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Assuring_Chaos's Journal
A JOURNAL!?!?! SWEET!
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OHKAY. so i feel the need to tell someone this.
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November 10, 2008, 06:32:pm
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I have the best fucking boyfriend in the whole fucking world.
Im the HAPPIEST girl alive. I can't even explain it.
I could be with this boy forever. I really could.5 months on thursday and it has felt like a week.
im so in love.
I never thought this kind of feeling was possible. I never thought it was possible to this extent.
Im going crazy.
he's so amazing.
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You don't know how lovely you are. <3
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November 08, 2008, 11:46:pm
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ever wonder if you're someone's everything?
not really.
last song played more then three times?
perfect stranger
last person to fall asleep with?
Luke
tie yourself to someone for a day, who is it?
Luke for sure 
have you ever been tied to someone?
lol no. maybe in three legged races. that would be it.
last time you were really happy?
tonight.
last food consumed?
an ass load of chocolate.
when do you want to die?
dunnoh
marriage?
for sure
did you take a nap today?
i feel asleep a few times yeah 
who got mad at you last?
couldnt tell yah!
last car you were in?
my moms
what colour is your room?
brown
where's your family?
in bed
could you use some sleep right now?
chea lol
how much pot do you smoke a day?
three o's.
ipod or mp3?
ipod.
does someone love you?
yes!<3 <3 <3
Do you like to cuddle?
i love it!
Have you ever made out against a car?
yeah lol
Have you ever kissed someone you weren't dating?
yepp
Kissed someone that had a girlfriend/boyfriend?
no!
Are you ticklish?
oh god yes
Last time you had butterflies in your stomach?
today
Would you ever shave your head to save someone you love?
yep
What's on your bedroom floor?
clothess.
How many piercings do you have?
5. four in my ears and my belly button!
Ever kissed in the rain?
yep
How's your heart lately?
fucking full to bursting. Its the happiest its ever been!
Are you a jealous person?
not usually
Any plans for tomorrow?
work. >.< then hopefully something fun.
Do you wear the hood on your hoodie?
suure
If your best friend liked your ex, what would you do?
hes got a girlfriend. i dont think thats gonna work out
Can you successfully blow up and tie a balloon?
yep!
Have you held hands with anybody in the past week?
yeah (:
Where is the person you have feelings for right now?
at home in bed by now!
Do you bump into someone’s arm if you want to hold their hand?
maybe :$
Your best friend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do?
ilovelukesooo.and hes my best friend soooo. you know.
Do you want any tattoos?
yeahh.
Wheres the weirdest place you've changed clothes?
uh. i dont know im sure theres a few.
Who was the last guy you talked to?
Luke!
Has a boy put their arm around you in the past 5 days?
yess!!
When is the last time you were in a photo-booth taking pictures with friend?
holy shit uhh. two summers ago with my mom. orrr. a long ass time ago with matt.
Do you think you have made a difference in anyone's life?
yep!
When's your birthday?
november 20!! soon!
What's the last thing you laughed at?
uhmm. THIS IS SPPARRTA
Which of your friends is the easiest to talk to?
KEnny.
Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with?
Lukee
What was the first thing you thought this morning?
its too bright in my room
What color are your eyes?
blue
Who do you hate currently?
i dunno.
Do you get the recommended eight hours of sleep a night?
yeah
------------------------------Waking Up---------------------------------
Whαt's the best thing to do in the morning when you just wαke up ?
lie there on the phone
How do you wαke up ?
alarm
Who's normαlly αwαke in the mornings with you ?
my mom
Whαt time do you get up αt on the norm ?
6:40
Do you eαt breαkfαst ? Whαt is it normαlly ?
not usually. but i bring shit to school.
Do you like the morning or night better ?
night
If you hαd α choice, would you just sleep in everydαy ?
hell yes!
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Who's locker is right next to yours ?
Lukeee!! and mathew palma
Hαve you been in α physicαl fight yet this term ?
nope!
Do you like school ?
not really
Do you ever αsk to go to the bαthroom, αnd come back twenty minutes lαter ?
nawh
Hαve you been suspended/expelled yet this yeαr ?
no
Do you know what ISS is?
no...
Whαt's your fαvorite subject?
anthro/music
Is it true thαt most people fαll αsleep in mαth clαss ?
yeah lol
Did you piss off α substitute yet this yeαr ?
i pissed off some student teacher person. i bitched out at her.
Do you like the school dαnces ?
i love semis.
How old is your school ?
pretty old!
Whαt school you go too ?
bradford high
Whαt school do you go to ?
are u serious?
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Who's your number one ?
Luke of course <3
Who do you hαng out with on the regulαr ?
Luke, Steven, KAyla.
Whαts your stαtus ?
Extremely taken. EXTREMELY.
Are you hαppy with thαt ?
More happy than Ive ever been in my whole life.
Do you miss αnyone ?
always.
Dont you think girls αre cαtty ?
che yeah xD
When someone likes you, don't you hαte it when they don't just tell you ?
sometimes.
When wαs the lαst time you went to α pαrty ?
uhhh. like two weeks ago,.
Ever been to α hockey gαme ?
ya
Hαve you snuck out of your house in the middle of the night ?
nope
When wαs the lαst time you hung out with α friend thαt moved αwαy ?
a longg time agoo.
Are you more of αn inside or outside person ?
both
So do you eαt infront of your friends ?
duh?
Hαve you ever been cαlled α slut/whore ?
yeah xD
Does αnyone hαte you for no reαson αt αll ?
always
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Are you more like your mom or your dαd ?
ehh. harsh..
Do you hαve α computer ?
wtf. thats the dumbest thing ive ever heard. HOW would i be doing this if i didnt?
How mαny times α dαy do you eαt ?
whenever im hungry.
Who wαs the lαst person in your bedroom ?
Luke.
Do you smoke in your room ?
no!
Wαit .. do you even smoke ?
naw!
Do you spend your free time sitting on your butt doing notes?
fuckyou!
Would you rαther be αt home or outside with friends ?
either or.
Do you like your pαrents ?
ya
When you're not home, who do you miss the most ?
Luke and my mom.
Are your mom αnd dαd together ?
nope/
Is your fαmily number one ?
I have a few number ones.,
Besides the αrgueing αnd such, αre you hαppy with your homelife ?
yep!
Mood: inlove.
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finish lata
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November 03, 2008, 08:10:pm
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1. What is the time today?
8:02
2. What is the date today?
monday, november 3rd, 2008.
3. What was the last beverage you drank?
Lychee juice.
4. What did or are you having for dinner tonight?
lots a good food.
5. What has the weather been like today?
meh. okay. kinda scuzzy.
6. Have you been out the house at all today?
yep!
7. Do you like the colour green?
sure
8. What colour is the nearest car to you?
uhh white.
9. Have you been to work today?
no
10. Do you like your handwriting?
depends on the day
11. How is your relationship with your parents?
good
12. Have you ever fallen asleep on a public bench?
no.
13. Which 80’s band do you like best?
whoknows.
14. Do you like slices of lemon or lime in your drinks?
yeuh!
15. When did you last have a shower?
this mawrnin.
16. Can you currently hear any birds singing?
no. which sucks becuase i love that
17. What’s the best thing about autumn?
not alot.
18. When did you last eat pizza?
not too long ago
19. Are you sick of seeing Christmas stuff in shops already?
nawh
20. Anything you're looking forward to?
Seeing Luke tomorrow1
21. Do you have anything planned for Halloween?
well, its over but i went to laurens and walked around with patty katy and lauren.
22. Is twenty two your favourite number?
no
lmfao.
24. How many sweatpants do you own?
only like 3 pairs
25. Is your bedroom clean and tidy?
eh. no..
my desk isnt
27. What colour is the nearest pair of scissors?
i dont know i dont see any
but im sure some are in here
so blue.
28. What is your favourite type of survey?
ones with lotsa questions i can have funny answers to.
29. What’s the most extreme thing you'd do for $1,000?
eat a fly.
lmfao i dont know
30. Have you ever been to Canada?
Oh..
i think so..
31. Do you enjoy running?
eh, joggings fine
32. What was the last thing you baked?
not myself
lol
im cool i know.
33. Is the heating on in your house currently?
i think so
34. Have you ever tried "Mentos" chewing gum?
lol i think so.
35. What’s the closest piece of jewelry to you, other than what you’re wearing?
do glasses count?
no...hmm nothing then
36. Do you pick up your animal's poo or just leave it when taking them for a walk?
i have a cat
i dont walk her.
37. Is there any family member you actually hate?
i dislike some.
i mean. not the family in my house
but other family
38. What are the other people in the house doing at the moment?
no clue
39. Do you do regular computer virus checks?
i thinkkkkk so.
40. Do you like looking back at old photographs?
sometimes
Did anyone break up with you in the last 5 days?
no
Are you open about your feelings or closed off?
open to certain people
Think of the person you told "I love you" last, did you mean it?
i dont know who that was.
i think jes in media
What do you think of girls sixteen and younger going on birth control?
i dont know
if you're doing the naughty, its good to have that i guess.
but you shouldnt be doing that at this age.
What happened at 9:00 am today?
i was playing music in music class
What’s the last thing somebody gave you?
uhm........i dont remember
What was the last movie you watched,and with who?
i now pronounce you chuck and larry with lauren
Does anyone like you right now?
Not to my knowledge.
so no.
Are you gonna be home alone tonight?
noo
Is it okay if you kiss people when you're single?
yeah
Could you go a day without eating?
yah
Do you know anyone that smokes pot?
lol.
how can you NOT know someone that does pot.
Who was the last person you were in the car with?
mom and paul
Would you go into public looking like you do now?
pajama pants and weird sweater
maybe just in the pajama pants
Would you kiss someone to make your bf/gf mad?
lol no
i dont think i would have anyone to randomly kiss anyway
id only do something to get back at them if they did it to me first
but then im not really better than them, am i?
Describe your mood?
confused
Do you want to go back to school?
lol. its tomorrow.
but sure, just not english
Are your nails painted?
yup 
Have you ever felt replaced?
Oh, totally.
itbites.
Should you be doing something else right now?
nah, not really
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Who is the craziest on your top friends?
lauren?
What is the last thing you got in trouble for with your parents?
uhm i dont know
How were you feeling last night?
excited/sleepy/kinda upset which is a weird combination
Who was the last person you talked to on the phone after midnight?
uhm i dont know
i talked to my mom like an hour and a half ago?
Would you ever take someone back if they cheated on you?
meh i dunno.
Are you mean?
not to peoples faces...
 ?
Are you different now than you were a year ago?
i think a little
Are you sarcastic?
sometimes
What's something that can always make you feel better?
a good laugh helps temporarily.
What are your plans for tomorrow?
school! YEEAAHH
no.
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singg me too sleep. Ill lie beside you forever.
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October 28, 2008, 11:07:pm
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93 questions people wouldn't ask.
1. Name a quote from the song you're listening to.
I got your picture.
2. When were you born?
November 20
3. Have you ever kissed someone you weren't dating?
yupyup
4. What are you seriously wearing?
CLOOTHINGg.
5. When is the last time you saw the person you like/liked?
like an hour and a half ago. and it feels like fucking forever.
6. Ever kissed anyone on your top friends?
yes!
7. Describe the last time you were injured.
who knows
8. Do you get the full 8 hours of sleep a night?
no
9. Think of all your exes. Would you take any of them back?
no sir! im more happy than ever with Mr. Luke<3 (:
10. On your "lazy days" what would you be doing?
lying on the couch.
11. Of all your friends, who would you want to be stuck in a well with?
uh. someone whos very good at getting out of wells? i dont know.
12. Most recent movie you have watched in theatres?
uhhhhh. i cant rememeberrrrer
13. Why are you writing this note?
im bored. lol.
14. Favorite toy as a child?
uhhh. I liked this little rocking horse i had! lol
15. Do you own a pair of Converse?
of course!
17. Do you eat cookie dough?
mmmmm.
18. Have you ever kicked a vending machine?
chee. lol
19. When's the last time you had gummy bears?
ike a week ago.
20. What color are your bedsheets?
uh. i dont really pay attention honestly. white and black i thinks?
21. Do people consider you smart?
some do. some dont lol
22. What temperature is it outside right now?
FUCKING ASSS COLD
23. Have you ever stayed online for a very long time waiting for someone?
yeah (: im lame like that
24. Could you live without a computer?
no!
25.Do you have an iPod?
yes!
26. What movie do you know every line to?
TNBC
27. Last time you had butterflies in your stomach?
today. hardcore.
28. Last person you hugged?
LukeE!
29. Had a long distance relationship?
yeh
30. Who was the last person you held hands with?
Luke <3
31. At what age did you start noticing the opposite gender?
who knows
32. Do you know someone who likes/loves you?
yes!
33. How do you handle a rainy day?
I bitch. lol
34. Do you tend to be aware of what is going on around you?
ya
35. Are you cold?
yeah
36. Do you have a lot to learn?
always
37. Have you ever dreamed a dream that came true?
yeah.
39. Are you a patient person?
depends.
40. Are you an impatient person?
depends/
41.Do you prefer Disney or Warner Brothers?
both fo sho!
42. When do you feel your life energy is the strongest?
around 8.
43.Are you with someone right now?
im alone in my basement,
44. Last time you took a shower?
this morning.
45. Is anyone on your bad side now?
mhm
46. What jewelry are you wearing?
earrings. belly button ring.
47. Who's your favorite singers/band?
assload
48. Next kiss?
tomorrow.
49. Do you watch Grey's Anatomy?
nawh
50. How do people spell your name?
M e l i s s a p a g e
51. Would you wear your boyfriends/girlfriends clothes?
I do!
52. Hows your life going as of right now?
fucking fantastic.
54. How's your heart?
full to bursting.
55.Last line of a song you heard?
you know ive really tried, i cant do anymore about you.
56. What are you doing tomorrow?
school.
57. Can you honestly say you're happy with who you are?
yep
58. Is it cute when a boy calls you babe?
iloveit
60. Will you keep your last name when you get married?
naw
61. Would you rather be drunk or high?
drunk
62. When is the last time you left your house?
today.
63. Look through the 2 nearest windows what do you see?
trees and my front lawn
65. Who's the last person that you felt stalked by?
i dont know :|
66. Are you worried about anyone right now?
yeah
67. Who are they?
someone
69. Do you have a dishwasher?
ya
70. Have you ever been knocked unconscious?
nawh. but ive passed out alot
71. Would you survive in prison?
no!
72. If all of your friends were going on a road trip, would you?
sure!
73. Have you ever swallowed a non-food item by mistake?
lol yeah
74. Would you cut off your little finger for $200, 000?
HAHA no.
75. Last drug you take?
ACIDDDDDD.
76. What can you not wait to do?
wake up tomorrow!
77. Do you know anyone with the same name as you?
aye
78. How many pairs of shoes do you own?
like 90million
79. Whats the last thing you ate & why?
uh uh uh . this tasty pasta. i dont even know what it is. butter and some cheese. and pepper. it htink thats all. its really goodthough
80. Are you a friendly person?
yess
81. Service of your cell phone?
VIRGIN. OOH.
82. Have you kissed anyone with a name that starts with a "C"?
uhhhhhhhhhh, noope!
83. What's the worst thing someone can do to you?
stab me and kill me.
84. What's your middle name?
Susan
85. Where is your cell phone?
dunno
86. How are you sitting?
one leg under the other ,lol.
87. What brand is your shirt right now?
bluenotes.
88. Ever been to Georgia?
noh!
89. Do you flirt a lot?
nope!
90. What do you call your parents?
MAWmmm. Dahd.
91. What irritates you most on the internet?
porn popups lol I dunno. some ofthe shit on there is nasty lol.
92. Do you watch movies with your parents?
yeh
93.What are your plans for the future?
to be successful and happy.
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tickle me pink
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October 28, 2008, 10:49:pm
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How did your first kiss go?
Pretty dece I think.
Don't you think that people that smoke are gross?
disgusting.
What type of mood are you in right now?
very content.
Have you ever gone out in public in the same clothes you've worn to bed?
baha. yeah,
What could you go for right this second?
Luke being right here. or me being there. and some ferrerro rochers.
What are your plans for the morning?
school.
Have you ever looked at gay porn?
no!
Do you think Marilyn Monroe was really all that beautiful?
sure
What have you always wanted to try?
hard labour. lol
Do you ever turn off your cellphone?
only in theatres
Where is your best friend at this exact moment?
at home.
Do you have an ceiling fan located in your room?
noope
Have you ever kissed a member of the same sex?
noo
What is the worst thing that has happened to you today?
hm. my belly button piercing hurts like a mo'fo.
What sounds are you currently hearing?
all time low.
Have you kissed anyone in the past month?
mhm!
What was the last thing that left you very angry?
who knows xD
Do you have an older and wiser friend you go to for advice?
uhh. not really.
Have you questioned any people that are in your life lately?
nope!
What was the last movie you bought and/or rented?
uhh uh uh . zohan? shit movie.
Do you know how to change the oil in your car?
yep
What was the last thing you received in the mail?
magazine
What do you think you're going to be majoring in?
something badass. that makes me rich
What is one feeling that you wish would go away right now?
nothing. im really happy.
Do you currently feel bad for any reason?
nope
What will you be doing tomorrow at 3pm?
at home. doing who knows what
What is something big and upcoming that you are excited for?
halllowween
Do you get frustrated quickly?
sure
How many hours a sleep do you need to get to be okay to work?
who knows. 6 7? i would love 13 though lol
Who was the last person you had to break up with?
HAD to break up with? jesus. I guess Mattheww clarkkeeyboy. awhh mattchew.
When are you going to fall in love?
im fucking hardcore in love right now. so right now (: it gets more intense every day.
What have you lost your respect for?
somepeople
Do you consider your mother a friend or just a parent?
both.
Do you wear any rings on your left ring finger?
sometimes.
Does it have a specific meaning?
nuh!
How do you decide if you can trust someone or not?
i trust everyone at first, if they fuck it up. i dont xD
When was the last time you gave a heartfelt apology to someone?
two weeks/threeweeksago.
What is some life changing event that you would forever change if you could?
i dont know. i think everything happens for a reason. and im happy where i am right now, so it all worked out (:
Do you think love is sometimes just a waste of time and energy?
nope.
Do you believe that truth in time tells all?
i guess
What was the last thing you thought about over and over?
luke (: and how amazing he is <3
What makes you the way you are?
my past
How do you feel about the saying "good things come to those who wait?"
i definately believe that
If you had to be named after a state, which state would you be?
UHHH. California.
If you had to be named after a city, which city would you be?
uh. whoknows
You are a porn star and your name consists of: First street you lived on, first initial of your brand of underwear, and the name of your first pet.
Queen,J,Queenie 
How many times have you imitated Spiderman or seen Spiderman imitated while drunk?
LOL like 4.
How many times have you thought that you could fly?
never. i dont do lsd thanks.
You find an exotic monkey in your backyard. Do you A) shoot it, B) feed it, C) take it to your room and spank it, D) a combination of the above, or E) all of the above in no particular order?
b
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