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Vikktim242
O stubborn, self-willed exile from loving breast! Two gin-scented tears trickled down his nose. But it was alright, everything was all right, the struggle was finished. He had won the victory over himself. He loved BigBrother
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Profile: br>Because we are not all special so sometimes i just wanna steal organs is that strange? My name is Rainer. I play keyboard, guitar, and i compose music, and sing sometimes. I am a Nihilist i do not believe in astrology, religeon, politics, society or the forcefull moral system of the scarred and ignorant public or the fact that we have any obligation to such things. im not nice i hate everything well mostly everything. i dont like women or men as a general populis.i have no harsh things to say about drug abuse i do it you do it everyone has or will andif not substance than something else. im picky when it comes to people. i belive i dont speak the same language as most people if that confuses you than ill explain what i mean is that well language is transmitted through what a person talks about or how they live, and m i live the nastey mos people arent on the level so they dont understand what i mean. few people do and i adore them anyways i was the kid that hung with all the "wierdos" and they eve said man your fucking wierd. anyways i hate anarchists, christians, and neo-ludites. i am a supporter of Total Information Technology for the use of evil. scorch the earth with data. im generally bored or pist off all the time or i seem that way. nothing really thrills me. sex isnt sacred to me. impulse makes me gag. yes yes yes i get lonely whatever. im pesamistic. im open minded though. i like all kinds of music and shit like that. im big on art. i d like some things. im a writer. trajic and obscure things mostly.i dont really care what people talk about me. i dont get my feelings hurt. i dont fall inlove anymore. feel free to talk to me though i dont mind. i do enjoy good it sounds like im just agry but depends on the situation i mean yea im normally pist or bored but i can still have a good time whatever judge if you want but seriously if you thought anything about me like hes angry or hes just another whatever than dont talk to me. Dir En Grey and Vicious Alliance are my favorite bands no other artists has ever been able to really write about things i can 100% relate too. im sensitive despite my rage anguish and sometimes inense joy. i go through bouts of loneliness like everyone else. i dont like relationships love or the theory of which isnt worth it it either goes one way for me or it ends trajically ive only been inlove twice and i realize im only young but its just too much to deal with im focussed on other things at the moment and no one has been able to mke me change my mind about the subject. anyways if you wanna conversation than feel free to message me. and now some words on human nature........ to despair and feel pain means to be alive. boys cry and girls can be cruel. we are all flesh yet i dream of bodilessness in a sea of data. we are all fragile and we all will feel lose. dont talk to me about your feelings because most of them are useless anyways. we are all just insects in the vast universe and are own selfish desires only matter to us. i feel i think ill bleed if you cut me ill die if you poison me and ill laugh if you threaten me. i am human like everyone else we are not machines and the gothic romantic fantasies most of the people on here cunstruct are just that fantasy we are not devils or robots we are human and we are fragile............ i decided to list some aspects of my personality and my opinions on certain things Androgyny: i dont really distinguish gender in fashion or it as even something that matters i think all people are equal in all forms in the human condition is what we all have in common and yes ive heard the whole "your both alive" thing before and thats subjective Sexual Ambiguity: im not bi-sexual or gay or straight. im not really sexually attracted to anyone well i am but as far as prefrence in gender is concerended i dont have one it depends on the person, and i like people with exotic shapes and such girls with that kinda raspy voice lol anyways men or women it doesnt really matter i dont really have a preference what so ever except i will say this to the boys you guys are way to ruff sometmes Racism: is retarded all that needs to be said Sociology & Existentialism: i like these things and are big aspects of how i think about the world even though everything is meaningless because nothing ever is set in stone or anything like that im not being a "goth" kid when i say life is meaninglessit just is read Nitzche Drugs: i have no problem with drugs and yes i use them i have a long long philosophy on drugs and if youd like to hear the whole thing just message me but dont judge or your as worthless as well everyone else. anyways the short version being technically disabled with "poor impulse control" and "ADD" my impulses hormones urges are exasperated the only thing i have found to let myself think of anything else is drug use, also i have an affinity for self-destruction and or just a general lack of survival instinct, anyways i dont think of it as wrong or anything like that and i do them seldomly so i dont loose myself in it but than again who am i? anyways certain drugs are good for performance inhancement meaning energy extra concentration such as amphedamines the down side is the kafka esc change you go through all you speed freaks out there no what im talking about hence why i call them "bug heads". Sex in and of itself: i feel lately disgusted by it like its like a cancer eating away at my soul but in this desease i find some sort of salvation. like being ripped apart shedding each layer till under neath you find the spirit in all its impurities. its like dieing over and over again, the french say "le petit morte" and sometimes i think their rght in a way. everytime i experience it i always walk away feeling torn apart and made whole over and over again. like going blind def and dumb and paralyzed only to be reborn in a sense over and over again. Self abuse and mutilation: your only flesh right? well its something i guess im used to maybe like my body should be purged from my soul and my soul dipped in bleach. but maybe not im used to physical agony and such things from my injuries on my spine so pain cuts bruises burns are almost pleasurable in comparison to the pain thats cronic so its tolerable. i dont self mutilate unless im preforming. and even that is well its more for entertainment than anything. Emotions: the only thing i can say to this is "why cant i ever feel?" i know you guys know that song lol :) i mean you dont choose what you feel or who you feel for and it sucks id rather do without emotions but i have to deal with them its part of the human condition i guess...... Relationships: i only date with someone if im inlove with them. isnt that the point? why force something so longterm when you only want one thing from someone rather it be sex or affection or a hug everyone once and a while. relationships are about love right not assets well anyways thats all for now and if youve read all this and feel like talking thank you it was much appreciated :) Likes: I love zombies and movies about distopiot futures such as the matrix or the fortress.I am also obsessed with the cyber punk genre and the japanese culture(food, history but mostly the yakuza) as well as Russia and Poland and the French. i love languages and am working on learning russian and french. I love anything Steam punk and cyber punk and i make my own functional art pieces. i also make my own clothes in my own style which i call Wasteland Victorian. I also enjoy from tme to time the idea of almost drastic surgical modifications to ones own body. well here is some of the things im interested in as well enjoy :)Front line Assembly-Dead Planet: OHGR: LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL!!!!!! I like it yea yea i know dioxyde well i like them sorta AMDUSCIA!!!!! Dulce Liquido AND ONE!!!! tell me lies: Dislikes: most things, i dont really like anyone or anything im very set in my ways with what i like whats listed above is what im passionate about and my journal entries are another form of art that i do but dont think i have anything in common with anything you like cause it probably leaves a bad taste in my mouth People who hid the truth know the truth watch thisFavorite Music: Jone Jett and the BlackHearts Generation X The Distillers Blonde Billy Idol The Ramones The Clash The Sex Pistols Sid Vicious The Who Front Line Assembly Front 242 Nitzer Ebb And One Funker Vogt Feindflug Terrorfakt Tactical Sekt Suicide Commando Vicious Alliance :Wumpscut: FGFC820 Homofutura Straftanz Combichrist Laibach Skinny Puppy KMFDM Nitzer Ebb Dawn of Ashes Depeche Mode The Misfits Grendel Aesthetic Perfection Russian pop music Tumor Spawn Raunch Nine-Twelve Link 2: http://www.worlddominationtoys.com
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