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Jeg_Hersker's Journal
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Jaded Madness
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July 14, 2008, 04:33:pm
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Mmmkay. Another little entry thing.
Well, I might go to Europe this year/sumer/fall/whatthefuckever.
I'm pretty sure that the whole roommate situation is annoying. Like, I don't know. I'm going to stop caring. That's why I plan to move to Europe. That and the idea was my plan, in the first place.
So, my Crisis Case Manager lady thing came over today. I feel like I'm being forced into this. Just cos I had to go to the hospital cos I had a panic attack, doesn't mean I'm going to kill myself. Apparently, having the slightest bit of depression can get me in trouble. Whatever. It's going to depress me more just having to freaking go to a psychiatrist. Fuck, dude. I don't want to do this. I hate the human race. And, why the fuck would I want to talk to someone about my problems, that I don't even fucking know. It's bogus.
Fucken assholes. I. Hate. People.
I don't want to go to work today. I just want to sit on the phone with someone who makes me feel happy. You know who you are. And, I forgot to call Levi last night so we could practice. oh well. I really want to be in a band, but he's always doing things. 'Specially after he told me that he didn't have anything to do this summer. Hmm...sounds like he's occupied... ((annoyed face))
So, Hmm...what's left to rant about...? Just people. I wonder what would happen like, when I did get to Europe. Like, yelling at random people on the street while driving by is so much fun. And, I wonder if I can do that there...
I dunno. I need to get out of here. This town. It's shady. And, not only that, but my roommate's dad is watching my other roommate and I because some dumb shit. I'm done. It's retarded. Fuck being watched. I'm not a bad person and I don't cause trouble. It hurts to know that I'm being watched. Like, he's a fucking State Trooper. That if fucking bogus, dude. Seriously. I don't do ANYTHING. I'm mostly ANTISOCIAL. And, FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK. Goddamnit motherfucker. When I was told that, it made me mad. I don't do anything. It's fucking bullshit. I shouldn't have to be fucking watched. I don't cause trouble. AT ALL!
Mood: Wants to go on a ....... Rampage!
Music: Funeral of Hearts- HIM
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Violently, it changes...
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June 16, 2008, 12:06:am
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Hmm..being moved out..it's okay.
The added unneededness...is not.
Again, the only one isn't searching madly for a manfriend..haha. Like my roommates are. For serious.
It's annoying when people are like, "I need as many manfriends as I can get to feel secure!"
..Uhhmm..friends can't make you feel that way...?
I know friends can't/won't have sex with you, but damn. Be lucky. Anywho...
I feel like rocking out with some people. And, shit. I want to move to Europe. It makes me cry that I can't go to Europe this year. I hope to Hell that I can go next year. Sheesh.
I want so much..but I'm restricted. Fuckass...
Oh, yes. There's one thing that bothers me...
When my friends run off and we have no idea where to find them. They only run off for alittle bit, but fucking still. It bothers the cunt out of me. I don't understand. I'm not chasing after them anymore...not that they probably wanted me to. Uuuuuuugh! Anger! Again!
Mood: Blunt and savage.
Music: COB...on YouTube.
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