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Well once again i sit here not knowing exactly what words my fingers are going to type, not knowing what random thoughts my mind will blurt out. but lets see how this goes. I hate everything that could possbily be happening in my life. Im stuck. I am sick, really really sick and i cant seem to get better. Im in this relationship that im only in because i got sucked back into it. No body, and i mean literally no body that i want to care about me does in this world. so why not just continue to fuck up my own personal world with using different things to try and make everything okay for once but when at last you realize that for the majority of your miserable life you will be alone. you will have no one to care for, or to care for you. You will have no one to guve you sympathy when needed, embrace you when you deserve it, nothing. you are left to be emptied, drained by society and left there to die, bleed out. until you are no longer and they have found a new source to feed on.
Hello Everyone. Just stopping in to write about everything and nothing all at the same time. Well...Nothing seems to be going right for me...Nothing seems to work out in my favor. Im trying to do everything right to the best of my ability. Yeah, no one is perfect, and i am not claiming to be, but im trying. like ugh!
I need to get out of this relationship I am in. I can no longer be in a relationship with a 21 year old baby. I should not have to take care of someone the way I am trapped into taking care of my significant other. Plus, the lack of trust, happiness, fun time, stability, honesty, and commitment in our relationship makes everything 100 times harder.
I want to get this job I am hoping to get and make some money and go to Paris, France A.S.A.P. I can not wait to go. It is going to be amazing. I have been waiting for this for so long, what like 3 years now? hmm...its been a while anyways. I have people I can not wait to see there, I can not wait to explore the beautiful landscapes, and of course, have an amazing time shopping .
Im very tired. Lol. I hate waking up early, but it always seems to happen to me. I always seem to be waken up in the morning by various things. (Someone yelling/crying, Alarms, Wake up on my own, Phone calls, etc...) Hah...yeah. My house can get a little crazy. Eh...Whatever.
I need new music. So if anyone has a good band that you think i should check out, let me know. I like a very big variety of music from- Green Day--> Breathe Carolina--> Marilyn Manson-->Mindless Self Indulgence. The list could continue for a while.
So...Im heading off to bed. To my baby boy: I hope I see you in my dreams. Can not wait to see you baby. <3 x 100! MS_+_TM<3 To VF friends: Hit me up with either a message or comment and we'll chat Mood: Sleepy Music: None
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