WELCOME

Take off your clothes and shut the door.

I don’t really except that anyone will understand me by reading this, honestly. But at least I’ll try… I’m always trying to find myself, to understand the world and people around me. I suppose I’m not very good at this.

I have done things I regret.
I have cried.
I have hated myself.
I had been broken.
I have done stupid things.

I’m stubborn. I’m mean. I’m impatient. I’m sensitive. I’m emotional. I’m vain. I’m selfish.

Sometimes I hate everyone. Sometimes I want to kill everyone around me. Sometimes I wish I was dead. Sometimes I just want to be alone. Sometimes I prefer to remain in silence. Sometimes I feel that no one cares and no one understands. Sometimes I want to delete my past. Sometimes I feel that I don’t belong here. Sometimes I want to bury myself inside a big black hole.

But sometimes I think I’ll die without my beloved ones. Sometimes I need people around me more than ever. Sometimes I can’t stop talking. Sometimes I only want to feel loved. Sometimes my memories make me smile. Sometimes I feel proud about me and the things that I’ve achieved.

I try the best for myself. I never forget my goals and dreams. And I will never let anyone make me abandon them. I hate anyone who tries to get in my way. I don’t forgive easily. I usually want revenge. I can do anything to hurt someone when I really want to. I cry easily.

But inside I’m strong.

I’ve learned to stand on my feet and respect myself and people who worth it. I really love very few people. They are everything to me. I’ll do anything for them. But I know that even If I love someone more than anyone else, I don’t and I won’t ever love anyone more than I love myself.

I know I’ll never feel free enough and I will always want more…



The men of my life: Edgar Allan Poe, H.P. Lovecraft, K. Kariwtakhs, Tim Burton, C.Baudelaire, Bradon Lee, Jim Morisson, Kurt Cobain, Sean Brennan, Andrew Eldritch...

†music†
†photoshop†
†drawing†
†dreaming†
†design†
†playing the guitar†
†sleeping all day†
†graveyards†
†candles†
†candlelight†
†the sound/smell of the rain†
†nightsky†
†clouds†
†sunrises†
†ravens†
†smoking†
†open minded people†
†black as night long hair†
†black lace†
†velvet†
†fishnets†
†crosses†
†rings†
†corsets†
†forests†
†nature†
†gothic architecture†
†bats†
†vampires†
†leather†
†handcuffs†
†biting†
†chains†
†blood†
†victorian ages†
†wicca†
†literature†
†arts†
†moonlight†
†people who love me for what I really am†
†the dark†
†cats†
†morbid stuff†
†alcohol†
†being milk-white†

†posers†
†liars & hypocrites†
†ignorance[especially when it comes from the ones I love]†
†people who judge others without knowing them†
†TV†
†animal abusing†
†facism†
†racism†
†sexism†
†being copied†
†backstabbing†
†stereotypes†
†people who think they're better than others†
†people who speak or laugh LOUD†
†narrow minded people†
†skulia-skuladika†
†people who pretend to be something they’re not†

Amorphis, Anathema, After Forever, Apocalyptica, Bauhaus, Blutengel, Bullet for my Valentine, Candlemass, Celtic Frost, Christian Death, Charon, Cradle of Filth, Dark Tranquility, Deine Lakaien, Death in June, Dead Can Dance, In Flames, Lacrimas Profundere, Deathstars, Diary of Dreams, Doors, Draconian, Empire of Temper, Emilie Autumn, Fields of the Nephilim, HIM, Inactive Messiah, Iron Maiden, Joy Division, Katatonia, Korn, Lacuna Coil, London After Midnight, Majesty, Moonspell, My Dying Bride, Murderdolls, Nick Cave, Nightfall, Nocturnal Depression, Novembre, Nightwish, NIN, Opeth, Paradise Lost, Placebo, Rob Zombie, Rotting Christ, Serj Tankian, Siouxsie, Septic Flesh, Slipknot, SOAD, Sopor Aeternus, 69 Eyes, The Birthday Massacre, The Cruxshadows, The Foreshadowing, The Cure, Sirenia, Sisters of Mercy, Theatres des Vampires, Type 0 Negative, Within Temptation, Lacrimosa, Trupes, 3ulina Spa8ia, Asimos, Panoushs, Aggelakas, Paulidhs, Diafana Krina, Ypogeia Reumata