2008 has been pretty great and also crazy for me. I nearly died two times this year....yea talk about a great start. Ok so heres the story. Those of you who live in California know how shitty the weather is right now. It's been raining a lot. My car tires are completely bald and I'm supposed to have them changed, but I'm broke. Anyways so I was heading out for work and as I'm making a left turn on to the main street. My car completely loses control and it's spinning around three times in the middle of the street. Two cars nearly rammed my side and for some weird reason I didn't freak out, I was still extremely calm. I guess my brain didn't process it right away. Afterwards I just headed to work like nothing happened and laughed hysterically to myself. Anyways the other incident happened on Friday while I was heading out to San Francisco with my buddy. We decided to smoke a blunt on the way up there. I started to realize after being high that maybe, maybe it wasn't a good idea to drive the car in the rain and being kinda high. The whole time, I kept telling my friend to be careful because the wheels. So we decided to stay in the slow lane. Then all of a sudden the car starts spinning out two times, nearly hitting a car in the next lane over. Luckily they swerved and sped up. The weird thing was no cars were around while we were spinning on the freeway. They came zooming by seconds after the car slid to the side of the freeway. It was crazy. The whole time my mind was just blank. I wasn't scared or freaked out for my life. I just sat there like it was cool. My friend and I just started laughing. We joked around about our near death experience and how we were supposed to find god in situation like that. I sure as hell didn't find god, I'm just lucky as hell. I guess I have my ancestor protecting me.
I'm extremely heartbroken after hearing about the death of one my best guy friends. I happened to be on vacation for the 4th of July when I heard the terrible news. At first I though it was some kind of sick joke my best friend was playing when I received his text message. So I call and on the other end I hear both of my friends sobbing on the phone, right then and there my heart just drops.
It was so hard to process at the time and also unbelievable that such a stupid accident can happen. I'm upset and depressed at the same time and as the days go by it seems to get more and more real. It hurts so much and I wish I had my friends here to help me cope. I can't help stop thinking about things when I'm alone, the tears just keep coming.......I wish they'd stopped. My head, my face, and my heart just hurts. I'm so exhausted.
I wish where ever he is now that he's at peace. I'm always gunna miss him and I know that I will meet him again in another life time.
