Hellio people of VF. Its been a while since ive wrote to this. For a very, very long time my mind just wasn't in the right place. But I am improving.
Currently where I am in life: I graduated, I work full time, im taking driving lessons and saving for a holiday with my other half in october. I am quite excited. I will be going to Manchester, London and Paris maybe. This will be my first time out of Australia.
I am hoping soon to also join an abstract art class and start some form of exercise regime.
We shall see how that goes...
Until then, don't hesitate to talk to me. - kristy.
i woke up early this morning, hearing the sound of your name ring through the walls i've built to keep people out, the chambers my blood pumps through where the remainder of you lies. i was welcomed by the moons faded light that only just colours the room through the outlining of the window's silhouette enclosed by the blinds. it was enough to piece together where i was, to see that i had awoken from something that does not seem to match reality's picture. it was indeed all a dream. even though the mentality of me knew this throughout this dream, it was indeed all pretend, an illusion in which id kill to become true again. i had awoken holding back tears - that sickening, insistent desire that pushes me closer to where you've gone, i had awoken screaming your name inside me, perhaps even verbally and perhaps it managed to break me from what i had invisioned. it kills me to think that's all it'll ever be. i'll never see you again. and although i'll have to make do with nothing more than a cruel dream - teasing me with the cruel reality i wish i did not live in, this isn't enough. i miss seeing you in the flesh. and it annoys me that you chose to leave, the universe did not take you from us, you took yourself away. and you left us in the dark. you've left us to feed off our memories and false hoped dreams. and i hate that. i hate waking up and not seeing you there, smiling. it felt so real..
So here we are. reaching the end of september, the introduction to your so called wakening. and you're no where to be seen. september is at an end, you can wake up and join us all again. ich vermisse dich :C Ich kann nicht glauben, wie lange es her, seit du uns verlassen. Ruhe friedlich. ich hab dich liebe für immer Chris Vogt <3
"Rate me 10, give me props, comment my photos!!!!" are you all really that insecure about yourselves?? That the only way you will think you're beautiful is by telling people to give you an insignificant digit over the internet that 'determines' your level of "beauty"
seriously. get over yourselves. 1. you all edit your photos way too much. 2. you strive attention all the time but actually no one really gives a shit or knows you.
you're not going to be an internet celebrity so get over it.
do something productive with your lives like... i don't know.. Help save the environment and stop poverty! something that doesn't involve you. the world is a bigger place than the inside of your head.
but of course, all of you narrow-minded 'perfectionists' are so caught up about editing imperfections and shoving media down your throats that nothing else matters.
what sad lives you all live. if you may even call them lives.
