For about 4 yrs i've REALLY wanted my tongue split. Its been nagging me forever. lol I know there are no tattoo/piercing places in kentucky that will do them (ive asked). But i just googled it and i found a plastic-surgery place near me that does it! They even mention it on their website! I feel really stupid now, why didnt i google a long time ago. XD They sound like a repretable place (have been on tv and everything), i might call them. They say it will cost around $1000 is that normal? (if anyone knows)
If all goes well (meaning with money), i will probably do it. I'll force my friend to help me out the first few days tho. she can laugh at me while i talk funny.
Okay i havnt been on this site in a while. I just came back to sell stuff, but i'll try to tell you about my crazy week so far.
KORN (monday) My ONE Bucketlist item has been completed. lol I Saw KORN Live last Monday. I can now die a happy woman. You have no idea how insanely good it was. ...or how much money i lost going. lol I have LOVED them since i was in 5th grade (im almost 23 now) and i thought it would never happen. It still seems unreal. I had crappy seats, but at least i got to hear them and sing with them (theyre very interactive). Their new cd "Path of Totality" sounds 20 million times better live then the cd. lol And Jonathan Davis is now making industrial type mixes under the DJ name: J-Devil, and he was the opening act!! And let me tell you, it was good. I usually dont like dance or most industrial music, but his was epic! Industrial-like with some metal and growling from him thrown in. It was great, i hope he releases a cd. I have to see them again (with better seats).
TUESDAY The bad part is ...i had to go by myself. It really sucks bc now i have noone to share the experience with. I really hate doing things by myself, it saddens & upsets me to no end. And no one really cares that i went. My sister drove me there (which i had to pay her $75 in gas, because it was 4 hours away), but she didnt care much to hear about it. And my younger brother wanted me to take pics & videos, but yesterday when i went to show them to him, he didnt care at all. He actually told me to go away! I hate this! It really does feel like it really didnt happen... because i just went back to my shitty life where no one cares. I hate being totally alone. That was Tuesday.
TODAY Now today, some more bad shit happened. Theres this nest of 2 baby birds i've been watching grow up thats in my backyard. I've watched them for about a month, and now they have most feathers and wings, but still cant fly. Well I let our family bulldog outside to the bathroom (i live in the country btw), and one baby bird had fallen out the nest. I went to try and put it back, but it ran away, & that attracted my dog. He ran after the poor little bird (me screaming and chasing), and got the bird and slowly chewed him to death. I was Devastated and Disturbed. I watched him chew on this bird, and wouldnt let him go. I finally got him to spit it out, & it was still alive but paralyzed & in pain. I started crying, and my dog got him again and eventually killed him. Long story short, i cried for an hour later bc i blame myself. Nothing should have to die like that. And no one else in my house cared at all that this happened! The stupid heartless assholes (my family) i have to live with. It was beyond awful. Im still upset, and i feel so guilty. And i no longer can even look at our family pet.
Earlier This Year (Caution)
Oh yeah, and this year i also found out something kinda disturbing. My whole life i've known i was kinda odd/off from other people, but i never knew what it was. So 2 years ago i figured out (on my own) that i have Aspergers Syndrome (which are people with mild symptoms related to Autism). Which is okay; it just make me very anxious/nervous in social situations and in doing new things (like going to concerts alone!). Its very complicated. But anyway, thats not the bad part, i'm actually RELIEVED that now i know what the hell it is. Well i never wanted to tell anyone bc i thought people would think negatively about me or think im stupid (which is actually the opposite of most people with aspergers, most are overly intellegent). So i've been hiding it from my family too. .....WELL, about 3 months ago i overheard my mom talking to someone on the phone, and she mentioned me having Aspergers to them! I have been living in agony my whole life thinking i was crazy/freak from everyone else bc i didnt know what was wrong with me mentally, AND MY PARENTS HAVE ALWAYS KNOWN, THIS WHOLE TIME! WTF! They hid my own illness from me my whole life!! Like i was a monster or something. They could have got me help ages ago, and i wouldnt have all the troubles/anxiety/depression ive had my whole life! Really?!!! They didnt even care enough to learn about it themselves, to help me! ...seriously, that event devastated me for months, and still. I no longer trust anyone in my family or want anything to do with them. I still havnt told them that i 'know' either, bc apparently Im a big old dark family secret/ monster. Theyre all assholes, and i really dont care what happens to any of them. I'm totally through with them all.
But yeah, thats been my year so far, pretty eventful huh? Oh well, sorry to be so negative, but thats how my life is. Hopefully things will pick up again, bc the total high from Korn has already plummeted. :/ I'm hoping to see another one of my fav bands 'Smile Empty Soul' again, when they play at a bar here at the end of the month. Its only $10! Hopefully i can convince someone to come with me too. Staying Postitive!!
Mood: Depressed Music: Florence & the Machines "Heavy in Your Arms"
I feel really stupid now, why didnt i google a long time ago. XD They sound like a repretable place (have been on tv and everything), i might call them. They say it will cost around $1000 is that normal? (if anyone knows) 
I just came back to sell stuff, but i'll try to tell you about my crazy week so far.
I can now die a happy woman. You have no idea how insanely good it was. ...or how much money i lost going. lol I have LOVED them since i was in 5th grade (im almost 23 now) and i thought it would never happen. It still seems unreal. I had crappy seats, but at least i got to hear them and sing with them (theyre very interactive). Their new cd "Path of Totality" sounds 20 million times better live then the cd. lol And Jonathan Davis is now making industrial type mixes under the DJ name: J-Devil, and he was the opening act!! And let me tell you, it was good. I usually dont like dance or most industrial music, but his was epic! Industrial-like with some metal and growling from him thrown in. It was great, i hope he releases a cd. I have to see them again (with better seats).