Got a peircing: stretched in may
91: Broke the law: two days ago
90: Texted on my phone: 5 minutes ago
[ MISC ]
89: Who makes you laugh the most: my boyfriend and my sister
88: Something I will really miss when I leave home is: My dad
87: The last movie I saw: fast five
86: The thing that I'm looking forward to the most: to be able to live with my boyfriend
85: The thing im not looking forward to: seeing the backstabbers from my old school.
84: People call me: scar and more names then I can remember
83: The most difficult thing to do is: Moving on
82: I have gotten a speeding ticket: Never
81: My zodiac sign is: scorpio
80: The first person i talked to today was: My boyfriend
79: First time you had a crush: when I was like 4
78: The one person who i can't hide things from: My Boyfriend and my sister
77: Last time someone said something you were thinking: yesterday
76: Right now I am talking to: My sis
75: What are you going to do when you grow up: Become a singer. Or be an antherpologist or study something in criminology
74: I have/will get a job: Yes.
73: Tomorrow: see my aunt
72: Today: went to the hospital
71: Next Summer:move to cali
70: Next Weekend: maybe hang out with friends.
69: I have these pets: cats and dogs and fish
68: The worst sound in the world: the sound of the teachers nails on a chalkboard
67: The person that makes me cry the most is: My great grandpa ramon
66: People that make you happy: my boyfriend, family, and friends
65: Last time I cried: before school ended
64: My friends are: The BESTEST.
63: My computer is: stupid at times but its my baby
62: My School:NCHS.
61: My Car: don’t remember a lot besides it’s a dodge truck
60: I lose all respect for people who: Are rude, cheat,back stabbers.
59: The movie I cried at was: Marley and me
58: Your hair color is: a weird red
57: TV shows you watch: anything that has magic and stuff like that to do with it
56: Favorite web site: YouTube
55: Your dream vacation: Europe.
54: The worst pain I was ever in was: Losing My best friend sam at the same time I lost my great grandpa
53: How do you like your steak cooked: Medium Rare.
52: My room is: clean and colorful
51: My favorite celebrity is: Sylvester Stallone
50: Where would you like to be: My boyfriends house
49: Do you want children: 4 at the most
48: Ever been in love: YES I AM RIGHT NOW!!
47: Whos your best friend: mel and rubi
46: More guy friends or girl friends: Guy friends.
45: One thing that makes you feel great is: My friends.
44: One person that you wish you could see right now: My boyfriend.
43: Do you have a 5 year plan: yes
42: Have you made a list of things to do before you die: yes
41: Have you pre-named your children: Yes.
40: Last person I got mad at: my boyfriend
39: I would like to move to: London or california
38: I wish I was a professional: Singer.
[ My Favorites ]
37: Candy: skittles
36: Vehicle: 1966 nova ss
35: President: IDK YET.
34: State visited: nevada
33: Cellphone provider: sprint
32: Athlete: don’t remember his name but hes in swimming
31: Actor: Vin diesel
30: Actress: chloe grace moretz
29: Singer: andy biersack
28: Band: It’s a tie between black veil brides and sleeping with sirens
27: Clothing store: Hot Topic.
26: Grocery store: IDK
25: TV show: grimm
24: Movie: Nightmare Before Christmas or Alice in Wonderland.
23: Website: VF.
22: Animal: cat
21: Theme park: Disneyland in cali
20: Holiday: halloween
19: Sport to watch: swimming and baseball
18: Sport to play: swimming
17: Magazine: 17
15: Day of the week: Friday.
14: Beach: Huntington
13: Concert attended: Warped tour
12: Thing to cook: spaghetti
11: Food: italian
10: Restaurant: dell taco
9: Radio station: edge
8: Yankee candle scent: IDK
7: cologne: Axe.
6: Flower: black and purple rose
5: Color: Black and red
4: Talk show host: IDK.
3: Comedian: Jeff Dunham.
2: Dog breed: pit bull
1: Are you ready for this survey to be over? YES VERY MUCH SO!!!
its my fuckin relationship leave your nose out of it. if i wanna get hurt let me get hurt then you can just tell me i told you so. i know im probably not gonna fuckin marry the dude but you don't have to fuckin rub it in my face. i really like him and if you say that your gonna make us break up then your hurting me by doing so. you never know one day i might fall in love with this guy. i might have kids with him. you never fuckin know what fate has in-store for you.
im tired of being called ugly. im tired of getting cyberbullied if you dont fuckin like the way i look then dont fuckin talk to me. if you dont have the balls to even put a picture of you and your fucking down grading my pictures, fuck you.
ive been bullied for the way i look since i can remember, it was either i was to fat or i was to much of a tomboy. i fuckin cut cause they made fun of me and they fuckin said my best friends death was my fault. you know what fuck whoever thinks that way about me.
im happy with the way i look, and im not gonna go to old habits for what you say about me. i believe im cute and its taken me years to even say that. and i will never say i am ugly again.
i hate how my family will be total dick heads when im skyping my boyfriend and making gagging faces about how he looks. hes not your fuckin boyfriend hes mine so it shouldnt matter how he looks in your eyes. its just stupid that the did this to wear he heard them