| Leave something unsaid long enough, it'll get under your skin. I'd assume the "About Me" section is a good space to express your pride, likes, dislikes, love, discontent, brag or boast, tell the truth, or even lie.. I don't need to say the things about me you don't want to hear, I don't even have to be honest. I can make you think anything I want to, some of you are dumb enough to believe. Bitter, insincere, even defensive. This is how I act towards people I don't know, a wonder any of you stick around. I often have too much to say once provoked. Over time I've learned to just be quiet.. leave things unsaid. A good way to cope with a trait that does nothing good for you. We each build ourselves in a fashion we see fit. I've forged many of my own memories, unwilling to let many things leave and impact on my life. I take what people tell me happened in an experience as my own. I prefer to use an alias to my own birth-given name. I like to remain subtle, quiet, an observer. On a less "mystic" side, there are many things I enjoy, and hate. The people I choose to be apart of my life, are the ones who have proven themselves to me. I don't waste my times on chances, half-ass analysis, or the like. Everything takes time, effort, and consideration, on all sides. The people in my life, my friends, I wouldn't trade the world for. As cliche as it may or may not sound, music is my life. Best form of expression I've adapted to. Listening to, writing, creating, watching, simply being apart of, all quite surreal. Having read this thus far, I'm sure you've picked up on my faults.. I write in a "broken" manner.. not sticking to one topic too long, or even being detailed. I don't have an explanation for this, it's how I've always been. Attention span, fear of letting too much out, who knows.. Having the "quiet" sense about you, leaves almost too much time to think to yourself. Even in a crowd of people, socialization everywhere you turn.. I'll conduct myself without words. I listen in, pick up on fragments on conversation as I pass, even remark or reply in my own mind. There is something to be said about everything, necessary or not. Humor, complimentary, perversion, spite, insight, or to instigate.. I have something to say about everything and everybody. I'm often found inappropriate, or causing uncomfortable situations. A pervert with a clever smile.. However, I'm often annoyed and discouraged.. I take too many things to heart, even when I know I shouldn't. Realistic or not, there is a sense of things to be taken in everywhere you look. You can find pleasure in a sunrise, a child interacting with it's family and surroundings, the scent of a meal that escapes a restaurant as you pass by, many things.. You can also find annoyance often.. Gazing into a crowd of people, singling out the ones that look happy, being confided in by someone who doesn't matter to you, a repeating DVD menu.. It's all is how a person takes it, how they associate it with theirselves. There are a seemingly infinite amount of answers to the same question, none of which are wrong. A never-ending amount of words could be said, all describing the same thing. I'm aware that not one word of this is pertinent.. I guess I just get sick of repeating myself.. Maybe to those who read profiles will skim through what has been said here. Maybe filter out some of you so I don't have to deal with your lame "talk-downs" of how I'm weird, sick, or not worth talking to. I speak when spoken to, I don't care who I talk to, and I don't mind being ignored or disowned. None of you have a relationship with me worth being discouraged over when it's gone. I guess all I ask is that you waste 5 minutes of your time to read this, even if it's only once. |
