first i like me i have changed a hell of a lot in the past four-five years and i am very happy to say i like the way i am turning out yes there are a few thing i need to work on but i am getting there i like the color green its my favorite color, gyro and spam,sun tea, moon tea,white trash jewelry line, whipped cream in a can, turtles(i have one davey i got him just b4 christmas), rats(have 2),i like john 5 very much he is a very spiffy person i think, i like the O show it is very nice i dont think i could ever get tired of it, moonstone its my fav stone i think, rings and fairys i kinda like my hair too heres just some books, movies & boob tube
the best movie is the crow, salems lot, what dreams may come, anything by york (im a b-movie freak), close your eyes, monster man, then donnie darko csi, law and order svu, house, that happy tree guy bob ross spiffy guy, buffy, carebears, the 1st power rangers my favorite was the yellow one and i kind of like the the blue one the smart guy with the glasses and i did have a soft spot for the lil robot guy i just got done with a walk to remember by Nicholas sparks, then there's lotus rose he is very spiffy right now my favorite story of his is the princess and the pretty boi im going to get his book blooms of the youth he has very good poems and stories, daddy's little girl- Mary higgens clark, night of the crash-test dummies a far side collection- Gary larson, mystic sciences volume 2 -isabella, one of my favorites when i was just a wee one the secret of NiMH- i do not remember who it is by Robert something, i like books by Beverly lewis she does stories mostly about women growing up amish, all of the clan of the cave bear books i had to read one for school so i just kept on going with the story i think i do have a few chapters left in the last book after a month straight of reading them i kinda got tired of the books so i guess ill never know how it turns out for ayla

i like to draw click on to see all the lovely flaws in my drawing
12tales & the used
(some are not done;the one of myself,the used art, and the lady with with the long nails "inflight" ill switch them when im done with them)

THESE ARE MY THOUGHTS/POEMS
Something-
My whole life I aspired to be somebody, to make myself better. But because of my immaturity and stupidity, I gained that lothsome scarlet letter. Labeled a misfit and a social outcast, I thought i could make things happen, but that never did last. My whole life I wanted to do those things everyone said I couldn't, if I had known for a split second I'd end up like this, maybe I could save myself the heartache...but I wouldn't. Lableled a quitter and a reject, I thought they must be wrong, but isn't that every lost birds song. My whole life I dreamed of being special, I never knew I gave my soul to the devil. Labeled a creaton and a disgrace, I thought that maybe one day I'd find my place. My whole life I resided in the shadows, of what I don't know, left in its wake of destruction with absolutely nowhere to go. Labeled a pushover and a coward, I thought that I had learned to move outward. My whole life has been interrupted by foolish desicions and questionable reason. Labeled a leftover and a hellion, but I don't THINK...I KNOW that people change. And maybe just maybe someday I'll add up to SOMETHING....

4:22 AM Why cant i sleep-
I lie awake in this constant battle between my bodies desire to sleep and my minds desire to think deep thoughts that cause so much turmoil. I toss and turn trying to fight the demons struggling to take over my mind, I feel as if these thoughts will make me go blind. I wonder if my life could get any worse and time after time I come to the same old ending to every different story. I lie awake pondering the "what-if's" and the "why-me's, digging deeper into the insanity. I feel like I am losing the battle when all of my days and nights run together seeming not to have a period where one ends and the other begins. Sleepless for yet another night thinking maybe just maybe one day I will be alright!

Uncomfortable-
i am an angel...
an angel beaten by humanity
and broken by reality
fed upon by a maniacal beast
and left for dead to say the least
left without thought or mind
left among the human kind
to be murdered and set free
by those who've yet to see
the truth behind the lies
the world where even an angel dies

Early Morning-
I woke early one morning,
The earth lay cool and still
When suddenly a tiny bird
Perched on my window sill,
He sang a song so lovely
So carefree and so gay,
That slowly all my troubles
Began to slip away.
He sang of far off places
Of laughter and of fun,
It seemed his very trilling,
brought up the morning sun.
I stirred beneath the covers
Crept slowly out of bed,
Then gently shut the window
And crushed his stupid head.
I'm not a morning person.

!!!IM SO LOVED!!!

My Adopted Vampire Rat from Insta Goth

1. A blood-sucking ghost; a soul of a dead person superstitiously believed to come from the grave and wander about by night sucking the blood of persons asleep, thus causing their death. This superstition is now prevalent in parts of Eastern Europe, and was especially current in Hungary about the year 1730. 2. Fig.: One who lives by preying on others; an extortioner; a bloodsucker. 3. (Zoöl.) Either one of two or more species of South American blood-sucking bats belonging to the genera Desmodus and Diphylla. These bats are destitute of molar teeth, but have strong, sharp cutting incisors with which they make punctured wounds from which they suck the blood of horses, cattle, and other animals, as well as man, chiefly during sleep. They have a caecal appendage to the stomach, in which the blood with which they gorge themselves is stored. 4. (Zoöl.) Any one of several species of harmless tropical American bats of the genus Vampyrus, especially V. spectrum. These bats feed upon insects and fruit, but were formerly erroneously supposed to suck the blood of man and animals. Called also false vampire. Vampire bat (Zoöl.), a vampire, Vampyrus spectrum The persons who turn vampires are generally wizards, witches, suicides, and persons who have come to a violent end, or have been cursed by their parents or by the church. (Encyclopedia Britannica) The legend of the vampire can be traced to approximately 125 AD, where a Upir, a creature with vampire qualities, occurred in Greek mythology. The word Upir is found for the first time in written form in 1047 in a letter to a Russian prince. Upir later became vampire, and some of the early legends came from the far east. Much has been lost throughout history... Vampires are similar to man in respect that no two are alike. No two men have the same physical abilities, or the same senses of hearing or sight. This is true of vampires as well. As there are several races of man, there are also many races of vampire. Each race of vampire share similar, although not identical, abilities. Each race of vampire have different origins, unlike man. An example of one race is the Kindred, as portrayed by White Wolf. The Kindred are then further subdivided into "clans." Other examples include the Carpathian race, of which Count Dracula, or Vlad Tsepesh (or Tepes), was descended from.

i dont not like stuff i cant really think of anything so ill just put this stuff
im not a huge fan of butterflies they scare me very much i really dislike them, lazy people, dark chocolate, driving, bad words i know i say a few but its only when im really mad or just not thinking i think it makes people seem ugly but if you want to knock yourself out your life not mine, and purple grapes

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there is of course more but do you really think i can name them all

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