I'm originally from Chicago and i write and make music. I'm fuckn sick of the djmb shit on Facebook i use to go on the website 10 years ago. I am gettinh into white witchcraft but my knowledge is limited to what I can do online. If their is someone willing to guide me I am willing to learn
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I've always been "into it", we all are in a way. It's a spiritual journey. My destination just might be different from others haha. As for what I chose to study and learn, that was just simple curiosity and following my instincts
I'm not so much a practioner, well not in the regular sense one would think haha...I don't weave spells or conjure or scry. My methods are very basic, I see dark energy and light energy, both at play in the world and both need balance. If one is out of whack, I use my energy and focus to correct it. It is more a natural magick approach. Everyone is capable of doing it. The only difference between that and magick users such as those who call themselves witches or magus is the absence of material physical components. It is all based on the power of the mind and ones conviction. I accept my dark nature along with my light side, but I do not feed them energy...that is important. I would suggest you look into your chakras during meditation, find out where this rage you speak of stems from and learn to control it...it seems to be the drawing force or pull these "shadows" are attracted to. Energy is like a magnet, it can pull just as strongly as push...they are drawn to you. You can turn that around and push.
you mention shadow figures that follow you...do you get the feeling they are malevolent? If so, your aura (energy) is attracting negative forces. You can study protection or warding if you wish...basically you don't even have to do "spells" if your mind is strong enough, simply use your energy to push them away. Focus your mind and visualize this as you draw on your energy. If you don't feel they are malevolent...many are simply curious or drawn to strong energies, then don't worry so much. They might even be protecting you.
First, you need to focus on perspective. The entire concept of "evil" and "good" are based on perspective. Someone might think a snarling dog is evil upon first appearance, but the dog might be frightened or protecting it's owner...that does not mean it is evil. Don't fall for the stereotypes or views of society or other people. Read some articles and books, learn some history about darkness and decide for yourself...as a Scorpio you have the willpower and drive to do so. Everyone has a dark nature and light nature, we are not meant to be one or the other...we are meant to find balance.
The ruling planet Mars reflects a strong will and independence while Pluto draws energy from the mystical planes. There is no reason to fear being "consumed" by one or the other because in fact they both balance Scorpio out quite nicely. You have the drive and willpower to attain your goals on one side and the spirituality with inspiration on the other to aspire for those goals. The key is acceptance...do not fear yourself. Above all things, the one you can count on is yourself so establish trust. Don't be afraid to take that inward journey and search inside for who you are, that is your connection. Hope this helps