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Naylz's Journal
The thing I call my life.
This is the thing I call my life. I put the stuff that is important to me, but nothing else seems to be important enough to put in here. For those who don't know how to read these, go to the last page and read the bottom entry followed by the entry above it and so on and so forth.
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Part One.
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September 19, 2008, 12:09:am
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The way to view the world is very interesting because you start with yourself, then grow your view outward until you are looking at the entirety of society.
We are very busy. When we are not working, we are too worn out to do anything except entertain ourselves. We are either working, or doing something so we can be happily relax.
Every person wants to be happy as many times and for as long as possible. Every person also wants to be content with our lives.
However, society makes it to where we are so busy, we have no free time, and what little free time we have, we are too tired to focus on anything but ourselves and the immediate people around us.
This leaves us to all fend for ourselves, not able to help others, hell, not even able to think about others, unless they are making our lives less enjoyable. If a person needs help, needs something you can easily provide that you don't need or even care about, or just needs someone to talk to them, or care about them, we don't do a single thing. We are either too busy with what society is forcing us to do, or too busy trying to do something to make us happy and okay with life. So we shun these people. "I'm too busy, I have no fucking time, get the hell away from me, get over it, do it yourself, leave me the fuck alone, I have no time to help you."
So society makes us far too busy. However, here's something we're too worn out or too busy being entertained and happy to think about: "Why does society make us too busy?" Well, it's a very intricate web that all eventually leads up to the government, other governments, the entirety of humanity, and a sick, twisted game we all play without even realizing it. Even you, and yes, even I.
You see, there are constantly busy doing two things (which, if you were paying any attention at all, you'd already know as I am saying this); we are busy with either work, or play, constantly. That is because we are working so much, we have no left-over time once we are done playing and bored of it. We don't even have time to become bored of it. We are so busy with our work. And in the rare circumstance that we are able to grow bored of something, there's so much more. I know I have already said this, but I am restating it to get it cemented in your head so you can keep the small picture in view as I go larger.
We all are doing two types of jobs, both with two subtypes. "Advancement," and "Luxury".
In "Advancement" there is "Government advancement" and "Human advancement." "Human advancement" is even split into two things: "Technology advancement" and "Health advancement." Technology advancement improves how quickly and how well we can do things. This helps Government advancement for obvious reasons. Health advancement helps Government advancement by making there be more people that live longer to help the Government.
In "Luxury," there is "Entertainment" and "Other." Entertainment is things like music and tv. Other is things like fashion and fast-food. Human advancement helps these two areas as well by helping the people who work in these two fields. However, these two groups help Government advancement in a sneaky, underhanded way as well. These are the jobs which we do which make other people too happy to realize what is going on. These are probably the most evil jobs, if you think about it.
So people in Luxury provide entertainment and such to others in Luxury, and to people in Human advancement; Human advancement helps others in Human advancement and Luxury, and both help Government advancement.
However, this still does not explain why we work as much as we do. The answer is the Government. The Government wants to keep its country from being weaker than other countries so we aren't vulnerable to being taken over, and wants to the the most powerful so we don't even need to fear other countries. So, we must advance, and as much and as quickly as possible.
I bet you don't see what is wrong with this do you? The Government is just trying to protect us from everyone else; what's so wrong with that? This:
Why are we fighting ourselves?
Well, people are kinda stupid. Let's trace this far far far back.
We used to just be a few people in a group against a shitload of other animals. We were very weak. However, we figured out that we can use things to do other things. We can use rocks to hit things we can't reach, and also do it without hurting ourselves. We can even use a strip of bark to connect a rock to a stick so we can grip and throw it better.
Well, you know what happens there. We make more and more tools and soon we are able to easily defend ourselves against any and all animals. There are now no other animals which can kill us, but one. Humans. Humans are now the most powerful animal, and they are equally as powerful as us. So we are afraid of eachother.
A few of us get together and say "We will protect you from them. Just help me and do what I say."
That was the beginning of government. Once "they" started getting better and better killing tools, "we" needed to as well. "We" needed to also get better ones so than them so "we" don't even have to fear "them." Now switch "they" and "we" and "them" with "us." Do you see how it works now? We're all playing one giant game of to kill or be killed. Do you see why we need to be distracted by entertainment and luxury now? And those of us that are not providing luxury are helping us live longer so we can work longer, or are helping the government continue this game. Because of this game, we must improve as much and as quickly as possible, and screw the weak. Screw those who need help. We have no time. Cast them out of society and let them continue having a shitty life. And when they are in a worse situation and are asking us for help yet again, screw them still. We are busy. We must improve. We must not be weak. We must not allow ourselves to be able to be killed.
The worst part? We let this happen.
Mood: Wise.
Music: "One Trillion Dollars" Anti-Flag
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Does my name fit me?
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August 18, 2008, 04:34:am
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M: can be funny and dumb at times
Y: is not judgmental
K: loves 2 b kissed
M: can be funny and dumb at times
I: good boyfriend or girlfriend
K: loves 2 b kissed
E: has gorgeous eyes
M: can be funny and dumb at times
I: good boyfriend or girlfriend
C: great friend
H: crazy
A: hot
E: has gorgeous eyes
L: can kick your ass
(N: easy to fall in love with
A: hot
Y: is not judgmental
L: can kick your ass
Z: makes dating fun)
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A: hot
B: loves people
C: great friend
D: cute
E: has gorgeous eyes
F: wild and crazy adore you
G: makes people laugh
H: crazy
I: good boyfriend or girlfriend
J: is really sweet
K: loves 2 b kissed
L: can kick your ass
M: can be funny and dumb at times
N: easy to fall in love with
O: has one of the best personalities ever
P: popular with all types of people
Q: has a smile to die for
R: loves to laugh and smile
S: is in love
T: very good kisser
U: is very sexual
V: is a good kisser
W: very broad minded
X: never let people tell you what to do
Y: is not judgmental
Z: makes dating fun
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I've officially just stopped fucking caring.
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August 06, 2008, 10:03:pm
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I fucking hate the shit in my life. I don't care that I have a good life and people have it much worse than me so stop bitching. Life is not how I want it, and it's pissing me off, and making me depressed. We've had one, maybe two practices within three entire fucking months. Out of approximately 12 Saturdays, the band has been able to practice twice. Today was supposed to be practice, but lo and behold, it's now 8:00 and Trent was never home.
Today, my father got a letter back from the Denver Sheriff's Department, and he is not being hired. After half a year of trying to get on with these guys, they chose someone else, and my father is probably more qualified, so I am pissed, sad, annoyed, and extremely frustrated.
Now, I've got shelter, food, and clothes. I also have a computer with internet access, and hairspray, so I'm able to distract myself. I also have my bass to calm me down, so that helps, but everything else is just fucking wrong. There's also more than the above two problems, but those were two of the biggest.
Mood: blank
Music: Pretty Baby Scream- Lords of the New Church
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Interesting
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July 17, 2008, 05:27:pm
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| Greed: | Low
| | | Gluttony: | Medium
| | | Wrath: | Medium
| | | Sloth: | Very Low
| | | Envy: | Very Low
| | | Lust: | Very Low
| | | Pride: | Very Low
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