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Here Goes Nothin'

030. A long hiatus.

August 28, 2012, 07:44:pm

I've been gone for a few months. Life happens, I'm afraid. I unintentionally abandoned the cult I was trying so hard to keep alive. Here's a brief explanation of what happened.

To start with, my health issues (both mental and otherwise) reared their ugly head. I had a near breakdown. I gave all of my non-vital medications (migraine pain meds and other pain meds [things that could be overdosed on]) to my husband and told him to hide them. I cried a lot. I couldn't keep my memories straight or remember things. I couldn't do much of anything at all. I almost went into an inpatient treatment center, but my doctor and I decided against it because I hadn't actually attempted suicide and I was cognizant enough not to. Things were very, very bad. But, they have gotten better.

I lost my job due to those issues as well as more physical issues. I have been diagnosed with IBS, after all other testing (as well as the colonoscopy and endoscopy) came up empty. I'm now on a medication that I have to take before every meal so what I eat doesn't cause a mad dash to the restroom 20 minutes later. It's definitely unpleasant and makes any kinds of travel or trips a nightmare. When they were still diagnosing the issue I had to miss a lot of work. I had left Comcast and was working at a new place, and the new place had no patience for someone who missed as much work as I did.

I've been battling with unemployment, as they need my doctor to fill out paperwork stating that he did in fact encourage me to leave Comcast(which he did) and it's taking him forever to get said paperwork filled out. I go tomorrow to pick it up. The first time I asked him to fill it out, I left it at his office and he thought it was for the job I just got fired from. He said he couldn't fill it out because he didn't encourage me to leave that job. I left his a second letter stating that this was about Comcast, not the job I was fired from, and he has apparently filled it out this time. Here's hoping he has it done this time. His office staff said it was done.

Two weeks ago, my family was evicted from their home and given ten days to evacuate. My Mother abandoned them and went to Texas, under the pretense that her Mother was very ill and wouldn't last much longer. So, with my fibromyalgia (which for me meand back and neck pain and fatigue) I helped for SEVEN DAYS STRAIGHT from about ten in the morning until about ten at night, on one occasion until one in the morning. I helped corral the five year old and the four year old, I helped them get rid of their two dogs (who lived their lives in crates anyway and weren't taken care of, and re hopefully going to better homes), I helped them load and unload a moving van numerous times into storage units, and packed countless boxes. It was a very difficult week and if you're familiar with the spoon theory, I'm very low on spoons. (If you're not familiar with the spoon theory, you can read it here ). My family is going to be moving back to Michigan, leaving myself and my husband in Tennessee. It's going to be interesting making a life here on my own. I mean, I know I won't be totally on my own; I have friends and chosen family here. It will be very different not having blood here though.

All in all, it's been a very difficult few months. I appreciate all of you for not giving me shit while I was gone. It has not been pleasant.

Right now, I am trying to collect myself. It's progressing slowly but steadily. This weekend I'm going to Dragon Con in Atlanta. I'm looking forward to the mini vacation and a chance to charge my batteries around other geeks like me. I've got a Lain costume from Serial Experiments Lain, and I'm working on a Roland Deschain costume from Stephen King's Dark Tower series. The Roland costume shouldn't be much of a problem. I think I'll be able to Goodwill most of it.

So anyway that's where I've been. I'm more than happy to answer any questions that may arise about where I've been, what I've been up to, and how I'm doing. I'm no longer in danger of overdosing. I'm no longer moving things for my family. All I'm doing now is prepping for Dragon*Con and trying to relax a bit. I should be able to get back to the cult I was tending before. Any and all help is appreciated. I'm also out of premium. God knows when I'll be able to restore that. I think I ran out in June, but there's been too much going on for me to be able to pay attention to anything non vital. I would love to be able to get it back to further work on my cult, but right now it's not feasible due to cash restrictions. Here's hoping something comes through soon.
Mood: Exhausted but optomistic
Music: My husband replacing the air conditioner filters

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