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A Dark Night Alone... Again

May 10, 2013, 11:41:pm

It's not often I decide to write anything here. Been years since I used this actively for anything but random thoughts at the time of my birthdays. Life does move fast. Progress with things seems to move too slow. I realized I been alone almost my entire life. Not by choice, just by fate it seems. I spent too many years walking in shadows and dreams. This world is not my home. Sometimes I want to end it all and move onward, but I know destiny will not allow such things. So here I sit alone on another dark night... Waiting for the one who will come into my life and save me from it all. I wonder where you are? I have been waiting a long time... Are you reading this?

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Finally I Reach The Big 30

October 30, 2012, 11:32:pm

Another year has come and gone. I had a lot of plans last year and goals that didn't really end up happening. I should know better you'd think... Don't make such big goals? I didn't think they were so big at the time and still don't to be honest. So this time I have some larger goals. I wanna have saved $10,000 by the time I reach 31. So far I have $2000 saved and banked away. I wanna invest and get things moving. I have plans for a business in the distant future. In the meantime, I want to reach my goals and see where this year takes me.

1) Get to $10,000
2) Get My Passport
3) Take a nice Vacation
4) Get myself into a relationship with an awesome girl ;-)

5) Improve my health (Diabetes is killing me)

So yes if anyone is wondering, my health has sucked for the past 3 years in general. And I've been Single a Very long time now. Money has always been hard to come by for me, and stress has been building the last years. Hopefully this will be the start of great years to come. But than again that's what I said last year, and the year before that... third times a charm?

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Another Update?

May 26, 2012, 05:00:pm

Seems like I never get around to writing anything here anymore. And I suppose since this is only my third entry in about 7 months, that would be true.

Things Are moving slow again, and I am sorta moving along slower than I would like. 5 more months and I will turn the big 30 years old. Given my current situation though, I am not living much like a 30 year old. I gave my crusade for my own apartment after the winter had passed. I started making some money and decided it would be best to save more and do things right when the time comes.

The girlfriend search has been all for naught for the most part. No one really has come into my life that could even remotely win my heart in the past year. I am not THAT picky, but it would be nice to have me meet someone that's interesting and interested in a relationship with me for a change. That isn't 5000 miles away of course...

Gonna plan a small trip in the next few months before my birthday and all for sure. Where am I going? No idea yet. But I wouldn't mind going and meeting someone new at the same time. So if anyone wants to chill with me somewhere for a week or something let me know...

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