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Internet_Strangler's Journal
Journal of a strangler
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what do my eyes tell you about me?
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March 31, 2008, 05:48:am
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i've gone insane
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March 13, 2008, 09:43:am
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i find myself being too nice to strangers, like i’m robbing them of something in their life, so the first thing i got off my list is smiling. no more friendly smiles to you stranger, whoever you are. there just isn’t anythign to smile about, and i’m an extremely hard person to make smile.
second, people are broken, and as long as you can make the person you’re with think there is something wrong with them, you’re in control. why do people need this approval? why do they need compliments? why is being human used more as an excuse than it is as a metaphor?
thirdly, i’m stuck with this face, and this voice, and this body for a reason. now, i can decide how i’m going to use it. i’ve chosen to stop wondering how people see me. weird and cute are words that keep coming up in every description of me, so i’ll work with that. that’s how we roll in the Shire.
lastly, this planning for the future thing doesn’t work for me. so does this love thing. and this "Seem interested to amuse them" thing. which got me onto another idea, TATTOO ideas. my one friend and me spoke about this already, and i know what tatoo i’m going to get, i’m just figuring how to make it look good. give me the most beautiful lines of literature and lyrics and comedy you’ve ever heard.
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i've been accused of having a pearshaped head. now i don't take criticism too seriously, but i had to say this one stung a little, it is after all, my head. i took this insult personally, and have decided to choose a new shape for my head. i've had this mad scientist hair style long enough, what hairstyle should i have next?
next, for all of you who don't know, i am a large shirt size. i know my head may make you think otherwise, but i am pretty big, and i like shirts that flaunt my muscles, instead of looking like a naked skydiver caught in a circus tent. and Zerg should stop having weird fetish dreams about me. they don't freak me out just yet but they have the potential to really mortify me.
AND ... guess who has 2 DEFINITIVE EDITIONS DVDs of MIRROMASK .... well it's not me... but i have got 2 of Fight Club, and that is even better. and Stardust. so i can hop between Nihilism and Romanticism and lie awake at night rocking back and forth. thank you Nick! when i see you, we are goign to do all those things you promised me we were goign to do in the shower together *wink*
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damn
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March 10, 2008, 08:06:am
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i wish i could be everything.
not hav to keep dividing myself, having to be 2 different people with the people i care deeply about.
soft, magic, dream-like, is what i'm with you. sometimes i think there is nobody else, but we're only friends, and we're worlds apart. i'm not real.
then i meet someone else and i'm rough, dark, a friendly monster, and i feel like i want to be this forever. but i'm not real to her either. i'm just fiction.
i have some problems i could never tell anybody about
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OMGOMGOMGOMG
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March 01, 2008, 11:36:pm
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that phone call.
her voice.
her laugh <3
why is my heart stll beating so hard?
Mood: OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG
Music: *please hold*
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