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Culture_Shocked's Journal
My release
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Totally lost in despair...thats the only way i can describe how im feeling...i have to move the preggo sis to truro, which includes a long list of problems
*pack all mom's shit, sort out what we are taking and what we have to put in storage
*break the news to mother that she no longer has an apartment to come home to when the dumb bitch gets out of jail
*Cancel all moms stuff like internet, phone, cable, and explain to them that i wont be paying on them, that they will have to wait to hear from her when she gets out
*Write to a bunch of stupid places to get mom's mail sent to my new apartment
*GET a freakin' apartment in truro, find funds for moving, deposit, rent, phone hookup
*try to explain to the kids father that what he does all the time is harrassment and if he shows up at my new place like he used to do when i lived in truro, that i WILL have him arrested..that should go over reeeeeeeal well
The only bonus i see right now is that i will be close to the kids again, oh and ya..the bf..thats another story and a half...ugh
I really dont know where to start, where or how to move my entire life AGAIN..i just did this shit 6 weeks ago...so tired of being stressed, upset, overwelmed...im sick of being all girly and crying so much, not like me at all. I dont know how to deal with all of this, i dont want to deal with it. The easy way out isnt one i favour, not that selfish...but it does have its perks i guess. Tired of the nightmares i've been having the past few weeks, of the shaking hands and meloncholy music i cant stop listening to. Tired of not being able to just give up.
Music: some depressing shit, some sappy depressing shit, some cascada...w/e
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January 21, 2008, 05:28:pm
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Well, shit has really hit the fan here. My female parental figure has been put in jail for 6 months and who does that leave to care for a 17yr old pregnant sister? Yeah me...and not only did she KNOW she was going and didnt tell anyone, but she decided to stop paying her bills( ya know, those important ones like rent, phone, credit card and stuff) SO i get to hali sunday, after being told thursday that she's gone, with no job, my kids are in truro, my boyfriend, my friends, my jobs, apartment all that good stuff that i had busted my ass for the past 2 years. I've got to come up with 1400 bucks by the end of the month for rent PLUS another 4 or 5 hundred for the rest of the bills she stopped paying a month ago FUCK SAKES...im gonna totally disown that bitch when she gets out...I miss mike so much, it's killing me because i cant do long distance relationships...i cant go weeks without seeing him but i dont want to lose him at the same time...i dont know what to do 
Mood: Mad, hurt, lonely...worried..you name it, im it
Music: vf radio
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