I like most everything about life. Its sweet candies and thorny roses. I have learned how to appreciate things as they are without having to distort my own beliefs just to adapt with it's hurtful facts. it's fun to be with a crowd with diffent colors and patterns... I love to challenge my own views, a way to be better is being open minded. I am a very random person, few people can understand that. Learning has been my reason for living, to smile each day, my reason for trying to surpass my every trial. I am destined, like every one of us, to gain wisdom, to learn, and be better from the person who I once was. You who are not capable of surpassing your own limitations even for a small fraction do not deserve to live happy. We are to conquer ourselves, explore our weakness, appreciate our flaws, and strive to be better, stronger, therefore, wiser. I cannot stand a person who only speaks and whines about personal burdens with so much evidence of weak will to live and survive.
I strive to be happy, therefore, I try to possess an objective positivism that I do believe I needed to live. I do not deal and as much as possible I try not to entertain suicidal thoughts, or dying to get someone else's attention, nor trying to please someone who really is not worth pleasing. As much as I can, I try to be on the positive side, though I fully know that I can and I am capable as a human being to be blinded with small things. But I know that at the end of the day, I shall see the light and shall see through it again. I have faith in myself but not to the point of over confidence and narcissism.
I am working at night as a call center agent. I am a college student in the morning. I am taking a bachelor course in Psychology and I am in my third year. I am planning to take a mastera degree in Criminal or Abnorma Psychology. I would like to pursue a profession in Criminal Profiling.
I grow a very very long hair. It runs all the way down mid-thigh. I always keep it unbound. There is a personal reason to it and I haven't told ANYONE about it, even my family. It is a sacred thing I cannot really tell anyone, not yet. It is not about religion or some piece of s***. I have my OWN reason.
I dropped out from school and have lost my academic full scholarship in the process about 2 years ago. My views about education and learning were violated by the University and the stupid people I have came accross, that was a trial I wasn't really able to pass with flying colors, I chose the easy way out, quitting. I was faced with an adversity I cannot fathom how to eliminate.
Now, I am back to the same stupid school and I am honestly not pround with it. I cannot go to another school because I will have to go back to square one and I am not getting any younger, I do not have the time, the effor, and the money to fund another four years of college.
I love dancing. I love jazz and contemporary as well as interpretative dancing. But at this point in my life, I really do not have the leisure time to practice, thus I cannot vouch for my skills anymore.
I love to read, for now, I have refrained from reading too much, I just broke my eyeglasses and I am still saving up for my precision eyeglasses. I have an eye grade of 4.5 in my right eye and 3.5 in my left. I have photosensitivity and nightblindness. That is not confirmed yet by a physician thus, I am planning on consulting one.
I love the sky in its outstanding glory as it sends its kiss towards the heart of land through the whisphering caress of the wind. I cherish the dancing souls as they walk the surface of this land. I love to hear the music of the wind, the song of the water, the giggles of fire, and the spasms of the earth... I love the concept of the beginnning and the end as it is still the vaguest element in this sanctuary. I hunger for the rich color of one's innocent philosophy, of one's ardent dreams, of one's hidden desires. I want to taste the flavor of of love and it's bliss, of friendship and it's power, of harmony and it's beauty. I love putting to art the lines from a figure, in a sketch book the smiles of a little angel disguised in the body of a child. I long to sing songs from the soul I want to swing my body in the rhythm of human melody from the music of the instruments to the clap of thy hands. I want to believe in the magic of the unknown to mankind, to believe the power of one's imagination outside the realms of practicality and of reality. I always want to walk the earth with souls who wear the only color that they have, without the disguise of pretenses and of lies. This are all of interest to me... words may not be heard from me...would it matter? why? Is it because for many, words uttered are the basis of one's character? Well, it is also the basis of the established character's demise, of it's discoloration in the eyes of those who easily plunged in the world of unjust criticism and prejudice, in the abyss of discrimination and pride, of class and power, of greed and lust. Could there be beauty in the plain face of simplicity? Or beauty only lies in the power of materialistic articles?
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I hate life in the midst of uncertainty, of love in a cage of vengeance, of life dedicated on retribution. I like not a man fueled by greed, of souls who were enticed by power. Abhorring is a heart of pure suspicions and deceit, of a face that was the beauty of the flower but with the eyes of the black fire I fear being caged in a cell you built yourself out of darkened path or out of maligned views. Loathesome is a parade of masked intentions.
I hate LIFE WITHOUT CHANGE, life without it is boring.. Whether it is a possitive or a negative change. Nevertheless, we are learning...
Taniuchi Hideki's minamoto no hikaru theme (that is my bg sound)from one of my favorite anime.. Goth Classical Music Instrumental anime songs are cool...(JPop)
instrumentals are perfectly fine! ^^
"Love is of what we feel, infinite fire from the abyss of cold nothingness. It is an anchor from a lonely voyage. She was my sanctuary from the raging storm. I am lost and she was standing there at the end of the road, always holding my hand, for comfort, for solace, for an anchor for my sanity. We are eternally bound by blood, soul, and everything that can tie a human to another. We got no one else but each other, and our mom. Our love for each other is forged from the strongest element ever conceived and will ever be imagined. Life at it's finest, heaven at it's doom... she was always there.... my sister "
He is sometimes arrogant, insensitive, but so thoughtful and way too kind. He has all what it takes for everybody to hate and love him. Above all else he wants to pleases no one using false tactics. I like him as a friend for he stays true at all times, he never pretended otherwise than what he really is. Few are the people who has this gift and all came down in this Greek "god". We used to "talk" (well chat) for hours but all with humor, he is way too nice for a snob
I admit that this man is a crest of secrets, what i know of him might be just the tip of the iceberg. A true ladies' man he is. He is a man of his word, he is true and kind. He hungers for knowledge which in my eyes is what we all need to do. He speak what he thinks is right, of course based on sound judgement. Strong willed, determined, and ever seeking. He looks at people with his eyes and with his heart all within the realm of logic and rationality.
With him and his recent experiences, I learned to follow my heart, to seek for my freedom, to see love and embrace it with arms wide open. I am truly happy for him for he finally found the woman he has been looking for, his angel, the other half of his soul. He is always there to listen and even share his mind when he felt it necessary. A born leader and also a good follower.
Well, this woman... has a very colorful personality I had immediately appreciated. I could never say that she noticed. She is one of the few who are true in this site. Rev was the first person to introduce me to the RIGHT kind of Role Playing. I have admired her works and I have not seen someone who can equate or much more surpass her RPing prowess in my eyes. I am telling a fact and not an overestimated half-truth fuelled by something irrelevant. Many people might not understand her, many had incured her wrath and I honestly am praying I would never be one of them Rev is... realistic. And she is never never afraid to tell what she wants to tell. Most of the time, if she bitches at you, that is because you have done something erroneously wrong. She has a true spark of leadership and a keen understanding of what she does. She has a big heart, never doubt that.
I may sometimes not understand her sense of humour but that is what adds spice, right? Never knowing and only estimating. And sometimes I found that extremely hard, I even had her yell at me one time. :D I appreciate it when she corrects my errors. In a way that I would understand and truly appreciate.
I was used to call her "My Queen". And until now, I am still getting used to calling her "Essie". Essie is, well, she is nice and is very trusting. She is never afraid to say what she wants to say
I remembered the time when I was like a super noobie. She gave me a change and even recruited me to an elite cult Vampire_Elites A cult I never imagined would accept someone like me. Since then, though we never had the leisure for long chat, she still strusts me. And I am glad.
This "kid" never acted her age. I took her for 5 years older than her chronological age. She is so good when it comes to designing something. She just pokes around for a minute and a banner is born, LOL. We never had the chance to talk much. And I fell like introducing her in my profile as a tribute to my appreciation of her talents.
