Firts of all I am sorry for not writing. Alot been happening in my life. Some good some bad. First of all moms health has been up and down. Last month we found out she needs surgery also she needs to gain 25 pounds in order to be able to do it. Its alot harder then it sounds. Because if you give her to much food she gets sick so its a game of cat and mouse.
My personal life has been rather a nothing ride. As you know I have very little to no friends in Edmonton "most eather being in Calgary or elsewhere." So since march I have been going to Calgary once a month for there citys verson of Goth night which was on a sunday and then staying there for the weekend. but thenks to the comic con that happened last month I was stuck there for 2 more days and now my boss says I can't go there for "abit" Which to me mean forever.
Its very depressing for me because I am now alone again except for you people on here. I think being alone is messing with my mind as well as my body. Yesterday I slept a good 22 hours and only a few hours after waking up I was sleepy again and felt dead on my feet.
When I sleep I go into these very deep dreams. Deeper then I have ever had in my life. In the dreams I keep getting the feeling something good is coming but I don't think it is. I mean I'm told do good and good will happen but I have done alot of good and nothing has happened. Mood: None
Sorry I haven't posted alot in the past few months. For the most part I haven't had alot to say.
But here is what has been happening in my life summed up. The last 2 months I have been working like a mad man in order to have enough cash to pay for x mas for my family. Since everyone was broke I said I'd do it. I told them I didn't care if I didn't get anything.
I think my family was happy I did it and I did get some real cool things. I got a very nice Poet shirt and I got Bill Mahers new book. "which if you haven't read it you should."
So how was everyone else xmas? what did you get and what are you hopes and dreams for new years?
So everyone 2012 is coming so I'm cleaning out my friendlist. So if you wanna stay on it please start talking to me also if you wanna chat with me on msn please give it to me.
Moments passed without you. Each one felt like milleniums. Your presence's made my cold dead heart the kiss of life. Feelings long dormant how running free.
Anger, Frustration, Saddness, Fear, Lust, Love.
Anger. For the pains of the past.
Frustration for the fact you are who I want and your just beyond my touch.
Saddness. For every moment without. Lying in bed without dreaming of your kiss.
Fear, For that maybe I'm a fool that you don't have these feeling for me.
Lust. For how you body drive me wild.
Love. For how I know its more then lust and knowing that I could love you.
I will give you my heart as long you swear not to break it.
All of this I will seal with a kisses.
dedicated to a special someone. Mood: good Music: none
well as you may or may not know my laptop died 2 months ago. I have missed you all but now I'M BACK....So I can't wait tos ee you all on. Mood: Happyish
