So one thing that will never change about me, is my addiction to sex.
I've been having sex since I was 13...
I've been very depressed lately because I constantly get rejected by my girlfriend.
We'd be alone in my room. We talk about something... Then out of nowhere I grab her tits and make-out with her, which leads to sex but she says no.
Nobody is around, and I want to mess around.... She says no.
Don't get me wrong... She's willing to have sex with me..... But she rejects me a lot and it's not her fault, she just feels uncomfortable :P
I want to shrug it off, but I can't because it's eating me inside and my self-esteem / confidence is lowering more and more every time this happens to me (about everytime i see her which is once a week).
We've been together for a year and 2 months.
But I don't know what to do.... I can't convince her to have sex with me whenever I want her to... That's too demanding and I don't want to make her feel uncomfortable or forced... I respect her wishes but it costs me my own happiness.
I love this girl, but I hurt everyday knowing it'll only happen again...
What should I do?
Should I break up with her... But it wouldn't be fair.....
I'm stuck at the bottom :P
Mood: Depressed Music: Seisend.six - Lost in SPace