So my girlfriend and I talked about how I felt about being rejected all the time when I wanted sex at the wrong time...
We made a few agreements here and there...
e.g I agree to control myself (LOL)
e.g She'll grab me close to her when she sees I'm sad and make me feel better (vice-versa)
This past saturday's sex was GREAT!
-I apologize for the TMI
(i know this is available for anybody to read but i don't care because of how happy i am)
She's much more understanding about me than I thought..... I guess you can call me a sensitive guy... But as much as I push her away, she still manages to hold on and never let go.
What I Learned:
Trust in those you love. Don't allow your darkened thoughts to convince you to drive you away from happiness. Talking makes a difference. Don't keep it inside.
So one thing that will never change about me, is my addiction to sex.
I've been having sex since I was 13...
I've been very depressed lately because I constantly get rejected by my girlfriend.
For example:
We'd be alone in my room. We talk about something... Then out of nowhere I grab her tits and make-out with her, which leads to sex but she says no.
For example:
Nobody is around, and I want to mess around.... She says no.
Don't get me wrong... She's willing to have sex with me..... But she rejects me a lot and it's not her fault, she just feels uncomfortable :P
I want to shrug it off, but I can't because it's eating me inside and my self-esteem / confidence is lowering more and more every time this happens to me (about everytime i see her which is once a week).
We've been together for a year and 2 months.
But I don't know what to do.... I can't convince her to have sex with me whenever I want her to... That's too demanding and I don't want to make her feel uncomfortable or forced... I respect her wishes but it costs me my own happiness.
I love this girl, but I hurt everyday knowing it'll only happen again...
What should I do?
Should I break up with her... But it wouldn't be fair.....
Sigh....
I'm stuck at the bottom :P
Mood: Depressed Music: Seisend.six - Lost in SPace
