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ElectricStorm's Journal
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Mutant Invader o.O
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September 04, 2008, 11:42:pm
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This crawled in through the hole in my wall...
That's a pint glass over it by the way, for a sense of perspective...
... it's the biggest house spider I've ever seen. 
and it has tenticles.
I released it in the yard. Maybe it'll eat the cat. 
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September 01, 2008, 08:03:pm
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Yesterday I managed to burn myself washing out a water bottle with hot water from the kettle. My finger is all red and it hurts 
*Opens door to padded room, puts self inside, posts back the key*
Now, since I've proven I'm not safe around kettles, who wants to make me a cup of tea? ^_^
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September 01, 2008, 12:15:am
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Eugh. I have tummyache AGAIN.
I should like to exchange bodies with anyone who has a healthy one please? I don't even care if it's 50 pounds overweight and spotty.
My current essay topic is knowledge and knowing- how do we know? It's really very interesting. It's all about looking at different types of knowledge, how they came to be, and be trusted, and the evidence provided to back them up. It makes even hard facts seem sort of flimsy and changeable- just look at the evolution of medicine- it's not that long ago doctors were recommending that we smoke, and THEY are supposed to be a trustworthy reliable source! We (as a society) get it wrong all the time... so how do you decide what to believe? In the modern western world expert knowledge is no longer entirely sovereign, we're a questioning society, and we want to know it all. Knowledge is power after all, but I wonder if we know too much- these days parents question whether to get their kids vaccinated because they aren't certain the vaccine is safe, but are they really in the most objective position to decide? Or are they likely to let their emotions get in the way, and avoid a small risk to their baby now, at the cost of a much greater one later on? In the days before we knew so much, there was no decision. Similarly we worry endlessly about our lives and our futures, have endless paths to choose from, and zero certainty or security on any given one.. were we happier before we could choose? Most people if asked say they like to decide, but we're a more stressed and depressed society than ever before! D'you suppose we have too many choices?
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August 31, 2008, 02:29:am
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If you had to kill your own meat, would you become a vegetarian?
A week ago I thought the answer was obviously yes- there's nothing wrong with killing animals for food. They're born for the purpose after all- if it wasn't for the meat industry they'd never have existed, and surely any existence is better than none at all. Now I'm not sure if I could. Maybe it's because we're raised in a society where everything is sterile, n we never get to see such things.. maybe. But I am the sort of person that takes spiders outside, because I don't like to see them splatted. Could I really splat something more intelligent like a pig? And if we're to say killing things is morally acceptable, it must apply to all animals the same, right? I don't think I could kill a cat, or a ratty.
Either way though I'm getting real interested in this vegetarian / nutrition stuff. It seems like a lot of meat products aren't really good for you anyway- they're full of water, fat and chemicals and carry all sorts of germs. Then again lord knows what vegetables are sprayed with. Unless you can afford to eat organic (I can't) is there really anything in it?
The more I find out the deeper the rabbit hole seems to go. If you want to be vegetarian, or even ethical in your choices you have to consider all sorts of things- food, clothing, makeup, glue.. and the information isn't easily available. I can see why they call vegetarianism a lifestyle choice.
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August 25, 2008, 09:04:pm
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I'm terribly terribly tired.. n all I've done today is clean the wall dust off my chair n shelves. Wall dust gone. Yay. My room is still a plastic covered bomb site though. Anyone want to come and help me decorate?
Also, I have cool socks on today. They're 'luminous. ^_^
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August 24, 2008, 10:22:pm
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My toes are freezing. Someone should tell England it's August.
I'm having one of those oddly social cheerful days when I actually want to know people. Scared? Me too. I should think it'll wear off soon
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August 23, 2008, 10:07:am
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Hummm. I need to pick this years university courses about 3 weeks ago and everything I even sort of fancy is examined instead of coursework based which means I can't do it, nottt that any of it's all that awe inspiring anyway.
This time last year I was so excited about this stuff, now I'm bored by it, maybe I should stop? I think I'm going to put off the decision 'till February enrollment.. although I think that may mean I can't apply for the computer grant n I was really looking forward to that. I kinda need a new laptop. Life sucks sometimes. Ick.. and I still have 2 more Social Science essays and 2 resits before I've even finished THIS years courses.
</whine>
Uhm..
No that's it really, I just wanted to whine. ^_^
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August 21, 2008, 05:51:am
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Work + much Coca Cola = 4am bedtime + 5 hours sleep.
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August 16, 2008, 01:56:am
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I was talking about being ill all the time, and how stress seems to aggravate it, and this girl I know says "I had a brain hemorrhage with a 50/50 chance of living. You should just relax and enjoy life!" Hows that for some perspective?
The trouble is "just relaxing" is something I find terribly difficult. I like to do everything well, and I like to get As. I check and recheck things obsessively because I hate to make mistakes, and I don't understand wasting time and effort on games because they're not productive. I'm a seriously neurotic personality and it comes out in everything- the way I talk- a paragraph where a sentence would do, the way I act- throwing out perfectly acceptable uni work because I must have an A, or going back 3 times to make sure I switched the cooker hob off, and the way I react to every little criticism, questioning myself, needing to justify every move. I MUST be seen as clever, moral, a worthwhile person, and I must cover all bases and never screw up, and in trying to be everything I have ended up with nothing- a mind out of my control and a body that reacts to every little stress by getting terribly ill. I have achieved very little because in expecting too much I get tired and give up.
How do you find the balance? I do not want to be mediocre. I cannot pick one thing to focus on because I currently just don't have a passion- I don't know what I'd like my future to be. I badly need an attitude adjustment, but how do you change something so fundamental as a way of thinking you've had since childhood? and if I was able to do so, would I be one of those people- working behind a checkout counter for minimum wage, considering Sunday dinner an event? I don't want to be that, but I don't want to be this either- I'll never achieve anything if I spend half my life sick. Perhaps I need to pick out just one path to follow and stick to it, but there are so many... infinite possibilities.. how do you choose? And is it really a good thing to close your eyes to everything else? What if you missed something brilliant?
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