IN PAIN ,<3Andrew I feel like dying ,inside im dying ,while outside im crying ,there's no time for fighting so kill me!!im flying.
Status: im STUCK inthis NEVERENDING SUFFERING My PAIN pours down upon me like the RAIN that never stops dropping on me.
Sex: female Age: 17 Location:
California, United States
Member since: July 22, 2008 Account: Premium Member In love with:darkside_moon101
Latest Journal Entry:LOVE LOVE May 17, 2013, 12:03am
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I Hate Myself <3 "..Every weary moonlight..Ever so Clearly! I lay upon my bed pondering, when our night will be safe, for us to lay beside one another other. Every night I feel my heart and soul freezing from loneliness and bitter. I pray to my God in hopes that you are safe and sound, so that we share your joy and mine! Oh Alyssa! How I've missed ya! How I need ya! I do! Baby! I do! I ponder about you, how fewer thoughts, how your face, makes my heart race and my mind pace! Here! And there! Back! And in a square! How my soul, speaks with thee midnight wind 'Alyssa! My soul screams! Alyssa!' I am only dreaming..I am in a dream in which no one can hear me! How I beg for your love..I feel like this never ending heart beat will continue..eternally, like our love.." <3<3 <3 Andrew <3
H.I.M.Ville Valo,Music,Marijuana used for medical purposes,Grade:A:ORGANICALLY GROWN Medical Cannabis with a Thc lvl of 19.00%orhigher,Cbd's20%or more&Cbn's10%or morehttp://www.straingeniuslabs.com/strain/2374 ,Exotic Animal's(pet's),Crow's&raven's,Death,Plant's,Alchemy,Orme's,dead sea mineral's,dead sea salt's,Healing crystal's,Natural healing herb's,Alternative natural medicine's derived from the earth(nature),Greek mythology-Mythology,Chyropracter's,CLEAN ENVIROMENT'S,FRESH CLEAN ENERGY POSITIVE ENERGY GOOD ENERGY HEALING ENERGY,White Owl blunt wrap's,old black and white horror films,Movies directed by Tim Burton,Meditation,cleansing of the mind body&soul,consuming&useing only Organic Mj and prouct's NOT TESTED ON ANIMALS,vegan's/fruit bat's/,cutting myself,self harm,blood,working out,starving myself,the feeling of hunger my body stealing nutrient's from my bone's awaiting to die dying slowly naturally so no one will come to the conclusion of me cutting to death when there is no fresh wounds just bone popping starvation tis all the medical examiner will see not a suicide like it would actually be. Other things and stuff. I keep to myself, unless you become a friend and then i might tell you a little more about myself.
I dislike hazel_is_a_hazard very much Whore's,stupid slut's,Cheater's,Liar's,this world,Cigarette's,The bible,religion,negative energy,evil people,corrupted minds,heartless people,people with no soul's or people who let their soul die,selfish uncaring disrespectful people,People who don't have open mind's and judge to fast tell you your crazy just because they don't like it or understand it,meat,Cancer,Craving's,diseases,health issues,almost everyone,etc to long to write. Giving up not caring,not giving a fuck about anything or anyone the outcome what's to happen dont want to care giving up not giving a fuck so i dont have to constantly be worried about everything everyone the outcome what's soon to come i dont want to care anymore i dont want to fight through the pain this life i crave to give up please let me die___flatline__________but i wont SIGH i never give up a fight, i fall and become stronger my heart filled with hate&anger ready to kill :''''( feel more blood spill.:daydreamdeath:die am i next.
H.I.M. Evanescence&STUFFhttp://youtu.be/gJ1LCS9HoeE You dont want to know what im thinking ,what i know ,how i really feel ,what i do what im going to do.etc.
Diatomaceous earth is not good for people though, but it works great on ants. You really try to kill large spiders?? They are great in the garden, eat all kinds of insects. Our stores actually sell ladybug spores, and of course praying mantises are protected by law. Chewing tobacco also works VERY well against insects as a repellant. Companion planting of things like marigolds to repel harmful soil nematodes and plants with tiny blooms to attract parasitic wasps that kill soft-bodied insects that eat crops.
There's gotta be places where you can get magnesium into the soil where you don't have to buy something to put it in there. I wouldn't buy anything without being able to read the label, I am licensed to apply pesticides in my state, and it was like 6 questions on the exam - read the label, lol.
Oh, I forget people call some caterpillars worms, lol. There are some caterpillars that eat plants but do the plants good, because they stimulate their growth or are their pollinators. Like Monarch Butterfly caterpillars eat fennel down but the butterfly is an important pollinator, including for the fennel.