I AM A WALKING CLUSTERFUCK OF CONTRADICTIONS. Status: "Disobedience, in the eyes of anyone who has read history,is man's original virtue. It is through disobediencethat progress has been made,through disobedience and through rebellion.”~ Oscar Wilde
all background pictures are shot by Me.
(well... not that current one...
but i do have some photos of grizzlys that i took
but they are not as good.)
100% By me.
But thanks must be given to HTML_LOVERS and all there members.
without them this would all be a
black page with white writing...
Now normally i don't like to advertise cults, but i am making an exception for this one, because i think they could actually make a difference and help people.
This cult is for people that self harm in any way or form. That includes cutting, burning, eating disorders, alcohol, drugs, banging your head on walls, anything. You don't have to want to stop, just come for support and help. It also offers support for Mental Health-Disorders like: Depression, Borderline Personality Disorder, Bipolar Disorder, Anxiety Disorder, OCD(Obsessive Compulsive Disorder), Schizophrenia and many more.
I am probably not the best person to turn to for advice, but depending on the subject i might be of some help. so go ahead, ask for help, and if i can i will. but if not, i tell you straight up, i can't help you.
I'm Phil,Or Skittle, which ever you prefer.
I am canadian, not that it matters. Am i proud of this fact? Fuck no. It was an accident of birth. a a birth defect, and a happy accident. i both love and despise this country.
I am 26 years.
i don't want to know how old you are. i don't want to know how young your grandma is.
just give me a number and be done.
I am neither a Leader, Nor a follower. I do my own thing. The Unfortunate part is, There is no originality left in the world. yes, even with me. I coped everything i am from something, yet, nothing. I am Me, yet I am You.
wrap your puny little mind around that. Everything is a Remix
Yes. I wear fake Piercings. Cry me a river, Shit me a bridge and Get the fuck over it. It's not that i can't take the pain. I love the feel of the needle sliding through my flesh. My problem is my body has rejected every piercing i have had in my face(3). and the 2 i had in my earlobes were fine for years. it wasn't till i got my first face (middle labret) pierced in Germany, that i started having problems. The nose and lip i got back in Canada also rejected. so i guess I am going to have to stick to tattoos.
i am a LaVey Satanist. click here to learn more and when i say learn, thats all I mean. There is no conversion being done here. You believe what you want. That link only offers more info. click if you want.
I may be a dirty hypocrite, but i am honest. completely.
i have learned over life, that i am to lazy to lie.
i can't remember the lies from yesterday, and would get caught today...
so screw it.
tell the truth first off.
accept your slap in the face,
and move on.
I AM NOT goth, nor am i emo, or a metal head or anything like that. labels are for soup cans. you can label the style, but do not label me. as i said... i am Phil. i dress this way because i like it, and i started dressing this way before i even knew what a Goth was. Some times i feel Goth, others kinda punky. i am even working on a Cyber Goth outfit, dreads and all. I like the looks i get. people watch me as i walk by, and i love hearing the comments whispered to among observers. "what a freak" "someone taught him wrong" haha what morons
but you know what i really love? i love it when little children are not afraid of me. they come up to me and start asking me questions! i was sitting on the train one day and had a little 2 year old girl come up and start playing with my boots. her father told me she was obsessed with skulls! totally made my day!
these are my boots
to thoes of you who say i am lying about my boots...
Go Fuck Yourself!
i am extremely vain. so don't try to tell me i am ugly, cuz I'll know you are lying. that said, i am a dirty slob. i shower once every 2 or 3 days, i don't care about my apprentice mostly, i dress to be comfortable and to keep people away from me.
i mean you are not going to talk to someone who looks like they would enjoy finger painting with your blood more then holding a conversation. right? (OK well most people... i still get the odd "normal" person who TRIES to strike up a conversation. usually by telling me how cool i look or something about my boots.) i will talk to people i don't know, but ONLY if they start the conversation right.
talk about my clothes, style or anything about me, and you can fuck off.
i also know i am NOT photogenic. i break more cameras then then i have pictures. I'm lucky to get one picture before the cameras spontaneously combusted. *points up to the marquee* I am a walking clusterfuck of contradictions.
I have the two greatest sisters in the world! one of them is not blood relation, but i love her just the same. (i should clarify. My biological sister is a lesbian, and married my other "sister")
My bio sister has always been my Guardian angel. when i was younger, she was the one who fight my battles for me, which would explain why i don't fight. Ever. My greatest memory of her was when i was about 4 or 5. i was in a park with my GIANT stuffed dog, and some rat bastard teen came and started hassling me about dogs not being allowed in the park. (remember... it was a plush toy...) my sister, heard me crying from close to a city block away, and came running. my gawd did she ever lay a beating on this guy.. he was maybe 16? not entirely sure.
my sister....... 7
scary lady... but i love her!
i am diagnosed schizophrenic and OCD. I am one of the lucky few with my illness. I have successfully been off any meds now for almost a year, using Cognitive Behavioral Therapy instead, To great success. and no... i am not just saying that to make myself look more "goth". Schizophrenia destroyed my world a few years ago. turned it inside out, butchered, despoil, and completely dismantled. But, in a way it is my fault for getting in to the Chemical drug scene.
To anyone who claims to have a psychosis to give themselves some "cool points". your a fucking moron! i hope you actually get a psychosis so you know what its like. I have survived hell and back and I'm going to put money on the fact that you will kill yourself in the first month. (and yes. i have met people like that. it's not hard to spot the fakes when you have it yourself.)
i am not what you would call intelligent. don't have a "education" up to par with the rest of this country. I'm not stupid, just can't do math in seconds flat... among other stuff... If you want to judge me on what i know, be my guest. it's just going to make you look dumber then me in the end. People keep asking me "When are you going to school? you need to go to university to get a good job!"
Fuck off. i don't want to spend thousands of dollars to have some lunatic professor shove facts down my throat. i have been there and done that for 12 years and i am done with it. i am quite fine where i am. i can see my self being happy in 15 years. poor, but happy. that's all that matters to me. besides, if i truly wanted to make shit money as a chef, i can do work training, and challenge the apprenticeship test. I have worked at some jobs as a dishwasher, and made more money then the chefs. say what? true story. one of my good friends was once upon a time my chef (executive chef of the restaurant we worked in), and we chatted about that. i was making 13/h and when he worked his salary out, he was making 6.25/h! we worked the same hours each day, and my checks were usually a few hundred more then his. haha fucked eh? School is for tools... mostly. There are jobs out there where you do have to go to school. I personally, would not want someone operating on me who had not been to med school for at least 7 years....
i am studying Korean currently as it is my hope to live and work in South Korea for a year, and if i really love it there, move there permanently.
I was raised on hatred, not at home, but everywhere else, school, work, playground...
so I have a lot of it in me; Rotting, Festering poising me. But yet I do not let it over come me. It may be slowly killing me, but it is also what drives me. what keeps me going...
* Alcohol and hard drugs
*VEGETARIANS WHO EAT FISH! Vegan and Vegetarian are the same thing! i respect Vegans. But if you say you are Vegetarian, but you some times eat fish, or chicken. or sometimes eat a Big-Mac because you are addicted to them from forever ago. *Cock slap!* there's your fucking meat!
*People who beat women, children or animals. I believe that's a Removal of the Testicles offense. If that individual does not have testicles, some should be surgically attached, allowed to heal, then forcibly RIPPED from their bodies!
* when people have music on there profiles, and hide there music player. sometimes i am listen to my own music while i surf the net, and don't want to listen to yours. *closes their profile and never goes back*
* Drama fucking DramaDramaDrama makes me sick....
* bigots. if you hate someone because they are different from you, whether they choose it or not, you need to have your head examined... by a bullet.
*People who think so low of themselves that they have to Bully others just to make them selves feel good.
*energy drinks. they are disgusting. i will only drink them at work, when i really really need them. i would really prefer to have a cup of coffee.
* fast food makes me sick. i can only eat the Healthy alternative to fast food like Extreme Pita or Subway.
* when people don't read my profile and they message me with some dumb ass comment...
or when all they say is "hi"
come on... get my interest or i won't reply.
* Chat speak. tis a butchery of the English language.
* girls who wear too much makeup...
* boys who don't wear enough (yea.. thats me too...)
* i think it is safe to say i am the only guy (who is not compleatly gay) who is compleatly grossed out by girl on girl action.
* i can't stand all the slutty girls on this site. i can't call them women because women have dignity! PUT SOME FUCKING CLOTHES ON! if i wanted to see you naked, I'd gouge out my eyes with a rusty spoork. If you message me, and i go to your profile and i am assaulted by skanky pictures. i will ignore your comment. if i am assaulted by skanky pictures and it says somewhere in your profile "pervs leave me alone" i WILL ridicule you in one message, then Ignore anymore from you.
don't get me wrong, the female body is one of the most beautiful things in the world... unless you are flaunting it because you think you are hot shit.
no bigger turn off then someone who thinks to highly of themselves when they are no better then a cockroach.
* i hate hate hatehatehatehatehatehatehatehateHATE! the cold.
*Christmas is the worst time of the year. i mean you got all these people in the malls and on street corners ringing bells and asking for money. they are no better then those pushy panhandlers! hell in November stores are playing Christmas carols. the same songs year after year, and every couple of years someone decides to put out a Christmas album new voice SAME FUCKING SONG! The spirit of Christmas is dead! slaughtered by the chainsaw of greed at the hands of commercialism! what happened to the good old days when people would MAKE gifts because they WANTED to? nowadays all you hear is "i have to buy that for so-n-so". Stick your Christmas up your ass. Ho Ho Fucking Ho. (thanks KBW. great song!)
And on that note! i have NO respect for Mall Santas. and would LOVE to Kick one in the fucking balls! They are Lying sacks of shit, and no better then pedophiles. Sure they make the kid smile for a photo, but what does that accomplish? "Now be good Timmy, or Santa is not going to come this year" Yeah? Fuck YOU, hes not coming anyway. cunts... all of them. In fact... the ONLY part of Christmas i like is the Eggnog
* the fact that my body reject any and all metal... *LeSigh* tis only ink for me.....
* Society, Civilization.
*I HATE clowns, they are annoying, ugly and WAY TO DAMN HAPPY!
* MATCHING SOCK! dammit! have some creativity people!
* Spiders, nothing with more then 2 eyes is natural. I swear, spiders are some 1900 government genetic experiment gone horribly horribly wrong. Stupid government conspiracy... (by the way if you haven't figure out, the conspiracy thing.... it's a joke..... )
* running out of weed......... that sucks!
* judgmental people.(wtf... i am INCREDIBLY judgmental, i just don't hold it against people. i know everyone is different)
* Lots of friends.... when you surround yourself with people you risk 2 thing.
someone will stab you in the back.
someone will cause drama
yes i have a couple of people i call friends. and i would trust them with my life. but noone gets close to me anymore.
* the Human species. i would rather be Yersinia Pestis (bubonic plague bacteria), then human... but sadly, i was born in to this disgusting species. I'd like to share a revelation that I've had during my time here. It came to me when I tried to classify your species. I realized that you're not actually mammals. Every mammal on this planet instinctively develops a natural equilibrium with the surrounding environment, but you humans do not. You move to an area, and you multiply, and multiply, until every natural resource is consumed. The only way you can survive is to spread to another area. There is another organism on this planet that follows the same pattern. A virus. Human beings are a disease, a cancer of this planet, you are a plague, and we are the cure. -Agent Smith-The Matrix (must clarify. just because i don't like the human race, does not mean i won't like you "because your human" I'll let it slip just this once... and only for you.)
* Facebook. i had face book once, for about a day, was messaged by 3 people that used to beat the shit out of me in school... if i want you to be able to get a hold of me, there is VF (yea i know its the same thing) of you can call my phone. don't have my number? good... i don't want you to have it.
* liars. yes I'll admit, as a child, i was a compulsive liar, but as the years went by i realized that the truth will get you in better places, even if you have to sit in shit for awhile. i will man up and face the music, no matter the consequence.
*people who over use the word sorry.
Humanity is a lie,
Society is an illusion.
Safety is nothing more then a word.
With each breath you take,
The rope around your neck grows tighter.
With each swipe of the card,
Another piece of your soul gone.
I AM NOT HUMAN!
I am an animal.
The only difference between a
Camel, Gorilla, Rat and Human
is the first 3 don't
FUCK EVERYTHING UP!
X I Will Not Vote. X
When is a politician
Going to save my life?
I will only obey the laws of
Ethics, Morals and Gravity.
Fuck you Pig!
I will not bow down to lies
Designed to scare and shepherd
Us down a hidden path.
FUCK YOU GOD!
If it is mine,
IT IS MINE!
I will NOT pay you money,
To be able to get at my money.
I will not borrow money from you,
And pay it back at 20%.
On the subject of Money.
It is worthless.
I have a choice.
And I choose to reject Humanity, and all that is Civil and Social.
The countdown to the end of
I AM THE BEGINNING OF THE END
* Grizzly bears are my favorite animal. They are my cuddly killers <3<3<3 Don't get me wrong.. i am no Timothy Tredwell. that guy was an idiot. although i would rather be killed by a bear (or any other predator) than any human way (car, fire, old age...)
* Insects. Yumm.
* Blades (swords, axes, knives)
* Jelly Bellys... to tasty ^_^
*VF... I'm totally an addict. i show all the signs of withdrawal After just a day of no VF
* Music is love
* Photography of anything natural. (humans as tiny Subtopic sometimes alright....)
* boys in makeup
*Milk. Almond Milk and Rice Milk.
* not really a love... but i am proud of the fact that i can talk my way out of most fights. i say most because some are worth fighting. like to defend a loved one. i won't even defend myself. i will allow myself to be beaten before i raise a fist in defense of me. but fuck with someone i love and i will rip your throat out with my teeth! i do not fight fair, because i am not good at it. i will kick you in the balls then curb stomp you. as for girls. i will not raise a fist. if she is attacking a love one, i will put myself between them, and take every single hit.
i will not go down. pain is my fuel, rage is my strength.
* documentary on anything. i love to learn.
* Bill Maher, Richard Pryor (R.I.P) and George Carlin (R.I.P.). All very sexy men
John Waters is the GREATEST director ever!
*being naked. its soo freeing.
* Keven Bloody Wilson is a brilliant comic and song writer/Spoofer
*Cannibalism. While i have not experienced it myself, the idea of it strangely does not bother me. after all animals will cannibalize if it gets the chance. and yes... if i was given the chance, with out any legal repressions, i would defiantly maow down on a human leg.
* boys kissing bois
* time for another contradiction. i love Racist jokes. as long as they are nothing more then JOKES. if you are telling that joke to hurt someone. not cool. you will be slapped by me. a matter that need not be taken very seriously;
a thing, situation, or person laughed at rather than taken seriously http://dictionary.reference.com/browse/joke
* How do you make a dead baby float? 2 scoops of Vanilla ice cream and a tall glass of dead baby!
* I love blood, biting, whips, chains, handcuffs, collars, and leashes, spankings and all that sort of shit.
* Light Bondage. not that heavy tie-you-up-and-gag-you-so-i-can-beat-the-shit-out-of-you stuff. Yuck. yes i like ropes and whips and stuff, i just don't take it to the extreme
* I am terrified of heights, that is why I love em, the adrenaline rush is what I crave, but being terrified in general is awesome.
* Kawasaki and Suzuki Bikes.
* P I N K
* i am seriously obsessed with S Korea. not so much the north, there leader is a bit bat-crap crazy. but south korea! oh my. Love it. the food. Culture, Music, and the language! the Women! the Men! oh my god. sexy.
* swearing! shit piss fuck cunt cocksucker motherfucker tits fart turd and twat!
* love people for themselves, as long as they are themselves.
the thing that pisses me off in the music
world is not the bands/group/artists.
It's the fans. you get a lot of people
saying shit like "OmG Lik I TOTALLY lik
luv dis band, Birthday Massacre Is da ShiT!"
FUCK YOU! THE! THE THE THE!!!!!!!!!!!!
they didn't call them selves Birthday Massacre.
they called themselves THE BIRTHDAY MASSACRE
Get it the fuck right!
yea i know its petty and cheap
but when you see retard after retard
with the same damn mistake, it gets to you.
If i really enjoy a band or song, i can listen to it endlessly for months.
for example: the first TBM album i got,
Walking with strangers,
for about 6 months was the only CD i owned,
and it was on constantly,
and yet it is still one of my favorite albums of all time.
Not limited to:
Alien Vampires - Anthrax - Aqua
Bad Religion -Behemoth - Benny Benassi
Blood or Whiskey - Blue Oyster Cult
Cab Calloway & His Orchestra
Cannibal Corpse - Carl Philipp Emanuel Bach
Chase and Status - Chopin - Coal Chamber
Cruxshadows - Cypress Hill
Taylor Swift (thats right... i said it.
Taylor fucking Swift) - The Arrogant Worms - The Birthday Massacre
The Dead Kennedys - The Gothsicles - The Rasmus - Three Days Grace
Wolfgang Amadeus Mozart
abhor, abominate, anathematize, be disgusted with, be hostile to, be loath, be reluctant, be repelled by, be sick of, bear a grudge against, can't stand, contemn, curse, deprecate, deride, despise, detest, disapprove, disdain, disfavor, disparage, down on, execrate, feel malice to, have an aversion to, have enough of, have no use for, loathe, look down on, nauseate, not care for, object to, recoil from, scorn, shudder at, shun, spit upon, spurn. these are all words that describe my feelings to any Military, and anyone who supports said military. why would anyone in there right mind would want to have a job with so many restrictions rules and ridiculous uncomfortable clothes, waiting waiting for your time to go kill people and kill people and kill people, and possibly die yourself? Where i come from the newspaper would read "2 SERIAL MURDERS ESCAPE PRISON, GOING ON A RAMPAGE KILLING 184, BEFORE POLICE SNIPERS PUT 6 BULLETS IN ONE HEAD, AND THE OTHER GIVES UP."
and don't give me this "Canadians are Peacekeepers" bull shit cuz i am not buying it for a second. Canada is owned by USA. Canada is the 51 state of the United States of AssCrack.
Fuck America! and Fuck Canada!
and here is the best part of the military!
if you come back. if you survive.
they will fuck you somehow
Did you know: that 18 Veterans a day take there own lives as a result of PTSD(Combat fatigue, Shell shock, Call it what you will, it's all the same).
and 25% of the homeless population of both Canada and USA are Veterans.
go fuck your hat....
fucking military..... <
! W A R N I N G !
this section could creep some people out.
Reader discretion is advised.
(Tara and Rae, i suggest you not read this part.
unless you are curious about this side of me.
but somehow... i don't think you are.
love yea both <3)
I have noticed that most of the contradictions in my life, manifest themselves in my sex life, i guess that's why i have so much trouble in sex i so think it's best avoided.
I am Pansexual. Click the flag for Wiki
(meaning i don't care about the Physical body), but also VERY choosy about my sexual partners I couldn't care less how they look. Fat/thin, tall/short, Male/Female Pimples/Clear skin. i really don't care. I prefer women, but if the right personality comes around, i won't ignore them, whom ever they be.
I have had more male partners then Female. again still not entering that range of slut (in my opinion). I think the numbers (i never really keep track so i have to count from memory) stand at 9m/7F i think.
I'm also as close as i can to being Analloerotic: Lacking in sexual interests towards others (but not lacking in sexual drive)
Right now i am involved with a beautiful girl, incredibly smart, and extremely kinky. Yes she is on VF, and no i am not going to link you. the only reason she got VF was to talk to me when her/mine phones are out of whack. (which in my case is fairly often.)
I'm a porn addict.
I do not believe in true love. Love, like any other emotion (hate, joy, sadness) is nothing more then a chemical reaction in your brain. It can be controlled it's just not very easy. people fall in to love, and fall out just as fast. Have i ever been in love? Yes. Am in love now? Yes.
A fetish or paraphilia is an unusual (usually acquired early in life.) method of sexual arousal, usually centered upon an object or an idea that mainstream society declares taboo. It is only a true fetish if the individual consistently relies on the object for arousal and can't find arousal without its presence
I do not have any true fetish, but i derive sexual fulfillment from (and it's paraphilia name):
Acomoclitic - from hairless genitals
Asiaphilia – a sexual attraction or preference for people, culture, or things of Asian origin, specifically by those of non-Asian descent
Autassassinophilia: The person is sexually aroused by putting themselves in situations in which they may be killed. They really have to feel they are in danger in order to be sexually aroused. Unfortunately, many of them get killed in the process. (i don't go to the extremes and i don't put myself in a situation unless i know what i am doing and yes... i could die in some of them. i am painfully aware of that. I've have had a couple of close calls. which were totally the best times!)
Biastophilia (Raptophilia): In this paraphilia the person is sexually aroused by the idea of being raped or raping. This is scripted and planned out ahead of time with a partner. The person does not actually want to be raped by a stranger.
Gynandromorphophilia: she-males and female impersonators
Miscegenation: sex between two people of different races
Mixophilia: The person likes to watch their partner or themselves engage in sexual activity. Usually this means watching themselves in a mirror.
Narratophilia: talking dirty or Telling dirty stories is sexually arousing.
Sadism: consensually Inflicting pain on others
Stigmatophilia: Body piercings and tattoos
Trichophilia: Hair (specifically on the head. i am not a fan of body hair)
Vampirism: blood play, Drawing or drinking blood
other activity's i enjoy are
BONDAGE: Physical materials applied to a submissive or slave to restrain their ability to move and/or to otherwise restrict them.
BOTTOM: A slang term for a submissive and/or masochist. Many people use the word "bottom" to mean specifically someone who enjoys being given various sensations, as opposed to a "submissive", who enjoys being controlled.
DISCIPLINE: Training by a Master in how they wish their submissive or slave to behave. Also, the punishment and correction administered by the Master when the submissive fails to act in the proper manner.
DOMINANT: One who enjoys assuming control. One who decides what happens and when. A dominant may or may not be sadistic.
FLAGELLATION: The general act of one person striking another, usually in an erotic context. Includes spanking, paddling, flogging and whipping.
SADIST: As loosely defined with the SM Community, a person who specifically enjoys administering pain. A person may be dominant without being sadistic. It's also possible to be sadistic without being dominant.
SUBMISSIVE: One who yields control. One who obeys orders and may permit themselves to be bound if doing so pleases their dominant or Master
I am both Submissive and Dominant, but usually the latter.
I am a sadist and not a masochist.
Some of you may have noticed my Swastika tattoo.
before you start calling me a Nazi, read this.
The swastika is an equilateral cross with arms bent at right angles, all in the same direction, usually the right, or clockwise. The swastika is a symbol of prosperity and good fortune and is widely dispersed in both the ancient and modern world. It originally represented the revolving sun, fire, or life. The word swastika is derived from the Sanskrit swastika which means, "conducive to well- being". The swastika was widely utilized in ancient Mesopotamian coinage as well as appearing in early Christian and Byzantium art, where it was known as the gammadion cross. The swastika also appeared in South and Central America, widely used in Mayan art during that time period.
In North America, the swastika was a symbol used by the Navajos. The swastika still continues today to be an extensively used sign in Buddhism, Jainism, and Hinduism. In Buddhism, a swastika represents resignation. In Jainism, it delineates their seventh saint, and the four arms are also used to remind the worshiper of the four possible places of rebirth; the animal or plant world, in Hell, on Earth, or in the spirit world. To Hindus, the swastika with the arms bent to the left is called the sathio or sauvastika, which symbolizes night, magic, purity, and the destructive goddess Kali. In both Hinduism and Jainism, the swastika or sathio is used to mark the opening pages or their account books, thresholds, doors, and offerings.
The swastika was a symbol for the Aryan people, a name which, in Sanskrit means "noble". The Aryans were a group of people who settled in Iran and Northern India. They believed themselves to be a pure race, superior to the other surrounding cultures. When the Germans looked for a symbol, they looked for a symbol which represented the purity which they believed they contained. The Nazis regarded themselves as "Aryans" and tried to steal the accomplishments of these pre-historic people.
In Nazi Germany, the swastika with its arms turned clockwise became the national symbol. In 1910, a poet and nationalist Guido von List suggested that the swastika as a symbol for all anti-Semitic organizations. When the National Socialist Party was formed in 1919, it adopted the ancient symbol, the swastika, giving it the worst meaning possible, destroying the good symbolism which the swastika had held for thousands of years prior.
In 1935, the black swastika on a white circle with a crimson background became the national symbol of Germany.
Today, whenever the ancient symbol is used, it is automatically assumed by most people that it is a Nazi symbol and that the people who use it are Nazis. When the Nazis took the ancient symbol, they erased the good meaning of the swastika, the symbol of purity and of life. The racist people of today further degrade the meaning of the ancient symbol by spray painting the swastika on people houses, cars, and even schools.
The swastika symbolizes so much more than what the Nazis planned. The swastika existed as a symbol of good fortune thousands of years before the Nazis even existed. The symbol is to many cultures an important one, representing their history and beliefs. The Nazis, by taking the swastika, annihilated the significance of the ancient symbol. Today, the swastika is to most people a symbol of evil, a symbol of demise, and a symbol of ruination. It is extremely depressing to find that although the swastika is a symbol of life, and symbol of joy, it has been made a symbol of evil, something the people of the ancient world never intended it to be.
The term “sadist” in popular usage describes one who obtains pleasure from indiscriminate brutality. Actually, though, a true sadist is selective. He carefully chooses from the vast reserve of appropriate victims, and takes great delight in giving those who thrive on misery the fulfillment of their desires. The “well‐adjusted” sadist is epicurean in selecting those on whom his energies will be well‐spent! If a person is healthy enough to admit he is a masochist and enjoys being enslaved and whipped, the real sadist is glad to oblige!
Aside from the foregoing exceptions, the Satanist would not intentionally hurt others by violating their sexual rights. If you attempt to impose your sexual desires upon others who do not welcome your advances, you are infringing upon their sexual freedom. Therefore, Satanism does not advocate rape, child molesting, sexual defilement of animals, or any other form of sexual activity which entails the participation of those who are unwilling or whose innocence or naïveté would allow them to be intimidated or misguided into doing something against their wishes.
So this is another of them stupid advisory things. i have some very strong opinions and views that go against the normal thinking.
if you think you offend easily. Please don't read any of these.
if you do... you deserve being offended. fuck you.
This section has a little fact.
but mostly it's what goes through
This fucked up brain of mine.
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the birth of humanity is a touchy subject. so many "facts" have been proven untrue as history progresses. now i am in no way a scientist. nor am i a theologian. i can only look at what media (and all media is corrupted) chooses to tell us. if it wasn't for the internet we would be completely blind.
now i believe in evolution, you can see it even in your own life. but what i don't get is how did Homo Erectus make the sudden leap to Homo Sapien? *note* I have since watched a documentary that states Homo Sapien, Homo Erectus, Homo Neanderthalensis and possibly a few other species existed at the same time, and used a very nice reenactment using some very good looking Sapiens, kicking some Homo Butt. *end note* how did we suddenly go for simple tool making, hunter gatherers to Metropolis building, weapons of mass destruction. Some people said it was the birth of farming and husbandry, but what about the physical differences? Homo sapiens are of lighter build then there older cousin, the forehead shows a sharp rise, the back of the skull is rounded, eyebrow ridges are very small or more usually absent, teeth are smaller and the chin is more prominent. In the elders, the cranium is long and low and somewhat flattened at the front and back. The face is short but wide and the nasal aperture projected forward.
Moving on. Did you know it was only 66 years from mans first flight (Wright brothers) to the "Moon landing"? that is evolution at hyper speed. See to me it doesn't add up. the dinosaurs were on the planet a HELL of a lot longer then we ever were, some had tiny brains some had MASSIVE brains... But none of them had come close to the intelligence (if you can call raping and pillaging the planet an intelligent move) none of them formed governments. no bombs in site? anyone hear a car alarm in the Triassic age? didn't think so. now some could credit this to the lack of opposable thumbs, but i am sure with enough intelligence they could have worked around it. After all humans who are missing there thumbs due to an accident or birth defect get along just fine with out them.
so why did humans evolve so rapidly? i don't think we did it alone. i think we had help. i don't know i was not alive 6000 year ago...
maybe Adam and Eve is is correct, maybe Adam and Eve were the first Homo Sapiens in a world of Homo Erectus.
now i am not even going to start speculating "who, what when where why or how". just... the "huh?"
SHH!!! they will throw you in the nuthouse!
E.T., Martian, Extraterrestrial, little green men, man from Mars, visitor from another planet. call it what you will. they came, gave humanity the little boost they needed, and disappeared.
i believe that most ancient pagan religions. (Greek Roman, Celtic, Indian, all the others are based off of two things. The Sun and movement of the stars, and these alien visitors from these said stars.
where they are now, i have no idea.
But they fucked up.
made the mistake of giving such a violent, psychotic race help.
Maybe... they found out in the end what there mistake was.
we destroyed them, like we do everything else.
again... just my thoughts....
If there is a god.
It is the internet. the ability to transfer information at the click of a button. the ability to talk to someone face to face, half way around the world. Man kind has created many thing in order to cull us and whip us in to submission.
but Man also created the Internet...
and that shall be his downfall!
And USE it!
A lot of lies are written on the internet.
A lot of lies written in to the fabric of society.
It is up to you to pick them out.
What? what does this word even mean? i think it was created by 13 year olds who needed a word to alienate people.
Poser goth, Poser Punk. i keep hearing these words said among children. especial on this site.
"dislikes- posers. fakes." who are you to call fake?
First of all you are 13! 4745 Days. 284700 Hours. you are NOTHING. how dare you call someone else fake just because they are doing there own thing. because they mimic you in some small way they deserved to be called posers? first of all copying is the greatest forum of flattery. second. there is no originality left in the world. you coped your style off someone. the only way you can back out of this one is if you MAKE ALL YOUR OWN CLOTHS YOURSELF. Then you can say you have your own style. But that still does not give you the right to look down on someone because they are trying something different in there lives. after all, every elder goth started somewhere. posers... anyone who uses this word deserves to be bitch slapped
Ok the Christens aren't going to like this one,
so if you are Christen or Catholic or any number of Sects of this broken church. i advise, skip this one.
or not, it's up to you, because it's just me taking the piss. (Cheers Brits)
THE VIRGIN MARY
It's quite simple. Mary was a Hermaphrodite in hiding. as you know anything that deviated from the churches dogma would be killed.
Joseph, the gentle husband, is pushed away by his "shy" wife. One Night after hitting the Blood of Christ (also: wine) a bit to much, got physical (as men often did since the creation of booze till now) PUNCHES his dear wife in the stomach! She ruptured something. Her male parts fertilize her female parts
Jesus Christ Superstar!
OK so Technology... wow... the only thing that we have really accomplished in the Technology field is not much... Fire.. nature invented it, we just harness it, same with electricity. We only copied flight. put our own killing spin on it. same with under water.
Technology hasn't really changed anything... other then the way we can do things, and the vulnerability to which they are attached. Thousands of years ago they had "modern" equipment that allowed them to breath under water for up to an hour. An Animal stomach and intestines, Cured and stitched in the right way and they could hold air underwater for someone with a weighted belt. scuba gear does increase the time under water and the ease, but is in no way a new invention.
modern planes are very vulnerability is a simple EMP blast. Unlike Movies you see, you can make an EMP bomb, without making a bomb (unless you are using a nuclear device, which you can purchase from your local Black market dealer.) Its easy to make, and thanks to the internet. a deaf and dumb chimp could make one.
now your Ipod and SmartPhones are smart. the problem is, they were designed by men. Greedy men who want more and more and more, so they start designing there products to break, forcing us to "buy an extra warranty" and when the fucking thing breaks, "That's not covered under the warranty" Forcing you to, In rage and rebellion, go to there competitor, and proceed to get fucked by them.
Technology is a double edged sword. it will be the destroyer of Mankind, but it allows those of like mind to find each other. to plan and especially to survive. when the end of days comes we will be relying on our technology, not the hydrogen cars, of the laser guns.
the Technology we will use is more basic. modern tools. Use an axe to fell a tree instead of the chain saw. use your feet to move about, instead of the car. and use our head to think, instead of computers.
but that time is not yet.
for now embrace the toys of man. use them to learn about the past.
After studding this topic for the last few hours my initial reaction is "it's not perfect but it's better then what we have now" even there founder Jacque Fresco, said it wasn't perfect.
So far from my small little probe, i can safely assume, i won't agree with this project. but i will respect what it is trying to accomplish.
now i have tested the waters of The Venus Project, time to dive head first in to this study.
Humans or Homo Sapiens (Latin for "wise man" or "knowing man"), are bipedal primates. Humans have a highly developed brain, (very arguable indeed.) capable of abstract reasoning, language, introspection (this is one of the many problems. we spend too much time looking inside ourselves we don't look at the world around us), and problem solving (as well as problem causing). This mental capability, combined with an erect body that frees the hands, with opposable thumbs, for manipulating objects, has allowed humans to make far greater use of tools than any other living species on Earth.
They are Violent, war loving spices, who take no greater pleasure in the suffering of other of there own kind. the difference between me and the rest of humans, is i admit this is true.
Fear is one of there main emotions. they live in fear of death, fear of god, fear of cars, fear of Balloons, fear of life.
We are the only species who kills for pleasure. and we kill our own kind more then any other species on the planet. we are the only species to create weapons of mass destruction. and to make it worse.
WE HAVE USED THEM!
in the last 700 years we have reduced the forests on the planet close to 68%
that's over have of the land mass of planet destroyed. gone. Experts estimates that we are losing 137 plant, animal and insect species every single day due to rain forest deforestation. That equates to 50,000 species a year.
Humans are the cancer of earth. a tumor growing too big. and pretty soon, the earth is going to have cosmic surgery.
December 21 2012. Do i think the world is going to end on this day.
but i do think it is the beginning of the end. maybe the polar shift. maybe god coming down, Satan coming up.
George Carlin said it best. "Religion Is BullSHIT"
they tell beautiful stories, but that's all they are.
Lets look at Noah's Ark.
Genesis 6:1 - 9:17
Noah's Ark and the Flood - Story Summary:
God saw how great wickedness had become and decided to wipe mankind from the face of the earth. However, one righteous man among all the people of that time, Noah, found favor in God's eyes. With very specific instructions, God told Noah to build an ark for him and his family in preparation for a catastrophic flood that would destroy every living thing on earth.
Noah must have been Schizophrenic. 2 years ago i heard a voice telling me that dinosaurs were going to wipe out humanity! must have been god. yup yup.
God also instructed Noah to bring into the ark two of all living creatures, male and female, along with every kind of food to be stored as food for the animals and his family while on the ark. Noah obeyed everything God commanded him to do.
How many of each type of animal did Noah take on the ark? Seven pairs of each kind of clean animal and two pairs of each kind of other animals were taken on the ark (Genesis 6:19-20; 7:2-3). By “clean” I take it the Bible means animals that were "acceptable for sacrifice." As that's what Noah did after the flood. That is why seven pairs of the clean animals were taken – so some of them could be sacrificed after the Flood was over without endangering the species.
Lets do some math! The National Science Foundation’s “Tree of Life” project estimates that there could be anywhere from 5 million to 100 million species on the planet, but science has only identified about 2 million.
so. lets forget about the species we have not classified (we will get back to that later). that leaves us with 2 million. now it doesn't say exactly how many "clean" animals there were, so lets just completely ignore the number 7 (for now)
2 million species times that by 2 (one male and one female) that's 4 million (but IF we added the number 7 in there somewhere. now not all the animals are "clean" so what i am going to do is assume that 5 out of 7 are clean, 5 X 2 million, that could potentially be brought up 10000000 animals. Further more. They don't believe in evolution. so that means Noah might have saved 100 million species animals. I'm going to let you do that math on that one, if you want... whether you do or not... you can not deny that's a looot of mouths to feed. lets just stick with 4 million. That is a large enough number.)
now you have to factor in the time it took to build said boat... sorry Ark. How long did it take Noah to build the ark? The Bible does not specifically say how long it took. When Noah is first mentioned in Genesis 5:32, he is 500 years old (really.... 500? yet most of my relatives died before they could hit One Hundred and Fiftyteen!). When Noah enters the ark, he is 600 years old. At the absolute most, it took 100 years.
After they entered the ark, rain fell on the earth for a period of forty days and nights. The waters flooded the earth for a hundred and fifty days, and every living thing on the face of the earth was wiped out. As the waters receded, the ark came to rest on the mountains of Ararat. Noah and his family continued to wait for almost eight more months while the surface of the earth dried out.
40 days/nights plus, 150 days of flood. plus 8 months on the ark.
How long was Noah on the ark? Noah entered the ark in the 600th year of his life, on the 17th day of the 2nd month (Genesis 7:11-13). Noah left the ark on the 27th day of the 2nd month of the following year (Genesis 8:14-15). Therefore, assuming a lunar calendar of 365 days, Noah was on the ark for approximately 370 days.
How many people were on Noah's ark? According to Genesis chapters 6-8, Noah, his wife, Noah's three sons (Shem, Ham, and Japheth), and their wives were on the ark. Therefore, there were eight people on the ark.
Do you know how much food it would take to feed 4 million + animals and one human family of 8 for 370 days? not to mention water. after all if the flood actually covered the planet, it would all be salt water as the oceans would mix with the rain. (and don't say the rain... that is only good for the first 40 days and nights.) if you were to put less then a teaspoon of salt in every glass of water that you drank, you would soon dehydrate as salt would suck the water right out of your cells.
lets talk about the weight of the ark, animals, water and food. water- 1 liter of water at 4c weighs 1kg (http://wiki.answers.com/Q/How_much_does_one_liter_of_water_weigh) (and just for shits and giggles i just took a 45 minute break and actually experiment to prove it to myself. And i came out to the same answer.)
OK... so 4 million animals and a human family could consume in one day... i would guess about 6 million+ liters of water a day.
that's more then 13,200,000 lbs or 5 987.419 284 ton [metric]
wow... my head is hurting from all the numbers.... but lets continue
13.2 million Lbs X 350 days a year = 4,818,000,000Lbs of water alone that said ark could carry, because lets face it. they don't have water distillery's today, large enough even to take on that challenge.
i am not even going to touch the weight of food and animals because you get the picture. i would expect it to weigh a hell of a lot more.
now to build an boat that size
God dammit... i keep doing that.
Ark Ark Ark!
(Christians IRL keep bitching at me when i call it a boat )
it would have taken Millions upon millions of trees. i don't know exactly, but i would guess he would have had to cut down a forest the size of Montana and Texas put together, after all there would be some pieces of wood that were cut wrong. even a master carpenter makes mistakes. really? one man could do that in 100 years? hell if a human (remember, Noah was HUMAN... of 500 years of age. his sons must have been middel age. maybe 290? to 479? i don't know.) could clear a forest that size by himself in 100 years, shit... the planet would have been doomed.
oh and one more thing...
once the waters were gone, there were 8 people left to repopulate the planet... 8 people expand in to 700,000 billion, evolving (oh yea... thats right you don't believe in evolution) in to many different races (Chinese, African, Indian, Native American, Mayan, etc. etc. etc.) in a matter of a few thousand years....
that would explain why humans are so inbred and fucked in the head.
and because of that inbreeding... it would explain why so many of us believe in an invisible man in the sky and his son... who love us.
Illuminati, Freemasons, and other such society do exist, but i don't think they have as much sway as they like to think. there are two many groups fighting for control that it's just not possible for one group to gain the upper hand...
unless.... one already has and is keeping the illusion of the others alive...
Women must shave there legs
Men are hairy
who made up these rules? i under stand if you have a really dirty job, or sweat a lot. then showering everyday makes sense. but think about it. what is the one thing you need to shower. Water. and what gets SOLD to you? Water. the one thing EVERYTHING needs to live. "no you don't get it unless you give us something in return." it's bull shit. I shower once ever 3 days if i have not done anything to overly dirty. and i have never had anyone complain that i stink.
Shaving. what a fucked up concept. sexy... but fucked up.
a few years ago i started shaving my legs because.. well i wanted to. The first time my mother saw, she flipped shit. what i don't understand is why is it socially acceptable for women to shave there body, but when men do it, "It's queer"
Women naturally grow hair on there legs, so do men? why is body hair a sign of masculinity? less then 500 years ago you would have had to deal if your wife had hairy legs, and a mustache and beard...
done for now.
(in no particular order)
1) Mein Kampf - Adolf Hitler (An interesting look in to the mind of a man I both love and HATE)
2) The Satanic Bible - Anton Szandor LaVey
3)SAS Survival Guide. - Written by a LOT of survival experts
6)Run From The Cure. A Documentary About Rick Simpson and his struggle to bring Hemp Oil Back in to the medicinal market. (http://topdocumentaryfilms.com/run-from-the-cure/)
7)Blue Gold - World Water Wars
8)Earthlings -Warning- This video contains very graphic content Of animal abuse and cruelty. If you are squeamish, weak stomach Or love animals as much as i do... well... viewer discretion is advised. and yes... this video made me cry. (http://topdocumentaryfilms.com/earthlings/)