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The stars aren't shining as bright as they used to, since you're no longer here to lighten up the skies and a shadow looms over me every single day, God if only I could go back, thinking so much these nights...
And my thoughts drive me to pour another drink, these regrets cause me to try and connect the links of what made you suddenly decide it was time to leave, I'll admit, that I'm still finding it all too hard to believe...
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They're telling me to just let go, they're saying it's not my fault there's nothing that I could of done, and to pick myself up before I fall but I don't know how the hell to do that, when all I can do is live in the past since that's the only thing I have left of you, wish I could of made it last where are you at? All these things left unsaid that I have...
Insomnia is creeping up on me, even during day images deceive due to flash backs before my eyes and a pain I'm constantly trying to fight re-living your funeral on a daily basis, everyone bowing their heads and praying saying our good byes, along with the moment I saw you for the final time...
And my thoughts drive me to pour another drink, these regrets cause me to try and connect the links of what made you suddenly decide it was time to leave, I'll admit, that I'm still finding it all too hard to believe...
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They're telling me to just let go, they're saying it's not my fault there's nothing that I could of done, and to pick myself up before I fall but I don't know how the hell to do that, when all I can do is live in the past since that's the only thing I have left of you, wish I could of made it last where are you at? All these things left unsaid that I have...
All these things left unsaid, words always running through my head were there any signs that I could of possibly found that would of helped me to save you from yourself...
I'm thinking back to the last words that I said to you, they were so meaningless, if I had only knew I would of told you how much you truly meant to me, and I would of rushed over to your city to see you that evening Held you in my arms and begged for you not to let go God I wish I had known, God I wish I had known...
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I got this open wound and its not going away, it'll never heal completely, a pain that will never fade You now have a permanent rest spot, a final place And thats where I go, sitting in silence while I try to remember every detail of your face now you're gone, and you're not coming back, I can't seem to comprehend that now all I have are these memories of the past...
Every time I hear your name, I re-act the same way and when I speak of you, it's all past-tense, I'm about to lose my mind, I know you wouldn't of wanted me to feel this way but I can't help it, always thinking of how I'll never see you again and I've been coping with your loss, these flashbacks in my thoughts by smoking ciggarettes and drinking till I start to forget but when I wake up in the morning it's back to the same old loneliness...
I got this open wound and its not going away, it'll never heal completely, a pain that will never fade You now have a permanent rest spot, a final place And thats where I go, sitting in silence while I try to remember every detail of your face now you're gone, and you're not coming back, I can't seem to comprehend that now all I have are these memories of the past...
And at night I pray, that you'll appear in my dreams telling me that you're finally okay, that you're in a good place people are telling me that I have to let go, have to move on with my life but how the hell am I supposed to do that, without you by my side without you by my side these nights, without you for eternity I never knew the true meaning of forever, can we please start over?
I got this open wound and its not going away, it'll never heal completely, a pain that will never fade You now have a permanent rest spot, a final place And thats where I go, sitting in silence while I try to remember every detail of your face now you're gone, and you're not coming back, I can't seem to comprehend that now all I have are these memories of the past...
