So I work a 40 hour weekly, sometimes it ends up being 50-60 hours, I have a son and a Gf
the problem here is that.
A: I don't drive
B: I work ALL the time
Since I don't drive my gf has to bring me everywhere, she hates it, even if it involves buying groceries, snacks, or going out to eat, its gotten to the point where she brings it up in arguments that I never go to the store since I'm at work all the time.
We just had an argument, and it got bad, I swear she doesn't love my son, hes always adorable for me, a true fathers boy, but he screams for her, my thoughts go to attention, I don't think she gives him the attention he needs, she also smokes, and she ran out of smokes, blamed me for not buying them for her since she lost her I.D.
It's getting to the point where I truly believe we're going to break up soon, but.. It's not like I didn't see it coming, shes always telling me to find someone better or that I'm never happy, but it's because of her lack of support that I'm depressed a lot.
Hell an example is I want to go to EVO next year to participate in the Street Fighter 4 Arcade edition tournament, I said hey I'll have 6 days vacation time, we can go, but she said bring someone else I don't care about that shit, now I'm NOT that great, she knows this so the EVO thing would end after maybe a day, so why say no when you have 5 other days to spend together? It pisses me off A LOT because she never supports my dreams.
I'm stuck in a dead end job to pay for this apartment and buy my son stuff, and I never complain, it pays the bills, but to frown on me because I still hold onto my dreams? I honestly don't care if I end up single, nothing changes for me, I'll still work ALL the time, but I wanted to keep this "family" together for my son.
I might as well just start drinking again, I guess if my vision is blurry all the time, things might seem more normal. Mood: Depressed. Music: The 69 Eyes : Lost Boys
So, I figured I'd post a journal about whats been going on.
I picked up Black Ops 2 and Far Cry 3, and I gotta say.. Far Cry 3 is so much more fun
the story is good, the gameplay is good and hunting has never been more fun, my favorite weapon so far is the recurve bow.
Also my hair stylist is moving to Kentucky so now I don't have someone to do my hair and that sucks.
I deleted my cult, unfortunally I couldn't figure everything out to make it work
the right way, and noone inboxed me to help, it just goes to show how people are. Mood: upset
So, I made a new Gaming Cult, however I know SHIT about coding and making a page look pretty -_-, I need someone to design it, I don't want to open it to the public until it's looking good, so if you help you'll get Admin for the help, Thanks.
SO.. I might have to work this weekend, which really fucking sucks because
I was thinking about finally getting my hair dyed, I've had a jar of Vermillion Red sitting around for a month now
so now I don't have someone to do my hair and that sucks.