My birth name is Janean (spelled horribly wrong) and the first thing you need to know about me is that I’m weird. And I don’t need you to constantly remind me of how freakishly unusual I am every five minutes. If you can get through that part and accept me for who I am then congratulations. We might actually become good friends. The second thing you need to know if that I like asking a lot of questions. While some may consider that strange I think it is a good way to get to know people so I’m going to do it regardless of what you think.
Now, a little bit about me: I became depressed around the 5th grade when I started public school and begun to dress in black and kept to myself (I feel like I stand out too much if I wear other colors) I never really thought of myself as being “Gothic” until that point. My parents didn’t notice it so I never took medication or talked to a shrink or anything. After a while of keeping everything bottled up I tried to talk to some friends about it but they were all too busy or didn’t want to hear from me so I stopped trusting people a lot and I don’t really see the point in having friends if they are not going to support you through life and just say that you should get over your problems. If there was a pathway I could walk down to make my life better I would take it, but that’s not going to happen and the least they could have done was listen to me. I enjoy the darker things in life. I love the shadows, the night is a black canvas painted with lights, and what most people would consider unusual or obscure. I love morbid poetry and stories about vampires. I have a big heart and will try to help other people even if I get the short end of the straw. If I can make someone I care for happy then at least I know my time in this life wasn’t totally wasted. There’s a lot more that I would like to write but you probably would get tired of reading so just message me if you would like to know more.
September 13th, cookies, writing poetry, hockey, archery, gothic novels, star gazing, waking up at twilight, writing fictional stories/drawing, older men, guys with long hair, discussing sex, Norse and Greek mythology, herbology, beautiful people, being in a desert environment, wandering in the night, learning new things, being left handed, witchcraft( just an interest, I don't actually practice it), bunnies, the city where I was born, drinking blood, Davey Havok, walking through cemeteries, blasting my music, horror movies&slasher films, sleeping because my dreams are more exciting than real life...
WHEN PEOPLE ADD ME AND DON'T TALK TO ME!! When people only talk to me once then add me and don’t talk to me after that, fakes, being out in the sun, when people add me just because of my race because that doesn't necessarily mean we have something in common and I'd rather be added because someone shows interest in my personality rather than my skin color, how easily addicted I get to people, people who judge before knowing the truth about someone, when people stand over me, when people stand over me while eating, when guys ignore me because they are playing video games, people who constantly ask me for sex after I've clearly said NO, when I'm eating something and my hair gets in the way, not being able to reach the top of the refrigerator, being called emo (I do consider myself goth and even though I am very emotional there is still a big difference between the two), big fluffy hats, people who always want attention, not finding the answers I am seeking
AFI, All American Rejects, Anberlin, Apocalyptica, Asking Alexandria, At The Farewell Party, Atreyu, Augustana, Black Veil Brides, Bloodthorn, Breaking Benjamin, Bullet For My Valentine, Bush, Cage The Elephant, Chevelle, Cinema Bizarre (I don't really like their music, but I like the individual band members), Cradle of Filth, Cute Is What We Aim For, Dashboard Confessional, Deftones, Dirty Heads, Disturbed, Dragonforce, Escape The Fate, Evanescence, Fall Out Boy, Flyleaf, Forever The Sickest Kid, Godsmack, Green Day, H.I.M., Haste The Day, Hinder, Hollywood Undead, I Am Ghost, In This Moment, Incubus, Killswitch Engage, Kings Of Leon, Korn, Linkin Park, Marilyn Manson, Mayday Parade, Metallica, Mindless Self Indulgence, Muse, My Chemical Romance, Ne Obliviscaris, Nirvana, Norma Jean, Oasis, Oh Sleeper, Our Last Night, Panic! At The Disco, Paparoach, Paramore, Pearl Jam, Pennywise, Phoenix, Pierce The Veil, Puddle Of Mudd, Queens Of The Stone Age, Radiohead, Red Jumpsuit Apparatus, Rise Against, Scary Kids Scaring Kids, Secret&Whisper, Seether, Serj Tankian, Shinedown, Skillet, Slipknot, Smashing Pumpkins, Smile Empty Soul, Social Distortion, Stained, Story Of The Year, Sublime, System Of A Down, The Almost, The Cure, The Devil Wears Prada, The Killers, The Offspring, The Used, Three Days Grace, Tool, UnderOath, Voltaire, You Me And Everyone We Know