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HolyCrapItsADuck's Journal
What is fame anything more than a fashion?
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Fuck drinking.
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October 19, 2008, 02:08:am
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I don't even know what emotions are right now.
I fuck up a lot of shit for no reasons attached.
I don't even have a desire to do any shit (that intoxicates you) anymore.
The one night I wanted to drink I have to do stupid shit to ruin the night.
Now I have to wake up in 6 fucking hours for work.
I'm fucking retarded.
I shouldn't have done it.
This night could've gone so much smoother.
I'm lame and I guess I've learned my lesson.
Bleh, I sound like a fucking emo kid but I should've known better, I really should've.
I should've just stayed home tonight doing my driver's ed.
Mood: Whatever.
Music: I don't know.
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Damn.
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July 19, 2008, 07:38:am
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There's been so many things running through my head lately. It seems like life has been going so fast compared to how it's used to. I don't know what to do. I really just want to sit down and have a conversation with people and take in their opinions while also expressing mine. I want a real conversation about controversial topics. I've had a couple of those lately and it's been the most amazing thing ever. I've listened to a lot more of Bright Eyes lately. There's so many things wrong with me but I've come to terms with that and I accept myself for my faults. Or at least I think I do. I don't know anymore. I've repressed too many things and I feel it eating away at me. It's amazing how my moods can change so quickly. I don't even have to have anything on my mind for it to change. It's just sudden and random. I've been so confused about so many things lately and I hate caring so much about everything. It really seems to put itself at my disadvantage and work against me to bring about my sanity's demise. What is love? I think it's just a series of commonalities and memories sewn together to your palm because you just want to clutch onto them forever. It's also quite possible that it could be like magnets or Tetris where somehow the energy of you and your other just connect and you complete each other. What is completing? I don't think anyone can be complete, whatever it means. This society is so broken and the mind is so shattered that how can just one person complete you? We all have a problem where we want to feel accepted to a certain extent. Yes, it is a problem. Everyone has problems, but everyone is just fine the way they are. What do you need to be complete? What are you missing in the first place? It can't be another person. You are responsible alone for how you feel, act, dress. No one can make you feel or make you act. You ultimately have a choice, though it may be an unfair one. Why do people have to dress a certain way? Why do we have to dress at all? Clothes are just a way of branding people. Animals don't wear clothes, they don't need them. Isn't it possible that animals are smarter than us and they just don't show it? What if they act stupid around us just so that they don't get tortured by all these tests our scientists feel so necessary to do? Sure they do get tested now, but imagine how much worse it would be if we found out they were intelligent. What is animals have already gone through their own stage of technology and have found that they don't need it to survive? I mean, we don't need TV, the internet, or books even. Sure, the internet has given me the chance to meet some very cool people and I'm thankful for that but I don't need it to live. We don't need soda, cell phones, cigarettes, alcohol or any other material item. Why did we invent them? Sure, they have their advantages but it complicates so many things. What makes people gay? Is it a chemical imbalance, the way they were raised, or are they just that way? I think of my life, why didn't I turn out gay? Why don't I like the word hot? Why do I believe in love? I honestly don't know why. I haven't had some major events to have caused an impact of that sort. I've never liked the word hot to describe a girl. Why don't I? I've thought back on my life and there are no events to have made me think that way. Why aren't I a man-whore? Why do I find sex disgusting? Why are so many answers to religious debates read the bible? Why is religion so major in politics? It's absurd. This is supposed to be the country for freedom of religion and everything is supposed to be accepted by why are some religions so dominant over others? Why can't everyone be equal and all have the same rights? Why do people have to judge others by the way they dress, their skin color or some other unnecessary reason? We were all made the same way. Why do some people think they are so much better than others? Why is the human race the only animal species that tortures their own kind just because they get a kick out of it? There's so many questions and I'm too tired to type out the rest but I think I've done pretty good for now. Thank you for reading this. <3
I want someone to make me think more. Answers are definitely more than welcome but I absolutely love questions.
Mood : Bright Eyes - Hot Knives
Mood: Tired
Music: Bright Eyes. <3
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Wow.
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June 12, 2008, 07:51:am
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Tonight is a starting point for change in my life. I've taken so much for granted and after tonight and the conversations I've had, my view points have changed so much. I've been trying to change the way I look at things for a while but tonight totally rearranged my perspective on a lot of things. I feel a lot more open to things now. :]
Mood: Calm.
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Hmmm.
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May 22, 2008, 10:10:am
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I'm sorry I haven't been in the chat lately.
I just hate the human race with each breath I take.
I can barely stand to hold a conversation anymore.
I hope you all are doing great.
Mood: I need more sleep. >.>
Music: Beethoven.
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You know this country is fucked when...
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May 17, 2008, 12:06:pm
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Contests like "America's Hottest College Girl '08"
Are you fucking kidding me?
Seriously?
She won $10,000, a trip to NYC, and she gets thrown a party just because she won a contest about how attractive she is?
Money that could've gone to a notable charity or SOMETHING at least.
Instead they just give it away to someone who didn't even fucking win it with some kind of skill?
Yeah, that money could help her through college but she didn't even enter a reasonable contest.
If you had $10,000 would you just give it away to someone because you thought they were attractive?
I quite doubt it.
Hell, at least you'd get something if you gave a fucking hooker that kind of money.
On a side note:
Fuck the word hot.
On another side note:
Today should be fun. =]
I can't wait. 
Mood: Awestricken
Music: Nevermore. <3
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