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blood_and_bites
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Profile: i'm an artist starving for the right words and ideas. i'm a hippie. i sing and dance the night away. i am broken. i smoke way too much. i hate people that can only see through their own eyes. i am whatever i choose to be. i've learned not to give a shit about anyone else, because they dont give a shit about you either. i don't know why i feel like writing, but i kinda do right now. i don't feel like sharing who i am, but i do feel like expressing some things that do go on in my life. my name is paige, but i prefer cassidy, my middle name. i'm just a normal girl, no different than anyone else. growing up, i had the normal, loving family. people who don't know me tend to believe that i'm just a spoiled girl dreaming for more attention. really, i don't want any attention. i just want to be the person i am becoming. about 5 or so years ago, i was at a "hippie" festival, where i just so happen to catch my dad smoking. to most, this means nothing, but to me, it ment the world. 24 years ago, my dad promised my mom he would never smoke again. seeing him smoke then, it made me realize he is nothing but a liar. and he still proves to be that today. everyday when i get home from school, friends house, or track practice, i find my father drunk on the couch. it kills me to see him. it kills me more to know that my mom knows, yet wants to pretend its not happening. what is bad though, is that my father is a mad drunk. yelling is all that my family has become. 6 months ago, i was searching my dad's dresser, and found his stash of weed. i stole it. i stole his bowl. i stole 3 bottles of vodka. i stole about $300. i know he knows that i stole everything. but he's showing me how scared of me he is, by not confessing to everything. school wasn't much better. to make it simple, i got drunk atleast once a week during first block, got high during lunch about once a month, and started failing everything. i now accept what i did with no regrets. i had hell of a lot of fun. it's my life, and i will live it how i wish. so basically, i'm a stupid kid. i smoke a pack a week, or more. i get drunk easily once a week, or 4 at most. and weed is something that i always seem to have an unlimited amount of. but i'm proud to say that as of july 2009, i decided to quit smoking, drinking, and drugs. the drugs i have yet to do, the drinking is not that much, but the smoking was kind of hard for me. but its all getting better. i limited myself down to 1 cigarette a week, and if i'm upset, 2. i have a brother. i regret the things i do for only one reason: i don't ever want him to become like me. i even keep him from listening to my music, so he can have no influences. what can i say, i'm a good older sister :P. my family is falling apart. it's sad how much it has already. and not just between my father, mother, and brother, but also with grandparest, cousins, aunts, and uncles. it's heartbreaking and fucking annoying how my family treats eachother. thats why i'm planning on leaving after highschool, and going to africa :). my dream home :). my heart belongs in africa. the biggest thing in my life, the best, the sadest, and the shortest chapter, is i am COMPLETELY in love. i met a boy a year or so ago. and i lost him. but i still love him with all my heart. i can't make it on my own cause my heart is in ohio. yeah... i just waisted like 20 minutes just now :). i suck haha Likes: & walks i have only 4 best friends. they are amazing. vanessa: she's crazy :). my party buddy. everytime i go over her house, we really party it up haha. she's my blonde half. we are complete twins, everyone only notices us when we are together. we've been best friends sice 2.5 days before kindergarden :). idk what i'd do if we ever stopped being friends haha. theja: my indian sister. i love that girl to death. she's been here to help support me in all the decisions i make, as i do for her. i have no idea what i'd do if i didn't have her. alyssaaaa: shes my apple martini :). most innocent girl i have ever met. she's also the sweetest and most kind person in the world. i'd do anything for her. cristian: even though i only met him in my freshman year, he's amazing. he's the mexican brother i never had. totally amazing, and always knows how to make me feel better. he's also extremely good at pissing the fuck out of me hahaha. but every friendship needs someone who you can hate at times hahaha?? :)     my boyfriend, alex. i've never felt so comfortable with anyone in my life. i will not say i love him, or even tell him that i like him (i just don't believe in that anymore) but i trust him with my heart and know that he won't break it. he is the first guy i really like that my friends aprove of hahaha, and the first guy that i actually listen to lol :). alex, you're always wrong <3 and i'm always right, even when we both know you are always right haha <3.  hula hooping!- you have never seen anyone hula hoop in your life if you haven't seen me haha. i know i'm good at it, and i love it. i can do any trick you can think of. its just my thing! painting- its my love and my life. one of the last few things that make me happy anymore. horses- when i'm with them, i just feel alive. i feel like i'm just as free as them. i feel like i can do anything that i want. movies- i love kevin bacon?????. i love rediculous movies. i love the stupid kid movies. favs: the brave little toaster :), the fox and the hound, across the universe, any tim burton. hugs- who doesn't like huggs?! nobody. "hippie festivals"- thats what life is all about :). Dislikes: ? people who try to hard on their apperence and nothing on their personality, or even manners. ? cocky guys. what the fuck? why do guys have to think they are the shit? that goes for some girls, too. ? p30pl3 wh0 sp3ll w1th num83rs. i really don't get it. it takes more time to do that than type normal? ? running when its so hott outside and you're about to pass out. yet, your coach is behind you, yelling at you to not stop. ? cults that when you apply, they expect you to write the name of the cult on your body for a picture, use rediculous html, and explain your whole life to them. i think it's rediculous how much people judge others these days. no one accepts people anymore just on the few words they say, or even if they aren't the prettiest. just rediculous. Favorite Music:   
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