Hi there. I'm Sabs, actual name is Sabrina but no one's called me that in around 4 years. I'll bet my life that I'm the most problematic 16 year old you've ever come across. But I don't really talk about that much unless I know you really well. I don’t class myself as being pretty or cute or anything as I know I'm not. so it doesn’t matter what you say, I will take it as a compliment but I am really insecure about myself and have the lowest self-esteem.
I haven't had the best of luck with relationships and my longest one lasted around 11 months altogether. but I am generally a natural flirt and if I seem it, don’t think straight away that I want to get with you etc. I find it very easy to fall for people, so if you start to get scared, let me know and run for your life. I've made that mistake 3 times and every time I've had my heartbroken so I'm giving up on relationships for the time being. there have been too many short pointless relationships that always seem to be the ones that I think will last. I've hurt a lot of guys through my ways of being a girlfriend and all I can say is, and I'm not proud of it, but I am an awful girlfriend, most probably the worst you could have. and don’t worry, many of my ex's have taken pride in telling me and found it weird that I was agreeing. I'm bi and have been for a while now, but before you go asking, I'm not the type who runs around making out with and screwing every gal I see. I have had 2 girlfriends and they've been the best friends I could ever have. I don’t think I need to write much about that, but if you want to know anything more, just ask.
At the moment, I'm doing A levels in Sixth Form, which is better than I thought it would be. I'm studying I.T, Classics, General Studies and Photography. I work in the Photo Lab in Boots and I really enjoy it there, mainly due to the fact that I love photography, and the pay is good. I came across photography at random and it's become my favourite pastime. Whenever I'm in a quiet mood or need to be alone, I'll go out at night and take photos to calm me down. I'm mainly interested in music/ band photography and people photography, and I've recently been asked to do some big bands gigs, so I'm pretty psyched about that.
I don’t really get on that well with my family. but then again, who does? I don’t see any point in going into details there, so I guess I'll write a bit about my mates. I never used to be really reliant on friends, but things that have happened in the past couple of weeks have made me realise that your friends are your real family. I would never be able to cope without my mates and they know who they are and they mean the world to me. anyone who would even dream of hurting them should think again because I can be really mean and violent.
My anger is probably my biggest issue of the time. when I get mad, I get really violent and smash windows, hit doors, and basically act insane. I'm rarely like this though, but it's just the little things in life that all suddenly pile up and then just one more thing could be the icing on the cake and make me explode. so one suggestion, when I'm mad, stay away. I've caused a lot of injuries to mates and to myself but I'm starting to seek help and it's really improving me. although, I think the only problem is that I always get the feeling my counsellor is staring at my tits instead of me. strange stuff.
I have really weird habits, like for a starter, I have severe anaemia, which makes me cold all the time. so if anything, I'll be that freak living down your street who wears gloves in the summer. I have a thing about eating ice cubes, and I have done since year 6. it calms me down and as I don’t drink anything, it sort of makes up for the fact that I have no water in my body. I smoked for around 3 months then gave up, mainly because of the ban and the lack of money. but I occasionally get the urge to smoke, but I haven't done since October, so I'm happy about that. I drink quite a lot for my age, and usually end up getting drunk at around 6 in the evening and actually feeling drunk at about 3 am. I never drink excessively because the one time I did that was the worst time, so I'm not a drunken idiot…yet. I never used to be into drugs at all and saw them as pointless and stupid, but recent events in my life turned me to going down that road and I did so for about a month. I've stopped now, and I hope to never go back there again. I swear way too much for my own good, but I'm trying to cut down, so when writing this, I had to keep checking I wasn’t f'ing and blinding all the way through. and I think I've done pretty darn well.
I have a lot of profiles on the net; VF [of course], Bebo, Myspace, MSN, Facebook and Hi5. I spend a lot of my time on the net, and if I'm not here, I will either be on my roof doing photography, talking and texting on my phone, writing lyrics, playing the drums, singing, ice skating or helping my mates out as much as possible. I play the drums really badly, probably because I'm teaching myself and I sing cos I'm that cool and have nothing better to do. writing lyrics makes me really happy as it gives me a chance to convey my feelings but at the same time hide them from the world. as long as I express myself, I don’t care how I do it.
I hate attention; so I rarely talk about any problems and when I'm down or quiet, don't think I don’t like you. I used to be the loudest gal around and always bouncy and happy-go-lucky but I soon realised that life always wants to turn against you. But, I generally try to not let that get to me and be as friendly as possible.
This is just a little section that people should consider before they talk to me. I have no interest in talking to you if you haven’t considered reading anything apart from looking at my pictures and judging me that way. I also hate copied and pasted comments from guys and gals that are the same old boring 'have a 10, rate me back sometime'. be different and show that you have actually spent your time reading this and you never know, we could be best mates soon. this is for the crazy guys [and girls for that matter] that have no respect for me in any way. I do not want to do stuff with you, nor have any time of cyber sex or msn, and I most definitely do not want to see what's under your boxers like. unless, of course, you're that lucky that I start to like you.
Anyway, I've written a little too much here so I guess I will leave you all to it. feel free to comment, rate, and randomly chat about anything. I'm always interested in what people have to say. I love signs from people as they make me smile and feel special. anytime u want a sign from me, just ask and give me a day to get looking half ok. feel free to say anything you want to me, whether it be nice stuff or stuff about how 'fakely emo I am' or anything like that. your opinion is your choice. I cannot make you think and say what I want. everyone is entitled to their own opinion. I'd like to also make it clear that if you ever need someone here for you, I'm the person to go to. My phone is always on, and I always reply to every comment, inbox message, picture comment, journal comment, text, call, anything. Oh and I tend to give my number to people after talking to them after about 20 minutes, so don’t be alarmed. Just ignore me, or take it. It's your choice. . What more to say? Apart from thanks for reading this. Dear god this took me a while. Take care dude[tte]s -x-x-x-
so plz dnt worri
Family loves you because they have to, friends love you because youve earned it 
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did another shephards pie today