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Army_of_shadows's Journal
I wont change for any one,i will only change for some one
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Here
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April 20, 2008, 10:10:pm
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A tear that bleeds from our eyes
A tear that tells no lies
The broken heart lying before your feet
A broken heart that can no longer beat
So many memories with in it
So many memories of pain
Never enough time to keep what we want
To much time to feel what we do not want
Life is always a game
Never a drift in the rain
If only you could see that the sun will shine again some day
If only you could see that there are people that care
Call out there name and they will be there
Spill your mind upon there heart
Spill your tears upon there shoulders
Its what friends are for, its why we are here
Now start yelling my name so I can be the shoulder you cry on
Start telling me what your tears are yelling at me
And I shall be the ear to listen and the voice to comfort you
I will be by your side day and night
Just let me in and I will be there for you
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meh
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April 20, 2008, 10:07:pm
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The sun lies down to rest for the night
The moon rising to enjoy the breeze of the night
The stars glowing threw out the night calling your name
Sing your song
So many memories
So many tears
I could have drown within all my fears
You never let me
You never let me hit the ground
You saved me so many times
And so many times I failed you
You were so perfect for me
But yet so far away
You couldn't hold me
Or wipe away the tears that drown me within the night
Couldn't Stop me from crying your name out, threw out the night
You couldn't be there but yet you always were there
You used the word soul mate
It made me cringe
You used the word love
It made me cringe
You used them together it made me cry of happiness
It was so long that we didn't dare to fight
But yet only love each other as soul mates should
And then it all came near
I got lost within all my fears
I pushed you away more every day
The tears spreading more
The day coming sooner
The pain I caused not only me but you
You said there is no pain I have your love
Until one day
I took it away from you
I went to hide
I could hear you cry at night
And from then I could not hear the stars sing
I could not dare look at them
Instead I hid like coward from something that had so much power
I hid from it all
I got better
Lot of the fears have gone
I had to be independent in the run
Not for me but for you
I had to do it for you
I had to go away and see if it's true
See if what I felt was true
Until this day I cry
Until this day I still die inside
But it's not the same place
It's the place that beats each and every day
The place that I can not say
You can move on but I must say
I never did stop loving you
I never did stop thinking about you
I could hide
I could run each and everyday
But I could never have any one fill your place
I could never erase the memories we made
They have so much power over me
And if I was to get in a coma and wake up with out my memories
My heart would die
B/c it will never for get the day you said I love you
It will never for get the day you said you would take me to the moon
The day you said we would explore every place
It will never forget you
That's all I have to say
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life=love=death=peace
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April 20, 2008, 10:06:pm
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Most of us wander in to this world alone
Make a life upon our selves
Make a few friends here and there
Let some in
Push some out
Always a roller coaster never a drift
So many surprises
So many failures
So much pain with in such little time
You gain a love
Gain trust
Give them it all
Never want it to end
You have a feeling that you you have craved for
You have a feeling that you would die for
And then it's all gone
Taken from you like it was nothing
Taken from you and burned
Now you are alone
No one around to feel your pain
No one around to see you cry
You're once again alone in this world
All your friends have seemed to disappear
All but one the lovely blade
Shimmering in the light
As It lies before the palm of your hand
Taking in all your pain
Ripping open a new vein
A new source to bleed from
As you slice it and dice it
You call out his name
No one to hear you
No one to care
You let it all go
And now you have your peace
The pain is gone
His name is gone
The memories drowned within your blood
Your lifeless body lying where you should be
No one to care no one to hold you
You have gotten your peace now where do you go
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lost
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April 20, 2008, 10:05:pm
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I feel so lost
So many changes
So many failures
How am I to live in this life?
So many questions
So many answers
But yet only one seems to make the most sense right about now
I came in this world alone
I had so many doors but now they are all closed
There's only one left seeking my name
The hands of death is opening his heart
My faith is coming to an end
Its time to say good bye
As for those moments in life they were such shit
The moments, I don't even want to look back
The stupid smiles the familiar lies
I shall die remembering why I'm taking this life
I shall die in peace the only thing I crave for in life
This is my finale good bye
So as i lay my head down to rest
and remember all the mess that was rested upon my shoulders
I will kiss this life good bye one finale time.
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reflection
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April 20, 2008, 10:05:pm
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She ran away for so many years
To hide from the girl in the mirror
She tried so hard
But only failed
She couldn’t hide who she was
She couldn’t lie
Every time she looked in to the mirror she cried her eyes out at night
The fears of the girl eyes reflecting back at her
She could see everything she hated about her
She sliced and dices the veins on her
She couldn’t take it
She just wanted look like the girl on the magazine
She couldn’t take so she sliced and diced the veins
She couldn’t realize the girl looking back at her
She was the one pitying her
The girl in the mirror never felt pain she couldn’t watch the girl other side
Die
She could only watch the girl on the other side kill her self to look the girl on the magazine
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