I always hated describing myself. Mainly because I'm a pain in the ass to describe (and that did sound egotistical, but I'm not really that egocentric I just know myself well). I can't say I'm 'not normal' because I don't believe in normalcy. When it comes to humanity each of us are normal in our own personal reality. Everyone else, as far as we are concerned, is abnormal. Yet, in everyone else's eyes, we're the abnormal ones. Ergo, normalcy is your state of mind in your reality. Needless to say I'm a fairly complicated person. I don't have split personalities or schizophrenia or any of that. I simply have a very broad view of things. I like to look at life from every angle I possibly can and figure out which particular view I prefer. Your angle may be different from mine, and I'm not going to get pissy about it as long as you don't try to adjust my angle to suit yours.
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I've grown up in a fairly small..ok an uber small town. And I hate it. I can't remember a day that I haven't dreamed of leaving this shit hole. I don't really care where I go, just as long as the local population is large enough to actually have a starbucks (no henderson has no starbucks..I have to go to Longview for a fucking frapp!) Seeing as this small town is in Texas, its full of brainless hicks..one place that normalcy is almost reached is in hicks..They all think, talk, act, and dress alike. I'm not one for prejudices, but I honestly think the world would be a better place without hicks..who would grow our produce then? You might inquire...hillbillies people! I tend to stand out around here. There aren't many real 'freaks' that share my interests that I can converse with. I like to think of myself as a screamo song in the middle of a ho-down. Completely out of place, throwing people off, and trying to escape by any means necessary. I think you're getting the picture of how I feal about Henderson Texas and the residents therein. On a side note, I do enjoy the nature aspect of my home. I love the calm night air and the trees
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I am an empath. I always have been. Some might call it a gift, but I call it a curse most of the time. I enjoy using my 'gift' to help people, but at the same time I sometimes get more than I bargained for. I once let a rather depressed girl stay with me, and I became depressed, had a panic attack (she had just gotten kicked out and was panicking) and had to stay in bed for two and a half days. Still, I have come to terms with what I am and am learning to shield myself.
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In my short years I've discovered that life fucks you over..and over and over and over. However, there is always a light at the end of the tunnel, and in my case its probably a freight train with a fully armed nuke as its sole passenger, but hell..I can enjoy being hypnotized by the goddamned light, right?
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So, if you found me interesting, at all, add me, comment/message me and you might even try im'ing me. However, don't try to cyber with me, I don't need your help in that department thank you very much. And if you ask for nude pictures..lets just say my step dad likes to run around in his briefs and he looks like a balding gorilla that is about 12 months pregnant..Yes..my scars run deep.
The Moon
Shattering faster than the world around her
Hiding under your bed
Slightly bloodthirsty
Sweet, but still kinda evil
Random.
Not exactly human
Horrifically Romanticle
Begging for oblivion
dying to live
Shy.
A Vampire *gasp*
Niftily Spiffy
Heart Broken
Lonely
Bored.
Not Okay (I promise).
Cynical
relatively amusing to outsiders
An 'oops baby'
Weeping for the world
Complicated as hell..all 107 levels (biblical misprint)
Feeling sorry for herself and doesn't give a fuck
Viewing the world in black and white
Always Alone
Creative
A Maverick
Day Dreaming
A Bastardess
Laughing At You..Constantly
An Agnostic
Sick Of It All
Morbid
Easily Distractable
Loved
Hated
A Rampaging Whore ^^
Modest
Insanity at its Finest
Pure Evil
Singing The Sorrow...daily
Fucked Up
hair dye.
foxes.
technology.
Mountain Dew
Photography.
Chewing Gum.
Chewing Safety Pins
Toxins.
Ferrets.
Purple .
Sleeping.
Muffins.
Europe
Dragons.
Music.
Irony.
Day dreaming.
Anime
writing.
Beenies.
Scones
The irony of life
Fantasy
Biting.
Black Nail polish.
Words (especially improper nouns ^.^)
Sharp objects.
Tattoos.
Multi-colored bracelets.
Rubber bands
Hoodies
Piercings.
Guys in eyeliner
Geeks/freaks/nerds
Insanity in general.
Watching humanity.
The Nightmare Before Christmas
Snuggling.
Big Ass Boots.
The Night.
Sitting In Corners
Books
Kissing
Foreplay :]
Weeping Willows
Cartoons!
Her Friends
Sarcasm
Harlequin.
Pillows.
Overly stuffed animals.
Absinth
Music
Chinchillas
Cars
Parties
Playing in the Rain
Poetry
Looking into your Soul
Idiots
Doctors
Shitty Music
Summer.
Cowboys.
Chihuahuas .
Tone deaf idiots that try to sing
The narrow minded
Being in the middle of Nowhere.
The Religious
Rampaging whores.
Non-Rampaging Whores
Bull-Shit
Cheaters
Conformists
Country and Rap Music
People who look down on Intellect
Being Awake
Life
Being Alone.
Not being left the hell alone.
Those who use the word freak as an insult
Being called Becca
Rapists.
Mornings.
Liars.
Homophobia.
Republicans (generalization).
Tex-Mex.
Pain.
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