To start off this area I'll talk about Andii. Andii is my Turtle :heart. The two of us have been friends for years and, although some drastic roller-coaster-surpassing bumps have gotten in the way or halted the processes, we've both apparently had feelings for each other. I'll admit I'm the clueless one in that aspect because I didn't figure that out until about a year or two ago. Now that we're trying this again I'm not planning on letting the chance slip away. So on that note, I'll explain something very important: Mess with Andii and you will be sorry. I don't care the reason, I don't care when, how or were. I will find you and get you and you'll be begging for an end to it all. Either way Andii is the best person you'll ever meet! Her greatest traits make her the cutest little thing in the whole world and her flaws make her saucy and fun. From video games to roleplaying to talking and teasing, Andii makes a boring day entertaining. She goes through spurts of being down on herself, which honestly irks me to no end, but I don't care. To me she's always been my top number one, my best friend for years and the best at being her unique self! Man there is so much to say here that I just don't know what I want to put... I'll probably rant on about Andii some more soon, but for now this will stand to be updated :heart
Queen of the Ccubis, Ccubias (also known as Jinx or Barbara) is my little ward. She's been through a lot and because of that I can't stand anyone hurting her. I'll be beside her no matter what to protect her from all the dicks and pricks (etc) that are standing around wanting to hurt her. If you're one of them than get your ass in a cage and cower because I'll get you one way or another. She's funny, imaginative, and has the funnest roleplay plots that we just get lost in. I can't wait until she comes to visit me so we can go annoy the doctors at the hospital and piss people off while we run around hanging out hopefully this summer. She's a beautiful, intelligent young woman and makes me happy to know and entertaining to hang out with. Since I can't organize my thoughts, this will be updated soon!
What can be said about my mod monkey? He's a great guy, even if he does remind me of the Pervy Sage now and then, and has yet to fail when trying to cheer me up after a bad day. He's the funniest guy around when he's acting like a dork, and makes characters nearly as evil as my own when it comes to our roleplays. He's smarter than he acts, and as crazy as he seems. Although he owes me a visit and a mask I still love talking to him and hanging out with him. Gotta update this one too!
It really is a funny world, you know. A world where we are all on an equal and dangerous playing field. Sure, people will say that someone in another country has it bad, worse even, and perhaps thats true from that stand point. I'm not talking about that though. The world is leveled in Chaos. There is no holding it, no containing it. There is only accepting it. After all, hasn't history taught us that to attempt containing it, would lead to our own utter destruction?
We don't want to admit it. We will never admit it, but we are all agents of Chaos. Our lives are fueled by the dark desires that push us forward every moment of everyday. The sinful touch, the shuttering breath, a fleeting heartbeat pulsing blood through every vein in our body in a rush of pure adrenalin. This and so much more run through the thoughts, minds, and essence of every single person or being in existence. We try to control it. We try to force our whims to good use or stop them from destroying us but we have no luck. Our lives are destroyed due to the feeble and always fleeting fight against our own chaotic souls.
Embrace the darkness. Sink into it and call out for it in the night as it caresses your form. Working with it, allowing it to control you, will bring a peaceful chaos to your life, rather than a destructive one. Choices are not forceful paths, but rather grooves for the chaos to travel. Do not block the choas or it will destroy you from the inside out.