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MyAirplaneDied's Journal
Jackers
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God I miss you....
why did we have to be in a fight
If I would have just been there for you
maybe you wouldn't have been so alone
I got another message from the girl
I formally referred to as a bitch and
I know why you really killed yourself
she told me why you broke up
she told me that you told her
you were in love with someone else and you couldn't keep living a lie and trying to move on
she told me that person was me
I would answer my phone because
I was angry at you what is wrong with me
It's my fault it's all my fault....
and the worst part is I love you and all I ever wanted was to be with you.......
Mood: indescribable
Music: silence
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she sent me this
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March 09, 2008, 11:28:pm
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she sent me this on myspace .............
and she made everything sound like it was your fault....
like you killed yourself just to make her angry
I'm so fucking pissed
i didn't leave him.
i would never do that.
hes was acting strange for awhile.
but i never said or did anything like that.
i thought we were still together.
but i guess not.
cause he had everything bout how he hated me everywhere.
and he wouldn't talk to me anymore.
Mood: Fucking Pissed
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Wise Words from one of my besties Brandon...
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........................"You choose life because there is something on Earth still worth living for..and I choose life because you choose life"....................
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.......................I love you Brandon!!!
Your the only one who understands what I'm
going through....and I know you miss Jackers
too.........................................
Mood: Crunk!
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I'm trying to let you RIP
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March 07, 2008, 09:29:pm
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Jackers ....Our song started playing on my Ipod....and it seem so ironic now...like your actually singing to me....and I can't help but cry...I'm sry....for people who don't know my name is Katelyn and my nick-name is Katie and the only thing Jakers would call me
Katie, don't cry, I know
You're trying your hardest
And the hardest part is letting go
Of the nights we shared
Ocala is calling and you know it's haunting
But compared to your eyes, nothing shines quite as
bright
And when we look to the sky, its not mine, but i want it so
Let's not pretend like you're alone tonight
(I know he's there)
You're probably hanging out and making eyes
(while across the room, he stares)
I bet he gets the nerve to walk the floor
And ask my girl to dance, and she'll say yes
Because these words were never easier for me to say
Or her to second guess
But I guess
That I can live without you but
Without you I'll be miserable at best
You're all that I hoped I'd find
In every single way
And everything I could give
Is everything you couldn't take
Cause nothing feels like home, you're a thousand miles
away
And the hardest part of living
Is just taking breaths to stay
Because I know I'm good for something
I just haven't found it yet
But I need it
So let's not pretend like you're alone tonight
(I know he's there)
You're probably hanging out and making eyes
(while across the room, he stares)
I bet he gets the nerve to walk the floor
And ask my girl to dance, and she'll say yes
Because these words were never easier for me to say
Or her to second guess
But I guess
That I can live without you but
Without you I'll be miserable at best
Ladada ladada ladadaoh ohhh
And this will be the first time in a week
That I'll talk to you
And I can't speak
It's been three whole days since I've had sleep
Because I dream of his lips on your cheek
And I got the point that I should leave you alone
But we both know that I'm not that strong
And I miss the lips that made me fly
So let's not pretend like you're alone tonight
(I know he's there)
You're probably hanging out and making eyes
(while across the room, he stares)
I bet he gets the nerve to walk the floor
And ask my girl to dance, and she'll say yes
Because these words were never easier for me to say
Or her to second guess
But I guess
That I can live without you but
Without you I'll be miserable
And I can live without you
But without you I'll be miserable
And I can live without you
Oh, without you I'll be miserable at best
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I started to text you yesterday...then realized you weren't there....I finally cried I ran to the bathroom stall in the middle of one of Mr. Tafoya's lectures....I locked myself in the stall and started throwing up....thanx for ruining me Jackers...about an hour later Nikki Brandon and billy had ran into the girls bathroom and cralled under the stall with me...all freaked out as usual.....................................
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I miss you so fucking much!
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