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Latest Journal Entry: No Subject November 23, 2008, 04:09pm
Profile: I have a few friends and sometimes I see them but usually we forget each other. I'll go to the gym and then read at my house while they play videogames somewhere and I call the next day but they're all out already except I don't want to drive alone since they're out skiing in another state or another country but I would still have to drive to the airport, I wouldn't mind flying alone for now until I get used to being alone on a plane. It might be different. When I had a party during the summer, none of them came. Ok I wasn't able to do this until late that summer and most of them went away to school already but the few of them who were still around talked to me later on, saying that they had things to do or nothing to do and asked how it was. Well it might not even matter how many friends I think I have because a whole lot more kids showed up than I thought. There were plenty of people as well as plenty of beer so the only problem we had was when my brother's friend knocked into one girl which resulted in a mess along the wall by the stairs since she lost her cup in the collision and she came to me and told me what happened and even though we were all drinking by then I knew she was telling the truth so I took out my combat shovels and strapped them on so that I'll be able to pull either of them out and drive them though anyone's skull but then I realized that it wasn't such a good idea, plus these girls I didn't know might have been staring at me and I might not want to be a weirdo in my own house because people will steal things. Except they didn't. One guy even pointed that out, that someone's phone was left on the couch and at anyone else's house it would have been stolen but since people respect me they left the phone where it was. I've been to house parties where things were stolen in the end- mostly alcohol but sometimes money or fireworks or other things that people might want to steal whether they were drunk or not. I think that there are some things kids might like to steal when they are drunk but probably wouldn't had they skipped any alcohol before coming across whatever this is. Not just stealing but causing trouble by breaking things and fighting which I have been a part of drunk at other people's houses or outside or wherever I was drinking. None of this happened at my house except for a few ping pong balls being lit on fire but I had been asked if it was ok for that to be done and I said that it was so I watched Zac get his lighter out and we were on the grass and he said that nothing else would catch on fire and he was right. I did find that guy and I yelled at him and he said he was sorry and that he didn't know what happened and I yelled at my brother for inviting friends over who don't know what happened but actually I was hoping that my brother would leave for the party. He didn't, instead he hid in his room while his friends drank downstairs or outside with everyone. Not with Evan he was drunk before he got here and was making a mess with the loaf of bread he was supposed to be eating while laying on the couch. He ate one piece and then started throwing the bread at the fan in the ceiling. Once I saw this, I picked up the pieces and stuck them in his mouth because I don't like when people waste food but especially when they waste the bread I use for sandwiches. Evan didn't last much longer and spent the rest of the night puking until his dad came to pick him up. Somehow he was able to keep cool and no one at his house thought he drank that night. That not it though, people kept coming. One of the kids who came was this girl from Yorktown and I didn't really talk to her except to get money but she and her friends said they didn't have any. I didn't believe them and thought about taking a knife out and telling them to take their clothes off but I had already collected enough money to pay for the beer, plus I didn't really want to see any of them naked so I said ok and they said to talk to John, since he's the one who invited them. I did talk to John the next day or some other day and he asked if I wanted money for the girls and I said I didn't really need it and he said I could come to his house that night for a party but I didn't want to drink anymore at that time so I said maybe but I didn't go. It was mostly kids from the pool that came. We have a few staff parties a year and it's mostly the guards who come, usually close ot all of them. There are a few who rarely come but I think they've all gone out once or twice. Maybe I'm wrong but then I'm just forgetting the ones who never go out, and it doesn't matter because they stay home and probably go to sleep or something and no one really notices that they don't come so the best way to hang out with the guards is to come and do stuff and drink because everyone will think you're weird if you don't. My brother's weird. Once a few hours passed I stopped worrying about keeping the kids outside quiet so that the neighbors don't call the police. Everyone was happy to be loud without quietly getting yelled at, and I start drinking a lot. I would sneak into the basement and take out the easy drinks since I didn't like the beer I had in the coolers. Whenever someone would ask me where I got whatever drink I had, I would tell them that it was the last one from downstairs, and then finish it and get another. Once those one were gone I went to the jungle juice I had made quickly before everyone arrived. Actually I may not have even made it before anyone came, I think what happened was that I was getting the bucket ready from the garage, dumping the tools out and lining it with a garbage bag before the party started. I filled it with water and left it for a while to see whether anything leaked. This way I would be able to tell if iron filings or sawdust or anything still in the bucket would be able to get in the mix and cause problems for anyone. When epople started getting here the water was clear so I dumped that and began mixing the juice. I had gotten a pack of Kool-Aid at the store earlier that day for less than a dollar, and I spent no more than two minutes picking out the right one and buying it. When I worked at BJ's many customers would ask if they were spending the least amount anyone has ever spend at the store and I always told them no because one time there was someone who bought one card or something, I can't remember but they spent only a bit of money and I was thinking that I probably spent the lest amount at that store, atleast on that day buy I didn't ask the cashier about it because I know their job probably makes their life bad and I didn't want them to find out about my party and make their life better. Actually that's not true- I just wanted to get out of the store quick because I was excited and nervous even though for me it's the same thing. When I went to the pool to tell everyone I was shaking and people were asking me questions but I couldn't understand what they were saying so I wrote down my phone number and told them to call me or talk to Evan because I gave my phone number to him and left because I didn't want people to see me shaking but also because I wasn't working there anymore and didn't want my boss to tell me I should come back and start working again. He did tell me that later but although I came back everyday to swim and hang out and order food from the deli with everyone else, I didn't work because I'd have to wake up early and vacuum the sand in the deep end and pick up crap in the bathroom when people whose religion forbade them from using toilets crapped on the ground instead. Well maybe they weren't religios people it might have been their parents or friends or a stranger who told them not to use a toilet. Or else. I liked it better when people crapped in the pool because then we get the bleach out and skimmer which sometimes we needed a pole for and we got gloves and brushes and cones. One time I found a tree frog on a cone and Carli said it was the one that makes noise all the time at the pumphouse in the corral. At first I thought maybe the frog was stuck in the pump or in the filter water but the frog was still alive after a few weeks so there were either a lot of bugs in ther also or maybe the frog was somewhere else. Well the answer could have been both or neither or just one of them because the frog was on a cone when I found it. I put the frog in the grass not far from the pumphouse but I think the frog moved back to the filer when no one was looking. There's a dead bee in my room right now that I'm looking at and it reminds me of the big bees we had at the pool. I don't remember what they were called but there were a lot of names people called them like dragon bees or killer bees and eventhough someone said they don't attack humans they scared a lot of girls and I helped some of the guys fight them. We had some good strategies and we killed a lot of them and tried to ruin their nests so that they might leave and bother some other pool or maybe the ocean sicne it was far from our pool. I don't remember what happened in the end but it was fun going after them with the other guys. Towards the end of that party many of the kids were very drunk and some of the kids weren't because they just got here but I was drinking a lot by then and people were in the front and they were smoking or something but as long as they didn't smoke in the house I didn't really care because I don't like smoking and if people smoke I don't want them doing it in my room or something. They only smoked outside and the kids in the back gave up on beer pong because we long too many of the balls we had so they were just drinking and all these girls were inside my house somewhere upstairs. I know some of them were in my room taking pictures and they probably think I'm a loser because I have models and toys around the top shavles that were in my room when my family moved in. Two or three girls lived in theis room before me and my room is yellow and it has two closets but I only use one so my mom uses the other closet for clothes and photo albums that I never look at even though they're in my room and I look in the other closet often for shirts and other things that I won't tell you about that I used to keep in there even though my mom may have seen them and never told me that she was looking in my closet and found something that she would like me to tell her about why I have it. That and girls in the bathroom and whatever happened but some juice was spilled on the rug in there and I remember seeing one of them with some detergent or something and run upstairs and even though I was drinking a lot I knew that it wasn't such a good idea to be running around with Tide because my mom uses Tide when she washes clothes and I would use Tide when I wash clothes but I don't think that anyone has ever used Tide upstairs not even me when I used it for pictures so I followed Tide to the bathroom and saw that the girls in there were trying to clean the rug and they felt bad well atleast one of them did but the other one was just drunk and didn't feel anything but I told them that I would try to clean it later or maybe buy another one of maybe do nothing and tell my mom that it was my brother's friend and I didn't do anything. Actually I tried a few times to clean it and the red stain never came out completely although my mom said that it should but maybe because it was Kool-Aid and if it's good enough for your hair it can work on rugs because some people's hair is kind of like rugs but maybe because there was rum and vodka also mixed in that it caused more trouble for everyone. I can't remember what else happened after except for my brother's friend and I staying up later and drinking a lot more of the jungle juice and telling my brother that it's no big deal that he doesn't drink and to just have some beer but he's weird and still doesn't think it's such a good idea so he didn't but we drank more and then tried playing a game or something but I didn't want to and we decided to just keep drinking. I woke up not too late that morning or afternoon and started cleaning and took the hose out in the yard and sprayed everything off and put all the beer cans in a bag and put the ping pong balls in the house and then cleaned the house and my brother helped and when my parents came home I told them that I had a party and my mom kept asking these rediculous questions like where the candy bowl was and I said that the bowl is still downstairs, where it had been for a while and she said it wasn't and I said that she was wrong and that I'm right and that it was. Later on I had been told that it was the best staff party of the summer, and that all my friends wished they came and everyone wanted to know when the next one was but I told them that my parents never really go away and that it'll be another twenty years before I get the house alone for a night since my parents won't want to leave me alone again. I wanted to have another party this winter but too many people we away already and if I did have a party it would be when my parents were home so I could only have older kids who were actually allowed to drink alcohol which would cut my roster down to only a few people. Besides, I wouldn't want everyone coming, the kids who said no and lied and said that they were cool have to stay home because they wanted to be cool and think my party would be a bummer and although I thought that was going to happen I still went to my own party and tried to have a good party and it worked and everyone had fun. ^Typed on the spot, it took me a while to get this all out. True story. Like/Dislike Jams Judgement Likes: Dislikes: Favorite Music:
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