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I don't really do well with writing profiles, first off. I tend to ramble and go into to much detail on things that you (whoever's reading this) probably don't really need to know. So please forgive me in advance if something doesn't quite make sense.

My name is Gabriella.

I am not a girl who doesn't have direction, and I don't lack intelligence. There's a list of things I want and goals I will achieve. By the time I die, everything on the list will be done. I want to see the world from all the angles that I possibly can, and when someone asks me if I think I lived I don't want to hesitate before I say yes. So many people don't want to explore themselves and push the boundaries, but I do. What I see and what I've seen simply aren't enough to satisfy my hunger for knowledge. I'm the kind of person who loves to learn, and takes pride in being some sort of a walking encyclopedia.

Even with that stated, there are many who still consider me rather old-fashioned. Partying, while being lots of fun, is not exactly my favorite pastime. I prefer reading, writing, painting, watching movies, sculpting, exploring City Park, singing, dancing, photography, learning how to make electronic music, the piano, and listening to music. Most of my time I spend working (as my job is from home) or studying up on random things. When in school, I'm an avid learner and student in every subject but advanced mathematics. My expanded interests include the city I live in (New Orleans) and things that go on here, like local shows and dance nights at some of the local clubs.

I also have a heavy interest in the alternative lifestyle i.e. BDSM, Body Modification, and the Goth undertow. I don't identify with any specific lifestyle under the title alternative, as my heart is akin to the dark, romantic aspects of it but I'm a steady, steady masochist. My infatuation with pain is an extension of my (semi) submissive and intellectual mindset. I believe in pushing my boundaries within a controlled space, and don't like leaving room for ambiguity in a situation.

With that being said, I have a strong mothering instinct and I am very much a Cancer. I am the stronger submissive type, only willing to transfer control if someone has earned it from me or has the power to take it. I know the things I want and while I'm unrelenting in some sense, there's a much softer flexible Gabriella to be found. Naturally, I have an affinity for cute, obnoxious, girly things, and animals. I'm the person on the side of the highway trying to coax a mother dog and her puppies into my backseat. I'm also the girl who will listen, cuddle, comfort, and protect my friends who are hurt. When people stay at my house, I'm cooking dinner or making everyone more comfortable. And those ridiculous romantic movies like the Notebook? I'll watch them right after I get done with Eraserhead and a Chris Parker collection.

Despite my soft side, it seems that people often assume me a dominate force. I assume this is because of my independence, self-worth, and ability to control a situation. Usually I am not afraid to make my opinions known, and can be very demanding of the people I surround myself with. My standards are high for the people that I love. Respect given is respect that must also be earned, and my relationships operate with a 'get what you give' mentality. I'll take the reins if other people don't want to, or are doing it poorly. This controlling trait has been weaned throughout the years, but it hasn't changed in the sense that I can and will gladly be a leader.

I don't hold the illusion that I'm better then anyone else in anyway, and try to keep in mind that 99% of my DNA is exactly the same as yours. All people have similarities, and I live with the mentality that everyone can relate to everyone else if they try. Most of humanity is exceptionally lazy, and will not make a real effort to connect with one another. I'm the kind of person who puts effort into my relationships, and honestly I care about what those close to me think. I consider it common courtesy to consider other people in my life, actions, and plans.

So drop me a comment or something. I always try to respond, and love talking with new people.

- <333 Gabriella