That's the title I'm going with. It really speaks volumes on the aim and accomplishment of many LHP practitioners, writers and magicians. The purpose behind what is known as individuation, is ultimatelty to reach a higher state of oneness, cultivated by selfhood, unclouded by obfuscated judgements of perceptual inference. The following provided is a backdrop to the book, some of which will be revised and added to the book, set to be out by October. I'll latice some of the parts together for a preface and introduction, but currently is still undergoing a good deal of editing and redrafting. This is a journal entry/introductory feel of what I'm working on.
There is undoubtedly some misinformation out in the world, much of it by the media, much of it by recursive narratives past down generationally, much of it still, from our unawareness of what makes us who we are, as individuals, as a collective entity. Now, more than ever, is there a zenith of misinformation. People are lost in a maze that is projecting their half-sensical contrivances as human beings. The substratum of how the world is working for us, is not in stark contrast with how we think of ourselves, it is distinctive of how we think we are, what we think we are, moreover. What makes it distinctive, and not uniquely supportive or encouraging to the individual strides in the gridlock we suffuse existence with? Only if we had known individual as a misapprehension of the whole, of the united field of nondual self. Well, I'm not going to talk about that here so much as I would like to talk about what individuation is, what is has been perceived as, and what its truest place is to the left hand path. Individuation, in the simplest description I could give for now, is a distinguishing of the self, a distinguished existence from the universal conscious, from macrocosmic sublimation. I'd like to say an antithesis to sublimation of any stratum of collective, but that makes it pejorative, like I could just as well say cosmic dust. However, it has largely been perceived to be analogous to and with an individual, within individual framework. An individual is not individuated. There are no individuals, because laws of matter and universal maxims of space-time relativity in hand with with conditioned upbringing make it so. I'd like to think I'm individual, as much as you or any other person has wanted and believed it to be. However, the key to individuation, as with any magick or any successful manipulation of energy, is acclimatizing to foundational principles of nature. The universe cannot be avoided through a detachment or ascetic devotion to hating the pleasurable. You have to work with its natural currents, its basic laws, before you initiate a change in yourself. Avoiding the self is what mystics have had wrong for thousands of years. First, you know the universe as part of yourself, then you work on yourself to know the universe as your seat of power, by knowing you then cannot fix what is inherently you, but making transcendent the known in and around you, boundless seas of potential and triumph can be willed into the present to change your future. I'll get back to transcendence, as it holds a uniquely different weight than most would have it. The universe is continually transcending itself. Yes, its own laws and boundaries, just look and you'll know for yourself. . .!
I'm not writing this specifically for the point of collocating how individualism negates laws of science or how belief we are different is the illusion built from external suppositions, from presupposing we are that which makes us individuals. These are perlocutionary arguements that generally have no substrate of intrinsic value or any lasting deeper meanings thereto. I talk about ascesis in my book, though not any ascesis, not asceticism as is taught to be submissive to restraint, abstinence, taboo rituals and sacral traditions of celebacy, of lethargic detachment from the bodily self. Ascesis is not an excoriation of living in a pleasure seeking modality, like ascetics are commonly portrayed by the typified Eastern mystic, guru or yogi. It hasn't such grounds for realization. The individuation of the left hand path is the means to attain what has been named apotheosis, the highest climax of awakening individuated selfhood. There are others, however, who look at it as no more than veneration of a completed magickal rank in occult practice, of magickal initiation from adept to the ever transformational potencies of a master. This is where many have fallen short in the left hand path.
In not growing in the awareness of how you are not an individual seeking realization, not a thing desiring liberation from mundanity, not an object to be classified as enlightened, but a state of being aware of their transcedence of dualized nature. That is to say, different, not by the sensorium (unified physical senses) perception of body matter, or by the cognitorium (unified cognitive sensations) conception of mind matter. By doing so, you are not individuated, as everyone thinks that is how they are made individual from one another. But this plays into the winding about, circuitous dualism that, while not ever totally gone, must be deliquesced for transcendent awareness of the true self, or the act of attaining awakened selfhood. Transcendent as far as Satanic or left hand path Ascesis goes, means you are not bound to the causality that ensnares the entire substratum of most lives on the earth. Substratum here is meant as the underlying movement not detected by physical senses, that operates in our causal realms, what nature has rested on for thousands of years but it has gone by several titles. In Hinduism, a baneful deity called Maya, who is said to spin the wheels of illusion in perceptual matter. In Buddhism, Maya is the phenomena of the world itself, illusion manifested as a whole of conscious reality. Appertaining the illusory in distinction from self, can also be luminous, but dangerous to higher advance if dualized recursively- as it does to most. By detaching cognitive awareness of this, the expansive scope of self awakening ever widens, you're not enmeshed by the thought of detachment as to a personalized object. For once you see how others are influenced and bounded by its dualizing domino effect, this is all the more enlightening for you as the practitioner of enlightenment. A substrate in biological terms, is the basis from which an enzyme acts upon. That is very much how it works from the astral to the causal, too. Both the outer spheres and inner layers of the earth are compromised of seven. This grants warranted attention, as the astral planes are said to be of seven celestial/ethereal spheres, just as our earth's constellation has, only they are dense enough to be quantifiably named.
So, unless you've been living under a gigantic fucking rock, you've more than likely been seeing your share of Illuminati conspiracies strewn across the landscape of the wide world of the web. However, many have been reluctant to life that rock away from their grimmace, once getting a higher dosage of the elite secret society and new age agenda spatter. But for all the apocalyptic bantering that some of these folks seemed to have honed to a scary perfection, there is but quite a mass amount of incredulity abroad many a spectrum. Where would we be without it? It's of course always going to be a reemerging opposition to any claims that, now more than ever, are growing outrageously far flung. Okay so the fact of a pentagram being interspersed through various coordinates of Washington really means that its Satans stomping grounds? Well fuck me if I would say the nary. You can also make a pentagram from various coordinates of the main galactical star alignments, too. That doesn't mean Satan is undubitably the presiding force of the cosmos. Though my personal beliefs wouldn't have a tremendous problem with that, as many of you would've already guessed. It does have significance. But not the kind of significance that postulates a one and all powerful creator of the galaxies. All kinds of forces and beings are constantly at work with some sort of interspersion of our earth. It's called space dust. There would evidently seem to be many, but really the primary drawbacks are its just that too many people are too quick to jump to a conclusion that suits their personal leanings of belief the best. But this is a vital contrast to the Illuminati mind control experiments and "Monarch" programming. In order to have someones critical analysis of their surroundings suspended, to go ahead with being the programmer, have to also suspend whatever sort of logical and rationally based dispositions you tend to have. In order for the defensive mechanism, the fight or flight mechanism, to be momentarily turned off, there are very precise and very surreptitious ways of going about, should I say, the "dirty work". Now, the problem with many Christians as far as the the Illuminati mind controlers is that they have to blame either the work of Lucifer (Illuminati societies are also called the Luciferianists), saying he's running the minds of these society members and adjunct programming agencies, through their outlandishly clever negotiation skills; or Satan, for similar but slightly varying differences, as in the abilities to charm and come off as an ordinary and innocent person to carry out the dark deed for their master. Though both are seen as interchangeable aspects of the same gameplan. Right though they halfway are about a couple de facto points, the real fallacious part of their reasoning is that there aren't some minions in stretch limos, inauspicious looking vans, and leer jets zooming around the world looking for their next helpless piece of meat to implement Monarch programming. The frivility of believing that is obvious enough here. The real programming agents are the people we see everyday, but who would think WE, above all else, are the ones doing most of it to ourselves? This is how it really works most of the time though. It isn't only because some of us have propensities to think in such archetypal ways and others in such ancedotal ways, that it allows us easily to be re - conditioned over and over, so much so that it couldn't be less apparent to the average man or woman. What we think in our minds from day to day is the real implanted conscious. That is the truest programming, and its all done in a rather casual fashion. The fundamentalist are profuse believers in supreme archetypes of good and evil, yet they are doing more work of the programmer than the ones that vehemently spurn and preach are doing it to us. Think of what mentalism or mentalist means and apply that to the word fundamental, you'll begin seeing the type of game they trying to run, if you already haven't. There's a profound concomitance of the two words; it'll take on a more singular meaning once you get what I mean. I know this is all alot to take in, but you can count on much of what I am saying to be a reliable and grounded in factual discernment. No, I'm not saying every single Christian out there is a total dupe. No more than the gamut of new agers and white light enthusiasts, in general. The reason why, they, the new age milieu, has it wrong, is because they are utterly incoherent to the way the universe really works. Believe in Jesus all you'd like, it wont change much of anything if you have no clue who he really was. Who wouldn't want to be consoled by thoughts of a luminescent afterlife these days? But like the fundamentalists - and they do use mentalism to their purview - the new age folk subsequently fall as much prey to the belief as Jesus being a proprietor of grace and compassion, just as their beloved Buddha was. Neither of them were in the truest sense, and they are again mistaken in making a dualistic understanding as their basis, which invariably becomes a macrocosmic belief to the greater crux of their axioms of universal love, cosmic oneness, ad nauseum. For every person in the world who, out of deep seated guilt and repeated travesties of intellect, comes to repent to Jehova, there is but another who willingly supplants their faith to a God for carnal pleasures and revels in lusts of the flesh. If I had to take sides, I would more than likely say what most have known to be true for centuries, but never have repressed due to an implanted fear of a mythical fire pit of Haitis. That is to say that Satan has always been in charge. Yet how many know this but haven't a soupcon of fortitude to say it for themselves? He will always have total dominion over this earth and much of what happens in the cosmos is no less an effect of his omnipotence. I have and will continue believing that he is the real Father of the human kingdom, and if properly manifested, is the truest key to realization, actuation of potentiality, and ineffable wisdom that you could ever seek out. It isn't a constant of my nature to exclaim Theistic totality about this, but there is certainly no longer an ongoing feud between an absolute ruler, an omniscient mind of human kind, and a contrivance of the beneficent Jesus figure. They are infinitely dichotomized, but not a rivalry per se; there can't be, not when the latter doesn't have a place in the cosmological scale to begin with. What people uphold as Christ is not really any power of the cosmos whatsoever. If there was a Jesus, he was not the true proprietor of love, but was invented by man because of his disdainful jealously of the truest proprietor of truth and all else. To say anyone could be a beneficent lord that created the universe, but not see that both qualities of dark and light must be there to create anything, let alone multitudinous galaxies, is a bumbling idiot of how universal forces work to be distilled to our, in contrast, microcosmic existence. The propietor of truth is of course the the real cosmic lord, Satan, and his kindred brother of the ethereal matter, Lucifer. They are both the essence of virtue in the most real sense; they are as much of love, power, freedom and truth that we can aspire to learn of and gain from while living in such ways we see fit.
Forsaken feelings by "feeling friendy" Psychoanalyst? I Believe So.
May 08, 2012, 11:05:pm
So, around two in the afternoon I had an appointment with a psychoanalyst in a squalid shithole town called Riverhead, about fifteen or so minutes from my somewhat less of a shithole town called Hampton Bays. I had forgotten about it completely, as I was busier trying to fuck this girl up the road from me. And I would of, but her Nanny is an incompetent twit and left her baby unattended, only to find out that it fell on its face, leaving Tiffany with hang-ups due to that harebrained bitch of a Nanny. I could proclaim having an axe to grind because of it, but some people are truly too stupid for their own good. Not only that, but I can do far better than her anyhow. Now, without further detracting from my story. I have admittedly had some misplaced hatred with my parents (as to why I'm still in their home) and a couple months back had gone far past any usual malicious streak, which has been under total control since the incident occurred. I had to stay in a sordid nuthouse for the night. They knew I had no diagnosable mental illness, so I left the following afternoon, but still face pending charges that are all but paid for. Basically all because I was a scurrilous drunk shithead that evening. Now I'm 25 years old, going on 26 in June; I've read profusely on all kinds of variegated psychology, less so on psychoanalysis, but still had the basic swing of it prior to entering the abysmal little office of the analyst earlier today. When you first walk in there are the all too picturesque flower paintings, one being of yellow flowers on the central door to her office, and another even more distasteful blotch on the bland finish of the wall. I knew this woman was going to either be a typical new age psychoanalyst in a formalized disguise or a modernized psychoanalyst in a more contemporary yet solemnly traditional type of setting. As many such places turn out to be, it was a good bit of either. Insomuch as her office was very simple and refined, but with a dash of new age bullshit like a "weeping Buddha" statue. It's rather a pedantic affectation to what one would likely surmise as an otherwise experienced, heartening and well thought person. Now as to avert raking you all through the coals of what was mostly a horrendously streamlined exchange of words, of an overly wrought, not to mention superficially sensitive tight assed composure, yet "feeling centered" analyst. I must put everything in an appropriate context, as this has much to do with my central purpose for me writing this out. This lady, like tons of other white-light, universal consciousness new agers out there in like-fields of profession, epitomizes why having others do the thinking for you, will always result in creative senescence or deterioration, in one sense or another. Yeah, we had a few minutes of what I could think of as meaningful conversing, but not meaning - filled, far from it. Yet that is the huge difference maker in so many of these types of teachings that credentialed professionals expound in their line of work. Like tapping into my feelings is going to save the fucking world from killing itself off or something. Though it isn't that they are so mistaken, but rather, even if my way of thinking happened to not be as effectual as it could be, that wouldn't make their dressed up anecdotal thinking any more the right; and by no means would it make it the "superior alternative" to any ilk of logical reasoning. As if the intellect is somehow incapable of being stimulating. What’s more asinine, it serves as fact it cannot be, but only a barrier to "knowing your core self". What maladroit hogwash. And yet intellectual expositions are quite frowned on to many of them. Their principle self - help treatment doctrines, when propounded long enough, just become a flappable mockery of itself, as we see with so many other feel good, white light fluff out there. It deludes by pseudo psychology, puffed up as to look and moreover feel as if its truly scientifically sound advice. Again, even if I were more the wrong for thinking too cynically or what have you, it doesn't make their alternate route to understanding the self anymore trustworthy and certainly no more substantive. Weak people need "head mentors" and "wise counselors" to control their personality traits and their overall disposition towards life. This is all too known, yet all the less spoken of. Why is that so? Hmm. . . could it be that despite all the pontification of selfless altruism, of being feeling centered and nurturing, that they are just as guilty of wanting positions of power and dominion over the lives of others? It very well could be exactly just that. But how is it so? Well, that isn't to say that ALL psychoanalysts are frothing for seats of status over the lesser- willed and submissive. But it is to say that they seek ego gratification as much as the next man or woman does. They indeed derive a certain amount of pleasure from modulating the thoughts of their clients. To think otherwise would to be missing the bigger picture, if you will. Whenever a person foresees the opportunity to take advantage of another, whether it is through psychologizing or through stroking another’s ego to relieve them of indifference is contingent on the practitioner and their designated methods thereof. A strong willed - or as Aristotle coined "great souled" man, should by all means never let another man or woman (that is invariably difficult for obvious sexual reasons) take the throne of programmer before his presence. And be the adversary to those unworthy of authoritative stances. This is of utmost importance. Take, for example, the whole staying in touch with your feelings shitheap. Now, though I conducted myself with cordiality, this central point of contention shouldn't go unaddressed. How are you to sit there and speak of feelings validating thoughts, as a fact of life. Do multiple mass murders feel validated when they off a victim, or was it because of an intrinsically malformed disconnect from reality? I think they feel as though its clearly not right, but there's something aside from a feeling they have which leads them to the act of murder within itself. Their thought to kill validated the impulsive feeling they had, not the other way around. It did so because, when a person is truly a psychotic, they know no differently; their thoughts always are the final truth behind their motive, no matter how depraved or mistreated they were. The psychoanalyst would seem to disagree, the one today would have. That it is indeed because of repression of feeling, of not getting in touch with the feelings connected to their past, that caused the rift in their perception of reality. That isn't nonsense, of course. That, too, is part of it. But to say that holds for all human life, all the time, is just not something I'll have any part of. My last example is shorter, simpler, but just as effectual. Take the somnolent slumbers of depression many end up going through. Now, should I really be expected to believe that if that man or woman had not thought about, applied reason to their given ailment at the time, that they wouldn't sought a better means to get over their depression, if they hadn't phlegmatically followed what feelings had to say to them? You should by all means HAVE feelings, but the intellect should only refine them, not dissuade them. That is, when you're NOT thinking of why you have been emotionally mortified or as to why you've languished in bouts of depression, then try your hardest to feel! That is really the crux of what I've been trying to elucidate throughout all this. You can willfully choose not to rationalize why you experience such pains in life, however this should clearly be seen as a great disservice to your awareness and overall growth as a human being, and for self evident reasons. Feelings, when fervently embraced can be a dangerous thing, as logic is subdued by caprice. However, when rightly appropriated, can be what dissipates the very sense of danger. It's a beautiful thought, to me personally, to others its ghastly. Coming to know yourself to be the truest light of reason is indeed a harrowing feat for most of the populace to approximate, let alone even begin to grasp. Someone who is a real masochist is telling others what is best for them, but not having the wherewithal to believe how they could act in such a way; even if they have seemingly convoluted their demeanor to be outwardly discernable and respectably pertinent to their profession or area of expertise. He or she who is of true discernment and unvarnished logical pertinence, knows that it is better to make their own mistakes in quest of greater understanding, than to have their reasoning befooled by an enquiry to who has already lost greater understanding to spiritualized half - truths. That is all too easy to ascertain, is it not? The biggest lie is a glamorized half-truth. Which is what most people want. Lavey talked about this briefly in the Devil's Notebook. For there are these kinds of folk who especially love being fodder for those who parasitically pride themselves from rehashing common sense adages of more acclaimed men. But the most parasitic coward must consistently spiritualize his adages, allowing him to sleep soundly at night knowing he didn't do Universal compassion and his Jehovah such a misdeed; releived by knowing he both "enlightened" whilst warming their heart. As you can see, I'm getting into more contextualized stuff, so I'll end it here while I still can.
Till nextime, Hail the King of the Earth, break the rest under cloven hoofs. ~ Julius ~
From my qualified viewpoint: If you don't agree with the following, you're more than likely wrong but convinced otherwise, or that it shouldn't matter. Even though I'm the one imparting truth, perhaps that isn't so contemptible, as most here are hapless rubes.
Lucifer is the liaison of illumination
He is the ineffable link between evolution and individual microcosm
He is the arbiter of true liberation unto self and chosen others
He is the perfected balance of intellect and instinct
What man strives to know about the world is from him
Where humankind has lost in dogmatism and tyrannical dictates, he has won
Lucifer resembles the eon of enlightenment and the attainment thereof
Where men fear to go within themselves, he is not
Prostration he abhors, as it adheres to servitude and annuls the spirit
Worship he wants neither, as it leads to indolence of the intellect
The impulse to restrain is defeating and not of his nature
The ideals of equality are far from his reasoning and natural virtue
Heroism is not propriety, social or otherwise, but knowing your true selfhood is that of Lucifer
What most desire is fettered and thus not in accordance with Lucifer; all have the potential, few realize it as such
He is a state of being which is not averse to favoritism; he knows who will rise above the herd and who will not
He is the intellectual famine to the conditioned ignorance of humanity
Adversarial to falsehoods of self, to half – conscious minds, to debased awareness, he is
He proudly accuses haphazard beliefs and muddled orientations to others
Forgetting the higher self is to loosen the esteem from Lucifer and his hierarchies
Knowing to remember the higher self is cohesion to the luminescence of Lucifer
Those few who signify his resplendence actuate their potentiality
Lucifer does not empathize with those compliant to lesser gods of nature and the universe
Those whose resiliency is purest are most privileged in their amity with Lucifer
He is symbolized by Venus, but is ever reawakening potential and supra - individuation
Unbounded by time and causation, Lucifer is eternal beauty of both man and woman alike
He is the eminent flame of the eastern most star
Prince of the ethereal, Lucifer is an Orient above all sublimations of thought and being
A MUCH NEEDED EXPLANATION TO VF ABOUT RECENT MESSAGE
April 13, 2012, 03:08:pm
Dear VF,
I'm not going to sit here saddled with nonsensical loathing and fabricate thrusting shame over my current actions. You shouldn't expect me to. Will I try my hardest to kiss the website's ass and say how deplorable it was to leave such a colorless, offhanded message such as what was vituperatively displayed on the contest message board? Never would that work as quelling the resentment others would still have towards me, though the thought is playful. So what do I even have to say? What is the good reason for me posting this? This should be known to the vampirefreaks community once and for all: I do not hate any of you. But this will be revisited later. What I do hate is how people choose to follow trends blindly, but likewise that I'll come back to. Now the simple fact that most of you who have seen the message reffered to are probably thinking it was out of true malicious intent, out of a purposefully initiated cyber-bully attack of some kind. Not true in the least. I've never taken part in cyber bullying and I hate bullies of every stripe and banner. Yet hardly any of you could ever understand unless you knew how grossly maltreated I was when still in my adolescent years in highschool, roughly 12 - 14 were some detrimental years. Not going to go anywhere near that discussion though. I'll emphatically tell you all the reasons behind this. For one, let me just put it this way. Never would I tell you I channeled an evil spirit as the reason behind my recent harangue, as I don't believe people literally channel spirits - talk to those beyond the grave, yes, channel them at will, don't buy it. HOWEVER, I feel as if though I had little control over whatever I was in the grasps of, be it a maleific spirit in my presence or not. I know the insanity of saying something like that, as it denotes possession, please don't be the brave soul who reminds me of this.
I have and will not ever say anything on here that is out of pure hatred and thereupon, calculating how I can acheieve the debasement of others. This is what a premeditated assault from a sociopath would be more like; and it isn't just plain insensitivity and/or never learning basic cordiality, as that is at the most innocuous level behind what triggers social maladjustment and interaction depravity. Now to recapture my overall intended point of this, it would be noteworthy to bring up what some of my currently held beliefs are towards this site as in congruity with my own. What I had written in the contest message reflected a more vitriolic form what I call psychological adversarialism. Take it as this: It's a practice of adversarial psychology. So why do I do this, and why of all places on a site such as this? Not only do I firmly belive VF to be a pretentious cult of pseudo - counterculture compromised mainly of phony hipsters and self - decieved trendoids, I don't see any evidence of this ever changing people, attitudinally - wise. There is no problem I have with people being trendy and market - friendly in the mainstream, contemperaneous sense. But just admit to being it. Most of them do so without abnegation. People here are supposed to be the contrary reflection a popular sphere, and so many continue to think, but in reality they are just as programmed as everyone else. Not to say polarizing is the answer, it opposes solution if anything. I don't hate anyone here, nor do I globally detest for that matter. I don't maul the herd by calling people out. What I hate is the sheepish compromise of individual expression. I hate that people, as before mentioned, conform blindly to whatever claims to accept them as being "different" as being "unlike the rest". To me, I see VF as an engine of hypocrisy, so that unquestionably calls for reverse propagandism at any and all costs. That is, adversarial campaigning must be done.
I don't want anyone else to agree with what I've said, nor should I believe myself as being the only and final truth behind a sacred grail of wisdom; everything I said is absolutely justifiable, whether you think so or not doesn't make the difference. Whether its looked at on me to hold the evidence for you doesn't make the difference, either. But it is costly that people here are witheld the truth behind the smokescreen of subculture; they're being cheated and oblivious to the superfluity of the many-faced scam culture(s) as it is rightly coined. Here is a definiton of a subculture for those who need a reminder:
A cultural group within a larger culture, often having beliefs or interests at variance with those of the larger culture.
It would seem VF betokens the subculture and quite well at that. But ask yourself, what does being at variance with the larger culture mean to you? Are your beliefs/interests/pursuits really diverging from the rest of society? Find who you are rather than remind yourself of what you are not. It's not that those who KNOW should do the thinking for you, under your rights and liberty, but that those who do not know AS MUCH should not be held subservient to their own misusing of the knowledge they DO have.
That is all, may you be touched by the spirit of Truth.
Not like a bunch of lousy hipsters are going to though. The truth, to most of them, is tantamount to indoor tanning, an inanely simplistic talk at Starbucks about Deepak Chopra's preternatural genius (please get the joke), and perchance the latest fashion staple promulgated by a trendy, media - friendly posterboy(girl) with likewise irredeemably retarded fashion statements. "Oh it compliments your edgy haircut". You get the point, unless you to happen to be an insensibly credulous person with a bad haircut.
