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Blackness_Exhumed's Journal
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Words
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September 20, 2008, 12:36:pm
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Everyday that I see you
It's a perfect day
Everyday that I walk to you
You walk away
And now I see
What it's to be
The answer is...
sometimes and eventually.
What can I do?
Because it's just not true.
Those rumours that were spread
lead to lies and people heard what other people said.
They copied me
Those frail words
Imprinted in the air
And now I will despair
For..they're not mine anymore.
And neither... are you?
Mood: meh...
Music: nothing
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It will be time.
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August 31, 2008, 12:35:pm
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Truth be told
To us, there wasn't much about to be bold.
To stand up for what we believed.
[but you did]
And in the end you left us, the bereaved.
Bearing the burden of sorrow,
everyone would say,"Look forward to tomorrow."
You focus on today,
ignoring them, you wanted it your way.
Drifting apart..
you felt it, your heart.
Weeping and wailing at your loss,
and gradually over the grave will grow moss.
A carpet that will bloom,
then it may be soon.
For you, yourself to travel
and wait for life's string to unravel.
And be cut,
then it will be your time.
[Random poem I've written ..thinking about things..that have happened..]
Mood: not too sure
Music: The vacuum?
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Remembrance..
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August 01, 2008, 03:54:pm
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I don't want to go on about this that much..but I honestly feel that it's something worth writing down..for the future I suppose.
This is going to sound weird..but when I watched The Dark Knight [the day before the funeral] I was actually thinking what a shame it was for people to die when they've done so much and got so far..it's a serious film..definitely worthwhile.
Anyhow..advertising time over...
Wednesday 30th July 2008:
Ok..so basically we went to Norfolk for the funeral..and we got there early. It's a strange experience going to see someone who's dead..I suppose this is pretty morbid..but..she looked peaceful, although her mouth had changed..That was what you could call disturbing..personally I think it's better to not see someone like that, and remember them in the way you saw them when they were alive.
It still hasn't registered properly I don't think..I mean, is crying at the right times ..knowing?
I have no idea..
It's amazing all the stuff you learn about someone. I mean, it's a real shame I didn't know all about this when she was alive. All the things that people said about her were SO true. For example, anyone who ever met her would go away with a bit of love and her faith, and she would ALWAYS give people a chance..to be themselves. I learnt she played in Wimbledon when she was 16..some people said that she wouldn't have wanted us to have been upset..'how could anybody be on such a beautiful day?' she would have said.
It's a shame the family [most of them] only really came together that day..even one of my uncle's, who never usually talks to me, did!
In fact..we pretty much all agreed; she lived life to the full. She lived 'til 90 something, and did SO much.
It makes you think, that you should live life to the full..because of her.
In fact [said it again..],the day was pretty ok for a day like that..
*sigh*
merf..I've written more than I planned o.O ..I think that's enough..
Mood: meh..
Music: uhmm I can hear a shower??
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R.I.P Gran
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July 19, 2008, 05:03:pm
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I don't think there is a proper way to put this across..I don't even think the news has even registered with me. But..to cut straight to the point, my Gran/Nan/Granny whatever you want to call ..anyway she died. No one really knows when, or really how. But from the evidence so far..she seemed to have died pretty much peacefully.
There's not much really going through my mind at the moment to be honest..just the idea of how the person [one of my uncles] found her and that she was becoming pretty weak anyway.
We're all pretty cut up about it to be honest.
At the moment her daughter/my aunt doesn't know..and she's at a wedding in Malaysia at the moment..wouldn't say it's a really good idea to let her know until a bit later.
I'm not going to put down all the facts and everything that happened on here at the moment..she was 91 and all..She was always saying how she'd be going up there or down there soon..and she has..
It's a real shame I didn't spend much time or see her much towards the end of her life.
A truly amazing person...
R.I.P and be happy now you're with your husband [who unfortunately I never met..]'up there' a.k.a in heaven 
merf..don't even know when the funeral is..argh..oh well..just have to wait..
Mood: nothing really..feeling a bit bleah..
Music: some random hairdryer next door..
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