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MentalRehabilitation's Journal
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What's wrong with my puppies?
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April 17, 2008, 12:38:pm
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It's been awhile since my dad last drank so heavly that I was in danger. Yesterday was that day. He dislocated my left should and injured my collar bone. My mom relocated it (which hurt like... like... like someone relocating my shoulder!- go figure) and sent me to my room. In the morning I found a note my mom wrote saying that she apologized for him drinking so heavily and that she had hom throw out the alcohol, which he actually did. I think he felt bad because he was doing alright for awhile now. The only reason I can think that is because he actually threw it all out and he signed the note with an "I love you." I dunno, we'll see.
Some cop hit on me the other day, which I found quite humorous. Surprising and quite strange, because it's me, but humorous nonetheless.
Did some doodles- YAY!
Hopefully we'll be taking Garth and Lily into the vet. They should've done it months ago, but they're too busy or too tired or too fucking lazy to take care of the pets that they were the ones to choose. I've said I'd take him, but everytime I even get him near the car, they grab the leash out of my hands, scream, and bitch about it and how I'm making them look bad. I think they do that on their own pretty well.
Depression's been back at full throttle. Haven't injured though so I guess that's good right?
"Look what I've built
It shines so beautifully
Now watch as it destroys me."
Mood: Drained
Music: Leaving Song Pt.2
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"Is everything ok or are those the bruises of a job well done?" - Cosm
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April 01, 2008, 03:49:pm
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So yesterday... I got burned by an idiot I used to date a long time ago... Nick. Guess he still smokes. He now goes to Prairie State, of course, and is in my Sociology class, of course, which has made me miss it three times, of course. Some kid was walking by when he did it and asked if there was anything going on, and like a fool, I let him do the talking. So I have a meeting with my school counselor today because the guy reported it, which is good. I need to buff myself up and actually grow a fucking spine. First step is to admit I'm being totally idiotic about the whole situation, and now I have to try to push myself over the edge to conquer my fear of him. It's sad, really, and I'm not afraid to admit it. I'm also not afraid to admit that it's been sad for a long time now. Self-esteem is lacking, but I should still push on. I'm an idiot for allowing it all to end up working like this and I'll do my best to toughen up and prove myself, not just to myself, but maybe to all those whom I've pushed away and truly done close to nothing to keep close. I'm not perfect, and I make a whole shit load of mistakes, and if my efforts don't do anything close to what I'd like them to accomplish, then I'll move on through the funk and keep trying. If I'm not able to get close to those whom I really want to, then I'll keep going. It's not going to work *snap* just like that- it'll take a long time, but I have to. I have to stop being such a stupid whimp, and a self-pitying fool, and get over myself!!!! Nick really did a number on me, and I'm horribly scared of him, but it won't get any better if I don't start trying. Should've done that awhile ago, but it's better late than never.
Hoping to get together with Erin sometime soon.
Final Fantasy VII: Crisis Core and God of War: Chains of Olympus are out for the PSP!!!!!!! Ah... the fantasy, the Sephiroth, the Kronos, the lovely destruction of Mythological creatures (i.e. Gorgons, Satyrs, etc.)... SAWEETNESS!!!!!!!!!
Also, the "cold laser" is really interesting. The whole problem is actually in my left jaw. The jaw is the body's center of balance and the reason for my right side's issues are from my body feeling like it's falling over. The right muscles think they need to pull the left up and keep it straight equalling the mushiness, pain, cold, and numb sensations. Anywho, they use lasers that basically look like they're scanning a barcode, except it's on my muscles. It's so awesome! He asked me to lift my arm and keep from letting him push down on it. He had the nurse shine the laser onto the back of my head, where the nech starts and the spine connects, and then he asked me to do the same. It got weaker. Then he had her shine it on another part of the back of the head/neck and it got easier again. Weird, interesting, and let me tell you- I laugh a whole lot when I'm in pain, so you can imagine how much of that I've been doing. Laughing at pain... not always a good thing... stupid reflex/nervous habit/ way of dealing or reacting to it (wow...). Anywho, I hope it all works out.
Hillary got a red DS for her b-day (the 29th) along with the My Sims and FF XII: Revenant Wings games. She also got two pairs of those sweatpant capris and shirts to match- Kermit and Animal, I think. Joy and her boyfriend (finally!!!!! got one again) Jeremy came and visited and we all had fun.
Started playng Kingdom Hearts 2 again. Forgot how fun that game was.
Mood: Tired
Music: Denial- God Module
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