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GodsDarkestChild's Journal
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missing you
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October 16, 2008, 12:30:am
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Love blinds me once again
Living this pain is more than I can bare
Memories of you and me together
Only bring me misery and despair
I was so happy with you
Yet I tore our souls asunder
Like a thief I stole your love
And your trust I took and plundered
I promised you forever
And forever I did not give
Sometimes the pain is to much
Sometimes it is hard to live
I miss everything we shared
Together we were complete
But now I am lost and alone
Crying I have fallen to my feet
I shed these tears not for myself
But for the pain I caused you
How I could hurt something so beautiful
Something I loved so strong and true
Now to you I do not exist
I am a shadow in a world of light
I am being consumed and eaten
Swallowed from my own blight
Take this body and break it
Relieve me from the everlasting pain
For I don't know if I can hold on
For my heart I cannot sustain.
Music: H.I.M.
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Down where I am
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August 16, 2008, 05:36:pm
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sn't it great to see how life begins
Things may change, let the joy begin
Can you hear this new life crying
Breed it out, it will be worth it
Show me your newborn smile
(Please tell me why)
I don't wanna hold you
(Please tell me why)
I don't wanna see you
'Cause even your smile hurts
Oh it hurts like hell
Isn't it good to see how life begins
There's no sin and there's no crime
Down where I am there's no bitter end at all
This bitterness is endless,
keeps going on and on
I don't wanna hold you
I don't wanna see you
Even birth can bear disgrace
I don't wanna hold you
I don't wanna see you
Or even the smile upon your face
I fear my heart and fear my soul
And all the things that are unknown
There's a chance things will
turn wrong, my friend
Far too fast I'm losing ground
Well, let's face it here and now
You're not welcome you should know
I fear my heart and fear my soul
Life goes on it surely will
Without me it will wither
Will I ever see light again
Will I ever see light again
Oh life goes on
I don't wanna hold you
I don't wanna see you
My tear of joy turned into grief
(I don't wanna stand it anymore)
Down where I am that's where darkness rules
The silence shall be only friend
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Meant to be Alone
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August 16, 2008, 02:03:pm
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Am I meant to be alone
I cry out to you
But I get no response
I see that this may be true
My heart is dying
My soul bares no life
Not even God
Can relieve this strife
Why can't I have love
Is it my fault your gone
I don't know what I did wrong
My voice sings this song
I want to be loved
But I am meant to be alone
Cold and with no one
My heart is cold as stone
I hate this world
I do not belong
Everyone says endure
Everyone tells me to be strong
I have endured long enough
I am tired and bent out of shape
For my heart you did destroy
My spirit you did break
I loath the word love
It is nothing to me anymore
I am no longer your vessel
I am no longer loves whore
My soul has diminished
My heart decayed into the ground
Do not speak my name
I don't want to hear a sound
I take this dagger
And plunge it deep inside
Maybe Ill know love
But not in this life
When I look into the world
I just want to watch it burn
I want them to feel my pain
I want their souls to churn
Only in death will I feel release
This pain dwells to deep
All I can do is cry
Can you not hear me weep
I know you can
You just don't care
You told me you loved me
You told me you'd always be there
I trusted you
Look where I am at now
I can't believe I opened up
I wonder why I wonder how
Never again
Iam meant to be alone
I will not become you slave
My body you will not stone
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