| Let Me Escape. © [ What you don't want to know ] [ Things Said About Me ] [ My Addictions ] [ Ear Orgy ] [ My Cults ] Layout Made By Xx4GoTTeNxX | Okay, so do you really want to know about me? I'm an intelligent intellectual with a fluctuating GPA. I don't try hard enough, and I'm lazy. I need motivation and I don't have the willpower to do most things. I used to see the downside of everything but lately I have become more optimistic. I don't wear make up. I know, I know. "What?! How do you live?!" Well..Here is your answer to that. I am probably richer from the experience because I don't have to waste oodles of money to buy stuff that's supposed to enhance my looks so I can impress someone that I won't like anyway because they're with me for my looks instead of me. Does that help? I hope that answers your question. "OMG you're so pretty!" No I'm not. Okay? And even if I was, I wouldn't admit it. I'm really afraid of being conceited so I'd rather be modest. And that goes for everything, not just looks. Plus I just would not lie to myself like that. I know this is getting long, but I don't care. Brace yourselves because there is still more to come. And if you wish to waste your life away reading this, by all means -- waste your life away. I'm not the most interesting person ever. I was born and raised a Catholic and I am currently unsure. I was born and raised in a family of bigots, and through this I have become very open-minded. Any racial slurs, homophobic remarks, or anything of the sort (unless I know you and I know you're just joking around) and you will be punished severely with a personal e-whipping from yours truly. I'm all talk. I couldn't hurt a fly. And if I have I probably did it by accident. I don't like to intentionally hurt people because I have a terrible conscience and I always feel guilty if I know I've hurt someone. Heartbreak hurts and so does death. But it happens to all of us. I know it's impossible to pass over both by just saying that because I've been through both. But there is a time for all of us to move on. Don't worry about how long it takes other people to move on from the same thing, because all people cope differently. You can move on, but that doesn't mean you have to forget. I don't drink. I don't do drugs. I don't party. I've never touched the stuff in my entire life and by you saying "ZOMg. But lyk itz so much funz!!" Will only make me anticipate it even less. Because apparently you've killed off so many brain cells that you can't even type in English anymore. Besides, I already can't remember much the way it is. I do not want and/or need to have to have pictures of me doing explicit things to remind me. Yes, I am undecided about my orientation. Yes, you can hit on me. No, I will not hit on you. If you have actually managed to make it this far into my insanity, congrats. But the coaster has only hit the loop. You still have a bit to go. I don't cut or self harm. At least not anymore. I tried it. But that was a waste of my time and efforts. It wasn't the release I was looking for. I also I don't EVER fucking swear. I have gotten walked on far too much in my life. But I think I'm starting to find people that truly care about me. They want me to grow stronger and be able to fend for myself. I'm trying. I really am. But I have problems with telling people no. Because it's the guilty conscience thing again. I feel bad because "no" tends to hurt people. "No I won't go out with you." "No I can't hang out." "No I can't borrow you money." "No I can't give you a ride home." See. They hurt people. Even through all of this junk. I am a normal teenager. I have a job. I have a car. I pay for stuff with my own money. I don't get baby-fed things like a lot of rich (and poor, but mainly rich) people do. I try not to complain, but I know that I do (and I secretly enjoy it). I don't like to label people but it's humanly impossible not to. I think that everyone judges people, but that's really not what matters. Because everyone judges and labels. It's more on what you do with the labels/judgments. Okay I think I'm finally done! This roller coaster has come to an end!! Congrats, you made it! Make sure you stop by the photo booth for your pictures of you drooling on your computer desk in boredom. Oh, make sure you also check out the other roller coasters and rides in this theme park (the other anchors). If you'd like to know more (I know, what more is there, right?) just message me. I have all of my messengers posted. No perverts. I won't cam with you, so don't think about it. I won't cyber with you, so don't think about it. Ciao, kiddies. Dani: (Friend from Allpoetry.com) Another besty. She's an amazing young woman who even though she doubts herself a lot, I wouldn't hesitate to put my life in her hands. She's helped me through another time filled with doctors and hospitals where no one thinks I'll make it. She never gave up on me and someday I'll return the favor to her. She's kinda like the killer rabbit in Monty Python. She's cute and adorable now, but mess with her and you're dead! She is seriosuly amazing and there aren't enough words for Kari. I love this girl with all my heart, she's a close friend so you better not hurt her or I'll come after you with my lacrosse stick and shove it up your ass, big end first and then let's not forget beating you to death, burning you alive, chopping off any external genitals, shooting you and then not feeding you for the next year! This girl means the world to me, so don't you dare hurt her! Love you Hun! Caroline: (Friend from Allpoetry.com) in RL and AP I love this girl she is my daughter her and one of my best friends in rl, she and I have seen hard tiems and good times, and should you ever touch her I will hunt you down, I would die for this girl and she is by far the sweetest person I have met, like me she is hard on herself but then who isn't, Pesi my dearest know that I love oyu and accept you for who you are and in my eyes you are never a failure Sarah: (Friend in real life) KJ ♥ She's just spiffy. Kelly: (Friend from Allpoetry.com) This girl along with addi is one of the bestest friends ill EVER have. she has saved my life so many times. its like shes my guardian angel or somthing. i love her lots.and ill never forget her as long as i live. she makes me smile daily and for that i thank her more than words could ever explain.♥ Kelsey: (Friend from VF: JustADamnRegret) This girl is freaking AWESOME. That's a great word to explain her. She is there for you whenever you need her, and guess what! She'll even offer to kill for you. :] Though I haven't known her for very long, she already treats me better than some that I have known for my whole life. She is So talk about me and you might get featured. Shit-talking is allowed. I am joined to several online writing sites, and I write for myself, as poetry is my only way I can express my emotions. If you dis my poetry, I will not care. That will just motivate me to write better. I write from my heart, and even though some of this stuff doesn't seem personal, it may have a second meaning. If I've got you hooked, check me out sometime...{Just ask for my URL} I like to bike. It helps me to relieve stress. And I can't take short bike trips, I have to go miles on end, it helps me sort through my problems. I do 30-mile bike rides on my own, all before work, just because I want to. I've biked in the rain and in the sun, on pavement and on gravel, with and without a helmet on, for leisure and to just get away. I may not be good, but I like to do it. I like to listen to music. (Look at the music part of my profile for further information on what I like to listen to). I listen because it helps me to escape daily pressures, and to just relax and forget everything. I like songs with a good beat and good lyrics. You know they're good lyrics, if they make you think over your life, or make you laugh or cry. I am not a fan of lyrics where all the singer wants to do is get down with someone, there is no meaning in this, besides they are whores. I like to go on the Internet. Even though it's so very sad to admit, I have a seperate life on the internet. I have such great friends, and I don't care what anyone says, they are the greatest thing that has ever happened to me. Some have saved my life, and some have just merely made me smile, when all I could do was frown. I'm on the computer almost all the time, and 100% of that time, I need to be talking to someone. I can share more about my life to friends on the internet, because they dont' know my past, they don't know me, they can't judge me. These people share the same interests as me, so they won't label me, or make fun of me because I'm different, because they're different too. These are my friends, even though I've never really met them. I know and love them more than some people in real life. If you ever make fun of or hurt one of my friends, whether it's emotionally or whatever else, I -will- hurt you. And that is not just my mouth talking, but my heart and fist too. Music = Life Section -#- 3 Doors Down, 30 Seconds to Mars, 50 Cent -A- Adair, Adelphi, Adema, AFI, Aiden, Alkaline Trio, Alana Grace, A Life Once Lost, All-American Rejects, Allele, All That Remains, Amber Pacific, American Hi-Fi, Anti-Flag, A Perfect Circle, Armor For Sleep, As I Lay Dying, Atreyu, Avenged Sevenfold, Avril Lavigne -B- Bad Religion, Basshunter, Bayside, The Beatles, Bedouin Soundclash, Ben Jelen, Big D & the Kids Table, Billy Talent, The Birthday Massacre, Black Eyed Peas, Bleed The Dream, Bleeding Through, Blessid Union of Souls, Blessthefall, Blinded Back, Blink 182, Blue October, Blumchen, Bon Jovi, Bosio, The Bouncing Souls, Bowling For Soup, Breaking Benjamin, The Briggs, Buck-O-Nine, Bullet For My Valentine -C- Caroline May, Cartel, Cascada, The Casualties, Chevelle, Chingy, Chiodos, Chronic Future, Ciara, City High, The Click Five, Coheed & Cambria, Cold, Counting Crows, Creed, Crossfade, Cute Is What We Aim For -D- D12, Damone, Daniel Powter, dc talk, Death Cab for Cutie, Def Leppard, Descendants, Destiny's Child, Dick Dale, Diecast, Disturbed, DJ Jazzy Jeff & Erro, The Draft, Dr. Dre, DragonForce, Drive Back, Drowning Pool, Duran Duran -E- Eagle-Eye Cherry, The Early November, Emery, Eminem, Endo, Enigma, Escape the Fate, Evaline, Evanescence, Eve 6, Eve, Everclear, Every Time I Die -F- Fabolous, Faktion, Fall Out Boy, Fastball, Fatboy Slim, Finch, First Blood, Flyleaf, The Forecast, Fort Minor, From First To Last, Frou Frou -G- Gallows, Ghosttown DJs, Gigi D'Agostino, Go Betty Go, God Forbid, Gogol Bordello, Goldfinger, Goo Goo Dolls, Greeley Estates, Green Day, Guff, Guster, Gwar, Gym Class Heroes -H- Haste The Day, Hawthorne Heights, Head Automatica, Helmet, The Higher, HIM, Hinder, Hit The Lights, Hoobastank, Hooverphonic, Horse The Band, Houston, The Human Abstract, The Hush Sound -I- I Am Ghost, In Flames, Incubus, Insane Clown Posse -J- Ja Rule, Jadakiss, James Blunt, Jay-Z, Joan Jett & The Blackhearts, Joanna, Job For A Cowboy, Johnny Cash, The Juliana Theory -K- Kaiser Chiefs, Kanye West, k.d. lang, Kelly Clarckson, Killswitch Engage, Korn, Kyo -L- Lambretta, Letter Kills, Lifehouse, Li'l Bow Wow, Li'l Jon and the Eastside Boyz, Lily Allen, Limp Bizkit, Linkin Park, Lisa Loeb, Live, Local H, Lola Ray, Lostprophets, LoveHateHero, Ludacris -M- Mad Caddies, Madina Lake, Madonna, Mae, Manu Chao, The Matches, Maxeen, Meg & Dia, Mest, Metallica, The Mighty Mighty Bosstones, MIKA, Mindless Self Indulgence, The Misfits, Moneen, Motion City Soundtrack, Mudvayne, My American Heart, My Chemical Romance, My Friend Steve -N- New Found Glory, The New Radicals, Nickelback, Nightwish, Nine Days, Nine Inch Nails, Nirvana, Norma Jean -O- October Fall, Odd Project, Olympia, Only Crime, Opiate For The Masses -P- Panic! at the Disco, Papa Roach, Paramore, Parkway Drive, Paula cole, Peaches, Phantom of the Opera, Piebald, Pinhead Gunpowder, Pink, Plain White T's, Plumb, Poison The Well, The Posies, Protest The Hero, Puddle of Mudd -Q- -R- The Red Chord, Red Hot Chili Peppers, Red Jumpsuit Aparatus, Relative Ash, Relient K, Rise Against, Rob Zombie, Rufio, RUNE, Ryan's Hope -S- Saliva, Saosin, Sarah Hudson, Scary Kids Scaring Kids, Seether, Semisonic, Senses Fail, Set Your Goals, Sevendust, Shadows Fail, Shaggy, Shawn McDonald, Sheryl Crow, Shinedown, Shiny Toy Guns, Silverstein, Simple Plan, Skee-Lo, Skye Sweetnam, Slobberbone, Smash Mouth, The Smash Up, Smoke Or Fire, Snoop Dogg, Soilwork, Soul Asylum, Soul Coughing, Staind, The Starting Line, Static-X, The Stills, Story of the Year, Strapping Young Lad, Street Dogs, Strung Out, Sublime, Sufjan Stevens, Sugar Ray, Sugarcult, Suicide Silence, Sum 41, Switched, Switchfoot, System of a Down -T- Taking Back Sunday, Terror Squad, The Toasters, This Is Hell, Three Days Grace, Thrice, Thursday, T.I., Tiger Army, Tokyo Rose, Tommy Lee, Tool, Tori Amos, Town Hall Steps, Train, Trapt, Twista -U- Underoath, Unearth, The Unseen, The Used, Useless I.D., Utada Hikaru -V- Van Halen, Vanna, VCR, The Veronicas -W- Walls of Jericho, Weezer, Whole Wheat Bread, Within Temptation -X- -Y- Yellowcard, Ying Yang Twins, Young Buck -Z- Zao, Zox If you wanna know if I like any other certain band, just ask me and I'll put them on here if I do. If you wanna know what any one of these bands sound like, I will see if I can give you a taste of their music. Quandary-of-the-Muses:  Girl-Support  |
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