So things have been pretty crazy. I've been here in Des Moines since the 4th and so far its been a decent time. The only thing I miss about home is my access to my belongings and my easy access to score a bag of weed. Its almost never a problem for me at home. But here it seems people are on an entirely different trip, its almost stupid. Her room mates are not too bad but definitely not of normal league. But I'm sure it will grow to me in time. I won't be as active around here anymore as I used to be as I don't want to put another dime into this place and would much rather see it suffer from its lack of activity. I kind of like seeing these ego tripping douchebags relish in their would-be efforts to keep a nice and quiet little community of pretentious snot rags. At the end of the day, you may have an image, but my life is worth more money than yours in the end. I gave more than most of you, and I did so without youtube, without file sharing, without make up tutorials. I did it all on my own. I am now in bed with producers, site owners, private collectors and I get to remove your precious little deathrock torrents and videos from the internet. I take pride in forcing people to do the work I've done to obtain the things I have. It will not be too long before Only Theatre of Pain is removed from youtube and I will be so glad when that happens.
My time here is kind of a drag, I wish more could be done but I have to accept that patience has its virtues. Black Flag is soon, moving here happens soon. No more drug addict friends, no more drama queen brother and his shitty 16 year old girlfriend, no more "fake people" only coming over to get high and most importantly no more upper class snot rags trying to run me into the ground and force me to give up this life style. For over 12 years I have been active in the underground scene. No fancy make up, no fashion over passion. I will die in this scene and in 20 years you will all be making money and I will be dead. You will be the blue collar,white collar sell out motherfuckers and I will be in the grave, a son of punk as I've been over the years.
When you look around you and see the vanity you've all endowed yourselves with you will find that at the end of the day if someone talked real music with you, you'd be at a loss of words. This is what happens when an image has become your only aim. It is a sad story that the chick who spends all her money on clothes and attention who knows little of music gets all the attention while the well reseached, well studied and most informative is ignored. In the end, the true colors show. After all, look at me.
I am happy here in Des Moines and I am not looking back. Lizette and I are very happy regardless of my ups and downs. But I think she is stressing herself over me too much. If only I knew more people out here and could just leave and go somewhere when need be, things would be slightly better....I think.
I just worry how that would go between me and her. In due time the strings will become unattached and we will find ourselves. She is learning to play bass, I am investing in another guitar. We have a friend who is open to recording with us and we do not need to be vein about anything. Things will change and hoepfully we will carve our mark, our name, our glory into this dying world.
The lights are on, 1 man is home. These walls have witnessed the years I've grown.
What I felt I belonged to, preferred me to be alone.
So dormant I lay, heart turned to stone.
To apologize is futile, the mind prefers to swirl
my state of confusion, no thoughts are thorough
Round and round, the moods they swing
torment and misery, and isolation they bring
I'm almost 25, where have the years gone?
No time to think, for more moods they spawn.
Choke or blow?
These two options I have
Both hurt differently
And their outcomes are mapped
Its better than sticking around
Things just get worse and worse
So please, just take me home.
Just throw me in the hearse
Crosses and bones, I long for my new home.
To rest in the ground
with my heart turned to stone.....
Interview with Rikk Agnew (Adolescents,Christian Death) for VF
February 01, 2013, 09:18:pm
This will probably never get published. Will never get featured. Will never get anywhere. But I tried. And that is what counts. Below you will read an interview with Rikk Agnew that could have been for Vampirefreaks.
Rikk: (Responding to my proposal)
"Intensity"? Bring on the intensity, ask away... Vampirefreaks. com, eh?... I rarely do interviews;. written, .filmed.,.face.2.face...often misquoted and ridiculed, so what's the point?... No benefits are received?!
How about given?.What's the motivation?!.OK, Let's go...
Casey:
You've been productive in the punk scene since the early 80s, how would you say punk itself has changed over the years and what were your favorite moments throughout your career?
Rikk:
Actually since the late 70's with various odd little groups like:
Naughty Women (77-79) Bass/Drums-Dirty Glam/Raw Glitter Punk. Caused a major Fiasco @ The Masque: Blacklisted Immediately. An amazing (list ov xmembers)
The Mertzes (78) Vox Organ-A raw poorman's Screamers.The Legendary Robert Omlit on Lead Vocals Made a B&W Betamax Video that disappeared. The only other copy is the Master owned by the dude Who filmed Us.
The Detours (78-80/81) Drums/Guitar-predecessors to The Adolescents and D.I. Were the first to play My "punk" songs like No Way, Amoeba, Creatures, You're so Obnoxious...I moved from Drums to Lead Guitar and recruited Casey Royer.
Social Distortion (79) Bass/Bakvox-An early version with Lead Singer Tommy Corvin, Casey Royer on Drums/Bakvox, Mike on Guitar.
The Duplicators (78-79) Guitar/Bakvox- 1st band to play L.A. & Be reviewed (Slash).We did 3 shows and then Lead singer Robert Omlit broke up the band the night before what was to be Our 4th show w/ The Go-Go's in Van Nuys. The bass player was changed for every show: Mayo ov Mechanics/Weasels & PooP for the 1st show (W/ The Controllers, Middle Class), A friend named Tracy Who came along just to watch the show (Siamese records presents @ Culver City Auditorium, and the last show (W/ The Weirdos and Brothel Creepers) My Brother Frank played Bass. We had a blind biker on Drums, Troy.
Punk has mutated into a megaclusterfukk ov chaos and confusion , became completely what it set out to destroy.
A complete doppelganger ov itself. It exists in it’s truest form within the individual Who was then, is now, and
will always be. You know Who You are.
Favorite moments? Hmmm. Most ov them. Career? It’s a career? Shit.
Casey:
How did you manage to bring family members into your career and if that isn't the case what brought them into the recording studio?
Rikk:
At gunpoint. I’m much too impatient to discuss terms...I never brought family members, They just followed suit. It’s like in Our blood, Our DNA...What brought Them into the recording studio was the same as what brought Me; A demand for Our musikk-individually and collectively-to be archived on wax for anyone to acquire for listening pleasure.
Casey:
What made you want to pick up your first instrument?
Rikk:
Seeing the Beatles on The Ed Sullivan Show. 5 minutes that sealed My destiny at the age ov 5. I wanted to be a rock n roller. Dabbled with drums and guitar. Then I saw/heard the Doors and found My spirituality. I wanted to be a rebellious rocker. A year later Jimi Hendrix sealed the deal with His guitar, connecting to the Cosmic Universal Force and channeling it to this dimension as one. I wanted to be a socially rebellious - spiritually in tune with the cosmos - ...Rocker. Punk was the perfekkt vehicle to for a “career” out ov what I had become.
Casey:
What groups influenced you when you were younger?
Rikk:
Everything I’ve ever laid ears on has influenced Me in one form or another. Motown, The Four Seasons, The Beatles, Stones, Doors,Kinks,Who,Jefferson Airplane,Mamas and the Papas,Animals,alot ov the Radio Hits...HENDRIX!
Led Zeppelin, Steppenwolf,3 Dog Night,Beach Boys, Love, Turtles, Ferrante & Teichner (Movie soundtracks and title songs), Classical, Funk, Early Pink Floyd, Johnny Cash, Patsy Cline, America, Dave Clark 5, Early Santana, Jackson 5,
Black Sabbath, Deep Purple, The Monkees, Simon & Garfunkel, TV theme songs, Eddy Arnold, Andy Williams, Elton John, KISS!,Petula Clark...
Ad Infinitum !
Casey:
How did you manage to put so much determination into what you've done over the years?
Rikk:
It’s not determination as much as a necessity to survive, right up there with Oxygen, food and water. It’s a part ov Me as My eyes or brain or heart is. I have no choice in the matter.
Casey:
What do you do today?
Rikk:
My first punk band "The Detours" is back playing and recording, Solo work, A 70's Detroit-type garage/punk/rock band called "POOP", Guitar for "VOODOO CHURCH", and the reformation ov CHRISTIAN DEATH (OTOP)with EVA O. lead singing.I do paintings,
drawing, writing, and acting.
Casey:
You've been with bands like The Adolecents,an early line up of Social D,The detours,Christian Death,Poop,CD1334 and you have even done your own solo stuff. Of all the projects you've been in, are there any you keep coming back to?
(Kinda like how Rozz would come back to CD once in awhile)
Rikk:
Only if the time is right meaning that the other members (or most ov ‘em) wanna get bakk together and bust out the old tunes. Re-unions Ya know, but not for business ($$$) reasons exclusively. Money is nice to have, it can make things alot easier, but for it to be the sole basis ov putting something together, fukk that. If I’m not gonna have a good time ov it, or I am not very fond ov certain individuals I would have to be around, My time and happiness is astronomically more valuable. Other than that I prefer to move ahead, clean the slate and constantly re-invent Myself. The only people I truly do this for is Me, Myself and I.
Casey:
How did you first meet Rozz and what were your first impressions of him? Did he scare you? Were you weirded out by his appearence? Or was it the opposite?
Rikk:
They (Christian Death) was opening for Us (The Adolescents) at a boxing Gym in Pomona, Cali. (We also fenagulled A New band called Bad Religion on the bill by splitting Our set time with Them and letting Them use Our shit). I was so
fascinated and impressed by Christian Death, I talked with George and James after the show and really wanted to see them again (or maybe do “something” with Them), 2 weeks later I’m booted from the Adolescents and the rest is Goth history I guess. h Yeah, First Rozz encounter. It was in the Men’s room @ the Pomona gig before They went on...Ha, ha ha...sorry ! No homo-erotic spontaneous deviance. He was fixing His hair in the mirror, I was taking a piss. We both turned and looked at each other with shy smiles. I knew immediately I was in the presence ov someone very unique, powerful, SPECIAL-A Fellow Shaman. I knew I had to hook up Him, We could make some real fukkin musikkal magikk together.
Casey:When Rozz passed, how did it effect you and the others?
Rikk: Well, like losing a good friend/comrade/family member, I would dare 2 say collectively. On a personal level I was pissed, sad...still am.It didn't surprise Me, most Shamen and legends go when they "Peak", onto the next... But Y'know, as FLIPPER sez "Shed no tears for the suicide, He has made His choice.."-R~
Casey:
I hope you guys put up some good work with what you are doing. And Im sorry I'm polluting your inbox.
I watched Iconoligia and I must say it was an outstanding performance. Did you guys ever record a studio version of "Cry Baby"?
Rikk:
When We were approached to do the one "last: reunion show, The powers that invested (Cleopatra/XXX) demanded new material be written and performed, so I pulled 4 songs outta My ass in 3 weeks for the show (We only did 3 "CRY,crybaby AND WOTEVER THE OTHER ONE rOZZ CALLEDit) Won't B using those songs now. I was smart to keep the 4th one from them. And U are not polluting My Inbox Velheim, as I told U B4, any and all questions and response is more than welcome and never taken in offense, U have every right 2 express yur feelings and ask away! Itall shows U care about something that I feel We both feel is very dear to Us and our heart/soul/minds.
Casey:
I've been told that Rozz had a habit of handing out tapes from shows in CD's early days, did that upset the band or was it a formal agreement of some sort?
(If this is intense, don't answer O_O)
Rikk:
You have a very unique sense ov intense. I don’t really remember doing this, but Hey, Why not? Musikk is to be shared and celebrated. I have been known to do many things similar to it. I’d rather give someone My Musikk than
make Them pay for it. I like to think that if They like My Musikk ( a concept I still have a hard time grasping, in a good way) that I “Give” Them. Their appreciation and enjoyment is payment alone. I have received various items and favors as well, much more personal and gratifying than $$$ (There You go with that mind in da gutter shit again!).
I know I ventured off the original question in many instances, but I tend to ramble off-road once in a blue moon...
Did I not tell you guys that I screen shot threats like this?
Now I have more first hand proof that backs up what I've said about this place in the past.
Well most people would assume that "being annoying" (simply because I'm trad goth and believe that Industrial/EBM music is not goth in any sense) is ban worthy, you have to understand that if you're going to say that there is no rules for this cult, than any and all activity is welcomed. Regardless of how you feel about the individual and the opinions he/she may carry.
If there are no rules in that cult, than I should be able to say whatever I please in that cult so long as the health and the well being of another individual is not threatened or placed in immediate danger.
These two screenshots show that a double standard was obviously met.
Argue with me all you want, say what you will, think what you will, it does not change the fact that VF staff are saying one thing and doing the other and have been for quite some time.
A fact that few people know is that Vampirefreaks/Synthtec Inc. is a company that operates on AMERICAN SOIL. So there are laws that this company has to follow.
I for one, believe that my freedom of speech is being infringed upon.
By denying me access to public forums, public chats, official places, for merely expressing nothing more than an opinion which I am allowed to do so according to the first amendment of the United States, my rights as a US citizen are being violated by immature, heavily elite, intellectually intense douche bags.
