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FlippoUxro's Journal
FREAKEY FRUITEY
 I Just Know You'll Love Me ^_^
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a new Start [^_^]
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September 06, 2008, 07:38:pm
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First :
GOOD NEWS -> Got my tests back from the Lab !! CANCERFREE FO'SHOO !!!
I felt so releaved and like "OOOH I'm not going to dieee" JEEJ
PARTY ????
Btw.. I'm secretly in luv with my doctor ! 
Anyhows.. New start of the year..
Back to school/work. 
That means I won't be online that much.
But sure, I'll try - I love you guys !
Also thinking about starting a band but still looking
for bandmembers. So if yer from Belgium and u can kick
ass on any instrument .. TEXT ME !
To all : Good Luck with the new school/worky Year and KICK ARSE !!
 Today I'm Dirty but I want to be Pretty
♥ DISTURBED CONCERT NEXT MONTH ♥
Mood: happy but tired
Music: The Nobodies - Marilyn Manson
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Surgery it is..
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August 26, 2008, 08:34:am
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First of all : Thank You guys for all of your support and for your comfort.
HAAH I was just freaking out I guess, after my grandfather was diagnosed with
cancer and died a 2 months later ??
I know how fast life can be put to an end.
BUUUT..
I went to see my doctor and he told me that it was probably nothing serious
but I do have to go under the knife and have it removed. From than on they are
sending it to a labratory and have the piece of skin (EEWK!) tested on cancer.
Let's hope.. NOT !
I'm getting it done this friday and I'm already crapping in my jeans.
Needles, blood, cutting with a knife in my body.. Omg.... I am so
going to faint in advance  haha
Thank you for all of your support - I love you, my little stars
Mood: scared but bit relieved :)
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Serious shit!!
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August 25, 2008, 09:34:am
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I have some disturbing news to report..
Especially for myself.. it's hard to say.
I'm going to the doctor/dermatologist tonight for
a skincancer check up. It could be possible I have
got Skincancer cause of a Melanoma Maligne.. Or
in human language : a mutated mole on the side of
my tummy.
I do NOT know what to expect.
All I know I'm scared shitless...
I do not want to die, no mather how 'dark' or 'Goth'
I can be at some times.. I love life - I love living..
Please pray with me that it won't be severe skincancer.
Love You All..
Mood: SCARED as FUCK !
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The Hell Called Life..
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August 17, 2008, 04:05:pm
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This Weekend All Went Wrong.
GRRR. Don't even ask me about it.
Fre, I'm sorry that I didn't Come to
see you rock the hell out of this shitplace.
And Daddy, I'm sorry If I'm not your perfect
daughter, But Screw you! I'm sick of your
half-assed behaviour.
Ex-boyfriend - You Suck because I still Love you
and you don't love me back.. Well, not enough to
stay faithfull anyway.
And FUCK U to all the people out there who have been
critisizing me throughout my whole damn life.
I'm so sick of it.
Seriously.
I've had enough in being me.
I'm starting to disable who I am.
I'm getting rid of all piercings, FreakClothes,
No more Ink..
Congratz FUCKED UP Society
YOU WON.
Mood: pissed off but most of all sad..
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fun !!
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August 13, 2008, 12:46:pm
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This weekend gonna be ace !!
I'm going to a friends performance, a kickass heavy metal party and shopping with a hot boy with mummy's creditcard. I CAN'T WAIT FOR THE WEEKEND TO BEGIN !!
Mood: happy -- Excited
Music: tv !
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Single
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August 08, 2008, 08:04:pm
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I'm Officially Single Again and I'm fine, Thanks.
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Heartbroken - It's over.
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August 07, 2008, 10:09:am
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I wish I could start this journal entry positive.
But I just can't..
Since I'm at home, I'm really bored, So I decided to clean up
some shit on my laptop. I logged on into my bf's account (he
has no laptop of his own - so he uses mine)
What I saw was AWFUL. My heartbeat went so fast and my hands
couldn't stop shaking.
What I found in his account, was a full map with all pictures
of this girl (where he was in love with in the past, but was
too cowardly to make a move during our relationship).
Pictures of her in bikini, Pictures of her body, So many pictures.
Most have been over a 100. THIS IS SICK !! THIS IS SUCH SICK SHIT !
He is totally obsessed with her. I HATE HIM for doing this to me
again !
He is such a coward for not telling me.
He is such a selfish STUPID fuck that only cares for himself.
I MADE UP MY MIND.
I WANT HIM OUT OF MY LIFE.
I HATE HIM - I WILL NEVER BE ABLE TO LOVE HIM EVER AGAIN.
So have A SHITLIFE you Cheating lowlife of a coward !
Mood: suicidal - depressed
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Society Pressure ? whatever - fuck off -
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August 06, 2008, 01:05:pm
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M'kay..
"OMG, Kelly ! That pink in ur hair, it looks awful for someone ur age!"
"OMG, have you got another piercing - again - ?"
"OMG, are you STILL listening to that trash death metal?"
"KELLY ! Why aren't you wearing these nice clothes ? Why are you wearing
these ripped ugly jeans and corsettops ?"
BLABLABLA
People all around in my environment are starting to ennoy me with their
stupid remarks and questions.
As in "When are you finaaally going to grow up?"
It's SHIT ! OKAY I'm 19 but I can act whatever age I like !
Girls my age here are getting married, havin' babies, working like
corporate slaves.. OMG is THAT so much BETTER than ?
I do as I please but I still hate them people for making me feel
like I'm abnormal, weird and infantile !
ME IS ME. NOT GOING TO CHANGE FOR YOU.
FACT.
Mood: happy
Music: PANTERA - CEMETARY GATES LUUUV IT
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Mister 'fucking' Perfect
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July 29, 2008, 07:02:pm
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Since I'm stuck at home with a severe injured foot,
I've been thinking alot, about all the current stuff
that is going on in my life.
And I must say, That even dough I'm dating a boy that I've
been with for 4 years.. I somehow long for that Mister Right.
The Perfect man.. Someone that comes along and takes my breath
away. Someone that really loves me and to feel truelly in
love again.
Cause the fact is.. My boyfriend and I don't have much passion
left in our relationship. Today we didn't even kiss !!! OMG !!
And since we got back from Spain, he was always hanging out
with his mates and not really keen on spending some time
with me.
I REALLY DON'T KNOW.
We've been together for so long, it's really difficult to
consider making an end to our relationship.
But The passion is gone and I'm no longer in love with him, as I used to be.
AND I know he isn't in love with me either. Cause he has
been trying to cheat on me several times in our relationship.
BUT never succesfully succeeded LOL'D !!
Truelly.. I have lost my way in life - Especially on the love part.
I want to feel truelly in love again, Butterflies in my stomach,
happiness..
BAAH I DON'T KNOW
This Solitude that comes with my injury is making me FUCKING Crazy !
Mood: mental fruitcaaake
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Back From Spain.
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July 28, 2008, 06:12:am
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Hello Luvs
I'm back from Spain and I had a blast.
It was such a wonderfull time and such a beautiful
country (pictures will follow) The weather was fucking
awesome and I even got a tan. goths NEVER tan. lol'd
BUT.. The last day of vacation in Spain, before we were
heading back home with the bus.. I managed to get my toe
broken, just by bumping into my suitcase. OMG
IT HURTED LIKE HELL.
Thank god, it happened on the LAST day.
But Now I'm feeling so sad. Back home.. The weather is also
fantastic and all my friends go swimming, camping, festivals,
skating.. And I can't come.. Well, not really.
Secretly I'm hoping for rain and shitweather, So we can all
watch tv together or play Games. HAAH LOL
SHIT !! I AM GOING TO BE SO BORED -- BOOOOOOOOOOOORED --
Mood: depressed "wanna play outside"
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