So, I'm royally pissed off. And here's why. About a month and a half ago I took in a friend into my home. He said he'd pay rent and diligently set out every day to find a job. Two days ago I wake up, his stuff is gone, he's gone, he didn't pay what he owes, and stole something from me. I want his head on a plate.
My other roommate was more or less not getting along well here and left as well but I respect his decision because he at least informed me.
It's just Travis and I again. Even if he lied to me again last night. I almost shot him. Hurt me if you truly want, but do NOT lie to me.
Upbeat note; Jade texted me. He's on the road to a healthy recovery and I can't be more grateful for it. Our fates are intertwined in the stars. And I'm very happy for it.
Jade, my little Denali, I am so happy to have known you for all these years. Words cannot express what you mean to me. Thank you for putting up with me. You give me hope when no one else does. <3 I love you. Be safe. And come visit sometime, Dammit! Mood: Okay
So, I have ten cats now. Ten cats, twenty one rats, a Tarantula, and a guinea pig lol.
I've been so stressed lately but these little bundles of fur keep me calm. Most of the time lol.
So, Jaric came back. Opened an old would. And then left. I was... Am... Devastated. But I'm not mad at him. It's fitting that he'd be the one to break me. And no, I'm not wallowing in self pity. I'm exhausted, in agony, and completely tormented. But; I'm NOT going to let that run my life. I have people that need me. Animals that need me. And I have a life to live.
Jaric, if you read this. I love you with all my heart, I truly do. But I don't need you to survive. I'm tough, I know you're counting on that to make everything okay because you still care. It's not okay. What you've done, will never be okay. And I will always torture myself over this. I will always hurt. And I will always care... And I forgive you. For everything. I know you have your reasons for leaving. And even if I never see you again. I will always cherish the memories.
Shane and I have started speaking again. Which is good. I've missed him.
Jade and I haven't talked in awhile. It's depressing. I text him, but no answer. I miss him so much. I feel like I've had my arm severed. He's a part of me. I just hope he's okay.
Travis and I are starting to get along better. He's always had a temper and has lashed out at me when he's really frustrated or stressed. I of course wouldn't tolerate it And chewed him out and so it put a bit of a strain on how close we are.
He also gave me a really bad cold that nearly killed me. I'm recovering now though, thankfully.
Hm... So that's my life in a nut shell right now. Really chaotic. I don't like this kind of chaos. >.< I'm hoping everything will get better. I miss you all and I'm so sorry for not being on as often. <3 Mood: Meh. Can't complain
I'm on a phone so I'm going to ask your forgiveness for any spelling mistakes right now.
Now, as a few of you are aware. I'm living on my own now. My own place. My own sanctuary. My cats are with me. My roommates are wonderful. And my life is finally being put back together. Of course I have my stressful moments. Gone hungry more than once. I can't afford luxuries. And at one point I almost couldn't afford rent. Awesome, right?
I've started my own in home pet shelter and rat rescue. Anybody want to adopt an animal? =p
On a more solemn note; It's been one year, Jaric. One year since you ran off and I haven't heard from you. Haven't even seen a trace of you. Anne didn't bother messaging me or telling me a fucking thing.
One year I've been left in the dark. But I'm not mad at you. I miss you more than you'll ever know. It just hurts knowing I'm not important enough to at least know the truth. I'm still waiting.
So that's my life in a nutshell right now. Mood: Exhausted Music: The voices in my head.
So, I FINALLY found a place that will let me keep my babies, and it's only 800 a month! The problem is, I need help getting enough money to pay the damage deposit too. T_T *sniff sniff* Donate? Help an adorable kitty out? Donors get free hugs. FREE. HUGS. <3
DO IT FOR THE CHILDREN!!! (My kitties) Mood: ZOMG ZOMG ZOMG
