Nothing is what it is, because everything is what it isn't. Nothing is real, everything is permitted. There is no rightnow, everything is in the past. There is no peace, serenity in my mind. There is noone better, were all equal.

My thoughs are like a sead. I have a small concept of that I'm trying to think/say. But once I plant my thoughts on paper, it grows into a huge tree. My thoughs are scattered and are nonsence to most people. Most people don't care what thoughts are bouncing around in your head, and that's why I rely on paper. Becuase when humans are unreliable, and selfish; that's where paper isn't. Paper is and will always be there for me, in a bizzarre way paper is my best friend. It listens to what I have to say and doesn't stop me to benifit it's self. The only thing in my life that I've come to realize that makes me happy is the world. It facsinates me. After beying such a pessimest my whole life, and beying a downer becuase I'm a magent for bad things to happen to me, I've found somthing good to look forward to in my life, and it isn't humans. Now, I am an opportunist which is a gifted curse; I seize every thing that comes along my way, I put way too much on my plate, to the point where I no longer have a moment to breathe. But today I had a revelation. That I am truly, madly, deeply in love. Not the temporal, false sense of security, attachment love. Not the type of love that will leave in the morning. I'm in love with the world. I'm in love with life and the right to lead it; I'm in love with life and how I choose to see it and appriciate it. The love for beauty in people. There is truth in the quote, "I'm a part of everyone I've met," (even though it applies selectively so), but tis true. I find inspiration in everyone I meet, whether they have negatively affected or enlightened me. I'm indifferent. Big smile, no regrets. I don't regret anything I do, because somehow the bad choice I made, and the good choice I made, led me to where I am today. As I sit on the very ledge of the roof top, I gaze at the world like it's the first time I've been exposed to the world. If my heart had a face, it would be smiling at the world ear to ear. It doesn't dissapoint me, it doesn't yell at me, it doesn't make me angry or lie to me. It's the most stable love I will ever have in my life, and if I never find a human beying who guenuinly cares for me, then I'll be happy with what I found.
i'm hardly ever on this site, i'm usualy on facebook and aim. ask me for it if you'd like to talk.

i have a problem with not finding anyone interesting enough to keep my attention. i'm not shallow though, so i don't know what my problem is. i think the problem is that the government and society is dumbing down people so much with music and the entertainment indistry that people are just getting hypnotized without even realizing it & it's corrupting our world. noone is themselfs anymore and it really is hard for me to speak to someone who has anything different and ineresting to say. i see the world, i feel it. i feel the trees around me, i feel the earth i feel the wind, i love it. i love everything unmaterialistic. i want to meet someone like myself. take that how you wish.